Hi everyone! It’s been a while. I have yet to get into the grove of writing my blog regularly, but I’m working on it. I think I’ve been trying to do too much so when I rotate my to do’s based on deadlines my blog hasn’t made it.

Like many U.S. citizens I was put in a horrible financial situation because of COVID. I was emotionally thrown for a loop when I was told my livelihood depended on something that had not been researched or medically proven. So, I had to build my life over. I have spent over 20 years teaching in the classroom. When I was told I couldn’t work without putting my freedom and health on the line, I had no clue what to do next. What do you do? I had not intended on retiring.

I tutored for the rest of the school year. But I knew it wouldn’t provide me with the life I wanted. I was helping children and I enjoyed the one on one. But then what? I spent time writing and working on myself. I kept looking for work that wouldn’t come. Well, only contract jobs.

So what did I do? I became a travel agent. Did you just scrunch up your face like WTF? LOL! I know, not exactly stable, but self controlled. Let me explain what I mean. So, I knew before I retired from teaching that I would keep working. I would not stay home and just die. I wanted a job I love that I would keep doing for years to come. And one where I controlled my hours and income. That’s where the idea for stationary originally came from. (make sure to read the latest post for that) Then I found tutoring. It would be difficult to make a living on that alone, but it was okay. I didn’t mind teaching some subjects and you learn where the student is at and what they need. But I wanted something more. Tutoring is still during the school terms. What about the rest of the time? Writing is about waiting once you’ve written. And I needed a break after I focused on it. Yes, what I’m saying is I need to rotate activities to keep me interested. I know, talking about beating around the bush. Dragging it out….

I became a travel agent. I’m here to service your travel needs. Do you need show tickets? Game tickets? Need someone to take on the hassle of booking all trips and trimming for a group, wedding, birthday…… The list goes on. I got you. Not only do I love to travel, but I love exploring where to travel. It’s something I can get lost in. I have gotten lost in. I’m ready to start when I get up and I can go for hours. I remember to eat and then I go right back to it.

I love travel. What better way to spend my life then helping people to experience their greatest moments. And, I get to give discounts. How awesome is that?

So, check me out. You can visit my main page. Check out what specials are available. If you know where you want to go, contact me. Just scroll down a bit and post your questions in the comment box.

But that’s not all. I am specializing in a few different types of travel. One is Disney. I have my own website for Disney. The other is Virgin Voyages. OMG! I’m so excited to share it with you.

Until my next post, Peace and Love.


Stationary Shop

Hey! Peace and Love to you all! Thanks for stopping by.

As usual I’m working on my novel and my shop. I’ve had a shop on Etsy for many years now. It wasn’t a stationary shop before. I’ve tried natural products and custom jewelry before, but they never did well. Or should I say I didn’t give them enough time to really grow.

I’m a crafter by nature I think. As I child I loved to draw. As I grew older I turned to macrame and crochet before being moved to writing short stories. I’ve posted one of them for my blog page. I’ve wanted to post more, I will some day. As a child I was exploring each craft. As an adult I love them all. But who has time for all. I’ve even added a few, sewing and jewelry making. Think I have enough?

As I bounced my shop from one idea to the next, I couldn’t figure out what I really wanted my shop to be about. Now that I have found my way back to planning, it’s a stationary shop with a bit of crafts thrown in. Not only do the crafts make my shop a bit different from the rest, but my stationary designs are one of a kind.

Once I got into planning, I bought different insert pages. They were adorable. I loved them. But, I like to change things up. As organized as I try to be, I don’t like using the same set up all the time. Plus there were a few things I thought should be included in any insert set. So I created my own and began selling them. My business is no where near where I want it to be, but that’s okay. I think I finally found a shop I want to keep.

So my idea is, to keep the stationary shop, but when created, give my customers an opportunity to purchase other unique items. Right now you can buy crocheted items in my shop. I love to crochet, so there may be a few there on a regular basis. We’ll see.

Make sure to stop by ‘PlanningNCrafting’ on Etsy.


What’s Going On?

Peace & Love to all of you. Thank you for taking the time to check in on my page. Reading an article or story makes me even more appreciative.

The world is still in turmoil. I’m wondering when will this end. I’m pretty sure you are also. We thought the pandemic was over. Well, technically it is, but certain people can’t go back to work. Wait, I have a question. If only those who have taken the shot are working, and the rest of us and limited because we have no job, therefore no or limited funds, whose spreading the darn thing? Just asking. I tutor from home, so I have limited contact with the outside world and I haven’t heard of an outbreak where I go. Not saying it doesn’t happen, I just haven’t heard. Take it how you want to. I understand why people rushed to get it. I mean, job and health are important things. I understand those who refuse. Again, your health is an important thing. You may be able to find another job, but if your health gets worse, how are you going to work. My thinking was, this will be over soon and I can go back to work. Then, they began to tell you that people started dropping dead or getting some mysterious reaction from the shop. It’s not worth the job. It’s a double edge sword for sure. Between a rock and a hard place. (I got 1 more) Damned if you do and damned if you don’t.

While I have no regrets, I miss that paycheck, as I’m sure many of you do. It’s hard to go from six figures or five figures to twenty percent of your paycheck or worse, nothing. We’re struggling. After all of that, there’s a war. Oil prices, food prices and everything has gone up. But most of us have a reduced income, WTF. And the politicians are saying we’ll have to deal with it. How about you stop making decisions for me, that don’t seem to bother you.

Just saying what’s going through my head. To some degree I thought we had started to grow as a country, come to find out we just like to create the status quo no matter how it’s done. I don’t know.

Stay tuned for my shop info.

If you’re reading this and your child needs tutoring, I use Zoom or Meet to tutor. I tutor in math and English 3 – 9 grade, Social Studies 6 – 12. Fill out the contact form (click on Let’s Connect on the main page) and I’ll get in touch with you. Tutoring will also be available during the summer.

Peace and Love to you all. Keep hanging in there. I will too.



Peace & Love Everyone!

I know it’s been a while since I’ve written. Right now, I’m working on getting a handle on being more productive.

This year, I updated the goal planner in the shop. There are a lot of goal planners out there, but I’m a bit picky. Last year, I started a new program, and I want my goal planner to mirror what I’m learning. But, of course, that also makes it ever changing and improving.

My goals planner for the first year was just a calendar. I would write in what needed to be done each month. But that left me floundering. I wanted a place to write out all of my goals. I know that should have been a no brainer. But then, how was I supposed to figure out all the steps for each intention without writing them down. Then, of course, I needed to track each step. So, a steps sheet was added

That seemed like a great idea. With each objective, I had tons of designs. Next was the idea sheet. But that wasn’t enough. So this year, I added a priority sheet. With our ideas and goals, it’s crucial to figure out what to do first, set a path.

Right now, in the shop, you can purchase the whole goal planner or by section. Let’s face it, we’re all different and have different ways of doing things. I believe it’s necessary to have a planner system that works for you. The complete set includes 12 blank calendars, 6 steps, 6 goals, 6 ideas, and 6 priority sheets.

And yes, I know it’s March, not January. But, it’s never too late to start working on your goals.

Make sure to subscribe. This way, you’ll know when the next post comes. Next post, goal setting, and the steps we take to get there.


Happy New Year

Peace and Love everyone!

It’s 2022! We have all been looking forward to the new year, hoping for change and a way out of that crappy whatever. Am I right? I’m with you. At the same time I remember that I can only control me. So if I want 2022 to be different, I have to make it different. No, it won’t change what other people do or think. It won’t change what the government does. We’re all frustrated on some level with what is going on, regardless of what side you’re on. We can only change and control ourselves.

So what are you going to do? Have you made a bunch of new year’s resolutions you’re not going to keep? Now focus. What do you want? Do you want a new job, car or house? Do you want to travel? Want to start your own business? Whatever it is you want, decide. That’s the first step. Making a concrete promise to yourself is half the battle. Get a journal or a paper filled binder and write it down. This will be the book for your goals. You need to write down when you are going to have this done. Once that’s done, then you have to decide how you are going to get there. That’s where the Steps page in my goals insert comes in. You’ll need to identify exactly what needs to be done to get to your goal. Some goals are so big you may not know the entire way to get there. I have been there. But as you hold on and work towards it the pieces come.

I have a goal that I’m working on from 2020. I finished it, I achieved my goal only to realize it’s missing something. It happens.

So you’re on your way. Now you just have to start. Be consistent and if you aren’t start again and stick to it.

Let me know how yours goals are going. I’ll update you with one of them soon.

Are you looking for a goal planner for your rings or travelers notebook? Check out the one I created in my shop.

Until next time.

Peace & Love


Check In

Peace and Love to everyone. I want to first say, thank you for your support.

It’s been a tiring few weeks, as different areas of the work force fight for their right to do with their bodies as they chose. If you had told me that America would begin demanding injections for their people I would have told you that you were crazy. We are the land of the free. Right?

I’ve been cleaning my room, rearranging things as I begin to put together what I would like to do since I’m not working. I have been put on leave because I won’t get it. My religious exemption was denied. I’m not the only one. It’s sad and frustrating. If it were anything else I would not have been so against it. But in the name of safety our government chips away at our rights wanting more control. If we are not careful, this democratic country won’t be so democratic any more.

,So, where was I? Yes, prepping my room to begin creating items for sale. I was on Amazon this morning trying to put together my shop with them. It is so complicated. Of course, I probably think that because it’s foreign to me. I will keep my Etsy shop open, of course. I’m a planner all the way. And I would like my crochet items to be sold there. It’s a work in progress and I have a way to go. I’ve been posting my craft videos on Tic Tok, so if you’d like to see what I’m up to make sure to stop by. @lettiplans_n_creates.

I’m going to relax and crochet for the rest for the rest of the day. Long list of things tomorrow.

Thanks for stopping by. Peace & Love.


Land of Freedom?

I know it’s been long over due. I’m writing again.

At this moment I am questioning whether America is really the land of the free? I guess it’s all relative. We have more freedoms then most. So if that defines it for you, there you go.

As a history teacher there’s an understanding as to what that is supposed to be. Now, I’m sure you know it has not always been that way for blacks. And in many ways it still isn’t, but let’s assume we are all the same. We are all United States citizens with the same rights. If that is true, then the mandates are unconstitutional.

I know, some of you don’t care. Many of you feel it’s necessary. You may be scared. We all are. We don’t want to die. We don’t want to suffer. I get it, but you have to think long term. Right now many of you are thinking, just get the damn vaccine and let’s get back to living. Trust and believe, I’ve thought about it. But what if I’m one of those people who gets sick from it or dies. Hundreds of thousands of people have died from this vaccine. And more are dying. You’re okay for now, but what about later. Let’s not get there yet.

So, in NYC it has been mandated that all city workers get the vaccine. I just found out that in CA they have mandated it for children. Here is my issue with the vaccine. First of all it hasn’t gone through the testing drugs and vaccines usually go through. It was too sudden. Yes, I know it was a dire situation. But developing the right medicine or vaccine take years, not a few months. No matter how hard they worked they wouldn’t be able to create a safe shot in a matter or months verses years. Second the new formula for the vaccine has been used in this one that has never been used before. They haven’t been studying how it effects humans. So now our government mandates it. What?

Now as an African American I have trust issues with the government to begin with and it goes way past slavery. I don’t want to get into the testing that was done on my people, as well as the lynching and sterilization. So no, you start paying to take something that you claim is good for me I’m going to give you the side eye. You must have lost your mind.

Now doctors already know that it won’t work the way it’s supposed to. The CDC knew it too. Even knowing it they have changed their tune. This shot will not help prevent the spread of the disease as stated by CDC Director Dr. Rochelle Walensky ‘the COVID vaccines cannot prevent the transmission of the disease.’ (https://www.thegatewaypundit.com/2021/08/cdc-director-tells-cnn-covid-vaccines-cant-prevent-transmission-video/

what is Covid?

Now you might say, I’ve seen data to the contrary. Okay. So I have some questions for you? Since when has the government paid people to take the vaccine? Usually when you enter a drug trial you still have to pay to be a part of it or at least your health insurance pays for it. So why are they giving away almost anything under the sun. All around the US they were giving out weed, alcohol, full ride to college, gift cards, burgers and now money. That doesn’t seem odd to you? But we’re a country in debt for trillions of dollars. So, where is the money coming from? Who is paying all this money for commercials on What’s the usual procedure for a viable vaccine?

Wait there’s more. Did you know that the vaccines contain aborted baby cells? Yes, it is true.

Each of the three Covid-19 vaccines currently approved (under Emergency Use authorization) involved aborted fetal tissue or human embryonic stem cell derivation lines. 

Johnson & Johnson/Janssen vaccine: Fetal cell cultures are used to produce and manufacture the J&J Covid-19 vaccine and the final formulation of this vaccine includes residual amounts of the fetal host cell proteins and/or host cell DNA.

Pfizer/BioTech:The HEK-293 abortion-related cell line was used in research related to the development of the the Pfizer Covid 19 vaccine.

Moderna/NIAID: Aborted fetal cell lines were used in other the development and testing of Moderna’s Covid-19 vaccine.

A chart describing the aborted human fetal cell line issues of each Covid-19 Vaccine is here: COVID-19 Vaccine Candidates and Abortion-Derived Cell Lines.

Specifically, the Covid-19 inoculations are manufactured using the aborted “10% Fetal Clone II” from the HEK293T/17 (ATCC CRL-1126), Vero E6 (ATCC) fetus cell line.

The J&J vaccine is an adenovirus vector grown in the PER.C6 cell line that originated from healthy 18 week old aborted child. The Pfizer and Moderna vaccines were tested using the morally compromised HEK-293 cell line, originating from a child aborted in the Netherlands in 1972.

While the United States government is trying to make us take it, other countries have begun to repeal their mandates realizing that it’s not going to leave and there is more hype that danger. They aren’t ignoring the shot, instead they continue to promote it without making it mandatory.

Me, I’m still holding on. Fighting to keep my job as others do also. Let’s building out immune system. That’s how you stay safe.

See check in next month.

Peace & Love


We Should All Have The Same Rights!

This will be really brief. Or at least that is my initial intention.

Peace and Love to everyone who reads my blog. I haven’t written in a while and I probably should have. But spilt milk and all.

Here in New York we’ve been locked down for over 10 weeks now. And amidst the challenges of the corona virus is the constant issue of racism. I’ve sat and watched video after video of the protests and what people have to say. No, I didn’t watch the video of George Floyd being murdered by the police. I couldn’t. It would have torn me apart. As it is, I just watch police attack and brutally beat peaceful protestors. Videos that were not online and I couldn’t find them on youtube. To be honest, I probably didn’t search that hard.

As an African American in this country I am constantly bombarded with America’s hate of us. Oh yes, we create the fashion trends, trends set by people of color but for anything else, we are a reminder to America that the ideals they believe are a lie. Why else would you chose to continue to subjugate and murder a nationality of people. Well, I can think of one more thing, money. This country still benefits from us on so many levels.

I’m not here to convince you. There are plenty of people for that. There is one video that makes so much sense to me. The young lady breaks down the general idea behind why as a black person in this country, we are still fighting for our rights promised by the Constitution. We are still second class citizens in the land of the free, where everyone is supposed to be equal. Everything blacks have fought for, others have benefited but we still fight. And police officers and whites still continue to abuse and kill us for no reason at all, with little or no consequenes. For those of you about to say what about black on black crime. What about it? There is white on white crime, spanish on spanish crime, Indian on Indian crime. Must I go on, or do you get the point. Human beings aren’t all wonderful and that goes for every nationality.


So when this passes and the protest aren’t covered in the news, remember that we must continue to fight. Many people on social media have posted ways to help. Please do so.

As for me, the scars of living as a black person in the country are constantly ripped open, when they haven’t yet healed. We press on.

Peace & Love

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Chapter 10: Loving Autumn

Peace & Love Everyone!

I hope everyone has had a great week.

Today I wrote Chapter 10, and I couldn’t just end the story there, so next week will be the last story or blog I’m writing for a while, or at least that’s the plan. I am working on healing my body from hyperthyroidism. I’ve been dealing with it for years now, and it’s finally taking its toll. I haven’t heard anything beneficial from the doctors other than the same thing I’ve listened to for years. My options are to kill my thyroid or have it removed. Either way, I take medication for the rest of my life. I’m tired a lot due to the drug. No telling what other effects it’s having.

Anyway. I just need some time to get myself together. Not to mention, I need to work on my novel. I have a lot of ideas, but my time is limited, and I’ve been spending a lot of time working on my blog and planning instead of my novel. So I’m going to switch gears for a little while.

Chapter 10

The last few weeks have been warm and bubbly. I’ve spent a lot of time with Raj and his family. We’ve been planning our wedding, which was coming up quickly. Six months seemed to be far away, but the time was creeping closer.

We sent out the invitations, and I had chosen the style and material for all of my dresses. My only worry was that I was starting to see in changes in my body. Yes, I was pregnant. Raj and his family were so excited.

“Autumn, you need to get moving.”

“I’m dressed.”

“If you had moved all of your stuff, you wouldn’t have to go home to get dressed.”

“I know I need to pack and move.”

“I told you I would hire someone to do it for you. You just need to supervise.”

“Next week. When we get home, I’m going to hold you so that and set up the appointment.”

I grab my bag, and we head to the car. Raj drops me at the train station before he heads into the city. My mind is running with all the things on my plate right now. I need to go home and change before I head into the office. If we left earlier, or if I were ready sooner, Raj would have dropped me to the apartment.

I run up the stairs of the building and get the elevator. As I walk into my apartment, I’m greeted by Charlie sprawled on my couch, his laptop, and a box of pizza on my expensive table. Unbelieveable. I so want to slam the door and wake him up to kick him out, but I don’t have time for this.

I slam the door anyway as I drop my bag and walk briskly to my bathroom closet. I know I wake him up because he yells, ‘what the fuck,’ and then I hear Charlie fall on the floor. I’m past him, not even looking back.


I keep moving and am already in my bathroom. “Get out, Charlie.”

“I have nowhere else to go. I’ll be out soon. I have another job in a few weeks.”

“I’m giving up the apartment. Take it up with the owner.”

“Can I keep the furniture? My last apartment was furnished.”

“I don’t have time, Charlie. I need to get to work.” I’m undressed and sliding on my skirt when he barges into my closet. “Don’t you fucking knock?”

“You didn’t have a problem with it before.”

“Things have changed as if you didn’t know.”

“I’ve noticed, but I figured after my performance, you’d be back at your apartment. So after my last job, I’ve waited here.”

I pause in the middle of sliding on my blouse. Did he just say, ‘after his last performance’? That’s not possible. Still, I don’t have time for this; I finish dressing and walk past him.

“You’re not going to say anything?”

“Oh, I have a lot to say, but you don’t want to hear it. And I need to get to the office.”

“You can be late.” He grabs my arm. The look I give him as I turn makes him let go. “Guess I shouldn’t have done that.”

I was trying not to get all emotional, but my head was swimming. He did it on purpose. You think someone loves you, and then they do something that lets you know they are only interested in themselves. They’ll try to tell you it was a mistake that they didn’t mean it. But they did. This is who they are.

“I can’t fuckin’ believe that you did that on purpose. You thought they would call off the engagement, and I’d be right back in your arms. Un-fuckin’ believable. Charlie, that was some selfish shit.”

“I know, but I didn’t know what else to do. I was losing you.”

“I was never yours. We were friends. Then we were lovers, but we were never together. We were never a couple. You don’t want commitments or children, remember? You want your freedom. So keep it and leave me the fuck alone. We aren’t friends; we aren’t anything. And I suggest you take your shit and find someplace else to squat. When I come back at the end of the week, I don’t want to see you here.”

I don’t even look at him as I say that I don’t want to see him. I leave as the tears start to roll, slamming the door behind me. I am heartbroken. Charlie has been my best friend for over a decade, and he did that to me. I can’t deal with people right now. I uber to work. I never uber to work, but in this instance, I need the time as alone as possible.

Copyright 2019-2020

Hope you’ve enjoyed the next installment of Loving Autumn. I will work on getting the rest of the chapters up as soon as possible. I wanted to end it here but it seems that’s not happening. So I’ll see how the next chapter goes. Still, I already know that Charlie isn’t going to leave without a fight. Stay tuned to see what happens.

‘Til next time.

Peace & Love


Loving Autumn Chapter 9

Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope you’ve had a great week.

I was blessed enough to hangout with my beautiful daughter this weekend. We checked out two places that we love to eat. Yes, we are foodies. I’ll have to do a blog about places to eat in New York one day.

OMG! I so thought that I wouldn’t be able to write this blog story, for I’ve had a horrible bout of writer’s block. I had no ideas all week. I was trying to figure out where I go from chapter 8s end. As I was trying to sleep last weekend, it came to me, at least part of it. But this week again, no idea on how to continue. When writing for a novel, have a bit more time to overcome writer’s block. Not so when writing a blog page. Anyway, here goes…

After what happened, I didn’t go downstairs again. The party ran into the wee hours of the morning. I could hear the music as I’m sure so could my neighbors. Of course, we invited them. This way, we avoid any problems with them.

I’m sure everyone thought it was weird that I went up to our room and didn’t return, but I just couldn’t. There was no way I could put on a happy face after what just happened. I have no idea what Raj told them. I told him to party for both of us and that he could dance with Rhea for the last time. He smiled but stayed with me for a while. I was all cried out.

Raj got back from the party after everyone had left, I had not moved from the couch. When he left, he wouldn’t let me sit on the floor anymore, so I sat on the sofa staring at the wall where my best friend tried to force himself on me. I cried again until the tears stopped coming.

“Autumn, you haven’t moved at all?”

I didn’t answer. That couldn’t have been a question.

“My love.”

Finally, I looked toward him. He did look so handsome. “I’m sorry I messed up our engagement party.”

“Everyone said they hope you feel better. Then they kept taunting me, saying that we’re rushing to marry because I got carried away. The family thinks you’re pregnant.”

I said nothing. I could be, but I refused to take the pregnancy test. I want to deny it a little longer.

“Could you be?”

“We will not discuss that.”

“Autumn, you haven’t menstruated in over a month.”

“I know, and we won’t acknowledge it. I was looking forward to getting to know my husband, not rushing into being a mother.”

“We’ve been together a year. You’ve never been late.”

“Raj, you’re not even going to ignore this with me? I want to be a couple first.”

“We’ll always be a couple.” Raj sat down next to me and put his arms around me, pulling me into him.

“I love you; you know that.”

“Enough to anger your best friend.”

“I respect you and your family. I don’t want to bring shame upon them.”

“Spoken like a real Indian girl.”

I rolled my eyes and elbowed him.

Raj and I sat for a while, unmoving. We listened to the sounds of the house as we heard the last guest leave. Anjeli and Arjun were still downstairs speaking with mom and baujee. Then we heard them all on the stairs. Our door was open, but still, they knocked. Baujee entered first, followed by Riya, Anjeli, and Arjun.

“We figured we’d check on you since you missed your own engagement party.”

I looked up at baujee standing by the door. He was standing in front of everyone as they crowded the doorway. I padded Raj’s leg.

“Everyone, please come in, sit,” Raj replied. He got up and pulled the desk chairs close to the sofa and love seat. Baujee and mom sat in the chairs, Arjun and Anjeli, in the love seat.

I took a deep breath. “I am truly sorry that I missed the festivities. I’m not one for masking my emotions well, so I figured it would be better if I stayed upstairs. So sorry for the drama.”

“All the women now think Raj is a stud. They’re saying he must have a silver tongue and talked you into an early marriage so he can have a lot of children.”

My eyes widened, and I smiled. “Mom, to be honest, I agree. He’s a sweet talker, alright. He can’t wait for children.” I jokingly elbowed Raj as I laughed. “Plus, his curls and hazel eyes.”

Everyone laughed, except baujee. “He is no longer welcome here.”

“Of course,” I replied. I hope baujee didn’t’ think that I would let Charlie come to visit me here. I still was in shock about what happened. I know Charlie didn’t think about consequences, but I did. He put me in a horrible position.

“Thank, Ganesh, no one paid attention to him. He shouldn’t have come.”

I couldn’t help but think that baujee was right. I wasn’t sure Charlie would even make it. “I sent him an invitation thinking he’d still be out of the country. I’ve known him so long; I couldn’t not invite him. Still, I didn’t think he would do that to me.”

“I know you didn’t, but I had a feeling. Men are different. He probably always had it in the back of his head that he would end up with you. Then you started dating Raj; he probably figured it was his last chance, and he didn’t know how to handle it.”

“Don’t make excuses for him, Riya. What he did was despicable. And in our home. Westerners don’t think of how their actions affect others; it’s all about them and their feelings.”

I smiled in response and nodded my head. I agreed with baujee; Charlie gave no thought to my reaction or how I would feel. We sat in silence for a while. I leaned back on Raj and sniffled a little. It was a blessing to have such a supportive family. I started to cry. “Thank you all for being so supportive,” I said through the tears. I brought my dupatta up to wipe my eyes.

“Let’s go; they need their rest, and so do we. We’ll have breakfast in the morning before everyone goes off to work.”

“I thought we were going to work on the wedding tomorrow. I took the day off.”


“Yes, mom.”

“Perfect. You ladies have a girls’ day tomorrow. I’ll treat you all to a spa day.”

“Thank you, baujee,” Anjeli, and I said in unison. I blew him a kiss, and Anjeli kissed him on the cheek on the way out of our room.

“You, ladies, are very welcome. Since you ladies will be having a day, I say the men grab breakfast before we head to the office.”

“Sounds good,” replied Raj. Arjun smiled and nodded.

“Get some rest.” Baujee patted my hand and smiled before he turned and walked to the door.

“Shall we get ready for bed?”

“Yes, Raj.” We got up and walked to our bedroom. I never thought that baujee would be so forgiving of me. I thought he would blame me for what happened. I didn’t look like it.

“You know, Arjun had a talk with Charlie on the way out.”

“Wait; what?”

“He told him that since you were part of our family, he hoped that he, Charlie, would respect the relationship that you and I had.”

“But Arjun didn’t know what happened up here.”

“No, but Arjun knows our dynamic.”

“You told him.?”

“I talk to Arjun about everything. Especially the things I don’t tell mom.”

“I didn’t know.”

“It’s fine. Arjun won’t tell. He does have a new respect for you that strengthened when I told him what happened.”

“Okay. I don’t want to talk about it anymore. Charlie hurt me.” Raj quickly turned me to him and lifted my face so that our eyes met. “Not physically, well, other than my next.”

“Oh, I almost forgot. Mom gave this to me for you. Just rub it on. You’re bound to be a bit sore.”

“Thank you. Did I tell you that I love you today?”

“I love you, Autumn.” Raj gently kissed my lips. The gentle kissed turned urgent and passionate.

He pulled away for a moment, a questioning look in his eyes.

“Yes, you may have me,” I replied with a smile.

Raj wrapped his arms around me and kissed me deeply as he maneuvered my body toward the shower.

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Next blog, Chapter 10. It’s suppose to be the final chapter, but we’ll see. Let me know if you want to know more about Autumn or you’re ready for a new topic.

Peace & Love


Chapter 8 of Loving Autumn

Peace & Love Everyone!

I’ve had a pretty good week. I was glad for the weekend to come so that I could go to my writer’s critique group. I look forward to exchanging ideas and catching up with other writers like myself.

Anyway, we are coming closer to the end of my short story. Writing ‘Loving Autumn’ has been a journey for sure. I never really know where a story would go when I start it. Usually with a novel I have an idea of what the end should look like and the beginning and middle develop as I create. With my short stories I start with the beginning and we journey together to the end.

Today, I bring you the next chapter in ‘Loving Autumn.’

Chapter 8

After Raj and I exchange vows, we tasted the ceremonial sweets and greeted guests giving their blessings and gift. The love in the room was palpable, and I loved it — evidence of my acceptance into Raj’s family. My heart was singing.

I sat my hand in Raj’s hand and smiling. During the greetings and gifts, I would sneak glances at Charlie, hoping to see that he was happy and celebrating also. I only noticed him watching me anxiously, his eyes sullen. He was determined to wait for his moment to speak with me. He didn’t smile; he barely spoke with anyone.

Bauji and Riya knew who Charlie was, and so did Arjun. They thought he was just my best friend but never seemed to like him. They did not know that I was sleeping with him. At this moment, his whole demeanor would prove odd. He could have at least had the decency to pretend to be happy for me.

Once the excitement started to die down, and people started to eat, Charlie approached us. I could only hope he would wish us congratulations and be on his merry way.

“Can we talk?” Charlie asked, looking into my eyes.

Guess that was a pipe dream. “We can talk tomorrow. Right now isn’t the time, Charlie.”

“I leave on a flight tonight. It has to be now.”

I squeezed my eyes shut and whispered to myself, ‘this can’t be happening’ over and over again. When I opened them, both Charlie and Raj looked at me with disbelief on their face.

“It was worth a try,” I said crossly. I was willing to try anything.

Raj and I got up together, but when I walked toward Charlie, Raj was letting go of my hand and walking in the opposite direction. I stopped and turned toward him. My face questioning why he wasn’t going with me. I saw him take a deep breath before he stepped close and leaned towards my ear.

“You need to deal with this on your own. And know that my dad will notice you are gone and come looking for you if you are gone too long. Do not explore here.”

I don’t answer but nodded. Of course, I wouldn’t explore here, that would put Raj in a horrible position. It would also end what Raj and I had. Charlie knew that as well, but I felt as though he would not adhere to it.

I lead Charlie toward the stairs and to Raj’s sitting area. As we walked, Charlie tried to hold my hand, and I snatched my hand away, looking around to see if anyone was watching. I folded my arms in front of me. He couldn’t be serious. Here, now, he wants to reach for my hand?

We enter the room, and I close the door behind me. I didn’t like this situation any better. Me behind closed doors with another man on my engagement day felt like a bad omen. I took a deep breath and turned toward Charlie with my face already set.

I wondered if we should sit. Should we be comfortable having this discussion? I didn’t feel comfortable, so I wasn’t going to make him comfortable. “Why couldn’t this wait, Charlie?”

“Are you kidding? By the time I got back the next time, you’d probably be married to him.”

Why does he feel so angry? Heat is emanating from him. “You knew that Raj and I were going to get married. Besides, why? Are you going to be gone for more than a few months?”

“You know I don’t know that. My schedule constantly fluctuates.”

So he’s going to ignore the fact that I’ve been talking about marrying Raj almost from the moment I met Raj. “But you expect me to wait for you? You knew where Raj and I were going with this relationship. I don’t understand why now? You’ve known me for years. You’ve known I want to be married. You’ve said a dozen times you like being free to travel no wife, no kids.”

“Autumn.” Charlie came closer to her. I stepped back. I’ve never liked being around him when he’s angry. “Autumn, you know I love you. I want to be with you.”

“Charlie, this isn’t the time or the place for this discussion. It’s not just us in this house.” I was trying hard to keep my voice low.

“So, you don’t miss me? Us?”

I sigh. How do I say that I miss our talks but that I don’t miss us? “Charlie, I did miss you. You’re my best friend. We talk about everything. But no, I didn’t miss us.”

“So the other night before I left, what was that?”

“I don’t know.” I didn’t know. I never analyzed my feelings for Charlie. To me, Charlie was Charlie. Even after we’d been sleeping together, I didn’t think about ‘us.’ I did think about the fact that both men knew about each other. I was close to breaking off with Charlie when the three of us happened. It felt so right, but I had to consider Raj’s feelings. He said it was good for him because I was enjoying it, but that he didn’t want to share me. I knew that eventually, Charlie would have the same desire. And in the end, I would have to choose.

I was lost in thought as Charlie drew closer to me. Without consciously being aware, I backed away from Charlie with every step of his advancement towards me. But not paying attention, I backed myself into a corner.

“Charlie, please don’t push this. It’s mine and Raj’s engagement party, at his parents, well, family home.”

“I know you want me.”

“Not now. Not like this. Plus, we cannot…” Charlie cut me off.

“We could if we wanted to. You mean you will not make love to me here and now?”

“No, I absolutely refuse.”

Charlie smiled and placed a hand on the wall and the other firmly at my throat. He leaned in, but I turned my face from his. I was in shock. How could he push this after I said no?

“Please don’t.” I turned my head again. This time he held my face tightly in his hand and leaned forward to kiss me. His grip was stopping me from turning my face, even the slightest degree. “Chalie, stop, no.” I tried to use my hands to push him off, and he grabbed one and pinned it to the wall with his other hand. I started to panic. What in the world was going on? Charlie had never done this. He was pressed against me, and I couldn’t get away. I couldn’t push him off with one hand, so I smacked him. I was in tears. He was supposed to be my best friend. Why was he doing this to me?

With my hand pinned on the wall and his other around my throat, baujee walked into the room. He was saying, “Autumn, have you come up, hear to hide your tears?” He had entered the room as I smacked Charlie. “What is the meaning of this? Autumn, you just got engaged to my son.”

“Dad, what are you doing?” Raj’s voice trailed off; he entered a second behind the slap.
It felt like we all paused. Me pinned to the wall by one arm, Charlie’s hand was gripping my face and leaning on me. My mascara was running down my cheeks. And their baujee stood, Raj behind him. I closed my eyes, willing this scene away as the tears coursed down my cheeks. Today was supposed to be the happiest day before my wedding. I could only imagine what Mr. Arya was thinking. Raj looked on in disbelief.

“Charlie let her go,” Raj’s voice was a deep but an audible whisper.

Charlie didn’t respond at first. He looked from Raj to me. And for the first time since we had been up here, he looked at me, really looked at me. I think it was then that it finally hit him. He looked into my eyes and immediately let me go.

“I’m sorry,” he said. “I don’t know what got into me. “Autumn, I’m really sorry.” He moved to leave, but Raj stepped in his way. “Raj, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have come.”

I’d never seen the look on Raj’s face before. He was more than angry. His eyes looked like they would have burned Charlie if they could.

“Charlie, how could you? I thought you loved her? She’s your best friend. You’re supposed to be happy for her.”

Charlie brought his gaze to meet Raj. He half-smiled. “I should be, shouldn’t I? She was my best friend.” Charlie turned to me, “I hope you can forgive me someday, Autumn.” He walked around, Raj, and left.

Both Raj and his dad stared at me. I looked at them, tears now streaming, and I felt like my world was crashing down. I crumpled my head in my hands. I only heard the door closing and then footsteps, Raj’s footsteps. He sat next to me and placed his arm around me. I put my head in his lap, my face covered by my scarf.

“Baujee felt sorry for you. But he said it was bound to happen. Baujee said he’s glad he came looking for you when he did. Said, it was inevitable that Charlie would try to claim what was not his.”

I took a deep breath, and my body shuddered.

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I hope you’ve connected with Autumn and appreciate her journey. I’ll be back next week with Chapter 9.

Until then,

Peace & Love


Loving Autumn: Chapter 7

Peace and Love Everyone!

I hope everyone is well and had a good week and weekend.

I can’t complain. Work is work and this Saturday was filled with fun and responsibilities. I got the opportunity to hangout with my son. That was great. It doesn’t happen often but when it does we get to talk about what’s going on with us. And we get to laugh.

This weeks chapter took me a minute to get done. It’s a bit longer than the last few. So even though I started it on Thursday and worked on it a little on Saturday, I realized there were parts that I needed to write before getting to the place I wanted.

It does have some hot moments and definitely a few sentimental ones. I am after all somewhat sentimental.

Without further delay.

Chapter 7

“Ohhh. Hmmm.” I was barely awake. I would have remained asleep had I not felt an intense feeling between my legs. I didn’t know if it was a dream or if this was real. I unconsciously called his name.

“It’s about time you’ve awakened. My tongue was cramping.” Raj hovered over me and smiled.

“Raj, babe. I thought I was dreaming.”


“This is the third morning you’ve woken me like this.”

“Is that a complaint?”

“No. Ahhhh.” I was trying really hard to think but was absolutely distracted by his fingers.

The third morning indeed. I wasn’t sure what Raj was up to. Well, let me not lie to myself. I knew exactly. He was wasting no time. I was just hoping that I wasn’t large with child at my wedding. The last couple of days in celebration of our nuptials moving along, Raj has awakened me each morning by making love to me. I’m not complaining, but a child would severely limit my movement.

“Will you pull out today?”

“I haven’t decided. Should I?”

“Yes, I’m not ready to be pregnant. Please.”

“You’re talking too much. I’m obviously not pleasing you enough.”

With that, all sense went out of the window. I was more than pleased to celebrate with my beloved. I just got the feeling that Raj was rushing us, rushing me due to my last conversation with Charlie. If he were to get me pregnant, that would limit Charlie’s sexual intimacy with me. He knows I’ll pull away from Charlie.

You know, I used to wonder what it would be like to have two men. No longer wondering, and I’m lost in my feelings. I close my eyes and get lost in the love presently surrounding me. I know Raj loves me more than he can say. However, he does express it well.

Raj kissed me ever so gently. “We have to get moving.”

I stretched beside him before moving closer to him. “I’m good.”

Raj chuckled and kissed my forehead. “Panditji will be joining us for breakfast. Well, actually brunch. We’re going to set the engagement date and our wedding date. So get up and get dressed.”

“Does this mean I have to dress nice?”

“You have a few choices in the closet.”

“Wait, what? I only have jeans and t-shirts here.”

“I bought you a couple of sarees and two shalwar kameez. Take your pick.”

“You’re not serious. I knew I would have to wear a sari or shalwar for the engagement party, but just to meet your pandit.”

“I probably should’ve told you sooner. I spoke with baba last night, and he wants everyone that’s home to dress appropriately. I’m not dancing for joy either. I have to wear one also. I thought we’d save the matching one for the engagement party.”

“There’s a matching shalwar?”

“The beige and gold one.”

Now I had to see it. Raj had never objected to the way I dressed at all. He always seemed content no matter what. Now he was dressing me. “Let’s not make this a habit. Okay?” I didn’t think we were going to be ‘that’ couple that liked to dress alike. A few minutes past by without a response, so I walked up behind him. “Raj.”

“I promise it won’t be a daily occurrence.”


“Our wedding outfits are a bit similar. I like it .”

I rolled my eyes and walked back to the walk-in closet. I had often admired Indian clothes but never gave much thought to them. Of course, I never thought that I would date or marry an Indian. I mostly dated brothers. Now I will have to pay attention. I took a deep breath and grabbed the blue shalwar.

“I’m going to wear the blue shalwar. I like the sari, but I have no idea how to wrap it.”

“Okay. Don’t worry, mom will show you. She’s been saying how much she can’t wait to go shopping with you to pick out your wedding sari. So just a heads up.”

I smiled. The thought of picking out a wedding sari seemed so strange to me. I was really getting married to Raj. I smiled as the tears began to fall. I stood frozen with my blue shalwar in front of me as I stared into the mirror.

“You look absolutely beautiful.” Raj kissed me on the cheek and wiped a tear. “Get dressed. We still have to eat.”

I rolled my eyes but smiled. Once I was showered and dressed, I stood to stare in the bathroom mirror, I did look fabulous. I walked out into the sitting room. “So, how do I look?”

Raj walked over to me and gestured. It was usually a gesture a mother did for a daughter to say that she looked beautiful. Hard to describe. I smiled anyway and swatted his arm.

“I bet mom will do that when she sees you.”

“Hey, why aren’t you in full attire?”

“Don’t you think I look handsome?”

“Dashing Raj. Again, full attire.”

“I like just wearing the kurta. It’s a fancy one, don’t you think?”

I was smiling a lot this morning. “Yes, I love the embroidery. Let’s go before bauji comes looking for us.”

The table was set for a fancy brunch with the fine china set in place. Arjun and Anjeli were already seated and speaking with a man at the table I didn’t know. I could only assume it was Panditji.

Seeing us walk to the table, Riya rushed over to greet us. She introduced me to our guest. “Panditji, you already know Raj, this is his friend Autumn, Autumn, Panditji Vishnu Gupta.”

Panditji got up from his seat at the table and walked over to us. “Namaste.” He greeted with a slight bow. Both Raj and I returned the greeting.

I must say it was an interesting brunch. Not the usual talk of business and events of the week. Panditji monopolized the conversation about marriage and relationships. He was the same priest that married Arjun and Anjeli. He wanted to make sure that they were doing well.

Panditji Gupta watched me a lot during brunch. He observed every move and response I made to Raj. I wasn’t aware of it at first. But when my eyes caught his and he nodded I noticed he often watched Raj and I. Raj fused over me. Making sure I had enough to eat and drink, brushing stray hairs from my face and finally pulling my hair back into a knot when he got tired of me pushing it behind my ear.

For us, there was nothing odd about it, but everyone watched in ahhh. I guess Raj and I had never really been ourselves here. Now that I was accepted, his reaction to me was palpable and evident.

“Sorry, I don’t usually wear my hair down. It tends to have a mind of its own.” I said when I looked up to everyone watching us. Raj had just gotten up from the table and taken the hair elastic from my hand.”

“Raj, are you practicing for girls? Do you two also feed each other?”

“Bauji,” I said, blushing. Everyone laughed to my relief.

We relaxed after that. Mostly eating in silence. Panditji did take the time to remind us that we need to remember to make time for each other. That we shouldn’t get lost in work and neglect each other. Wow, I didn’t think he would know that. Halfway through our relationship, we did do just that. I had projects, and Raj was swamped with clients, and we didn’t see each other. Even sharing meals was overshadowed by work. We promised to remember or at least be opened to our family, reminding us.

After brunch, we moved to the front room to spend some more time with Panditji and discuss what dates were right. Funny thing, he said that the best time for us to get engaged was in a little over a week. If not, we would have to wait for another year and miss our perfect wedding date. The time to get married after that wasn’t soon at all. So we set the engagement and wedding date. We were excited. Riya volunteered to plan the engagement party, and Anjeli said that she would love to help.

The next week went by in a furious blur. I had no idea where the time went. But in a blink of an eye, I was wearing the matching cream lengha to match Raj’s shalwar. When we descended the stairs together, Riya gestured that I was beautiful. I couldn’t help but grin. This was really happening.

I hadn’t forgotten about Charlie, but I wasn’t going to postpone my engagement for him either. Raj and I talked about it, and while he didn’t mind me talking about it, he in no way wanted to share my time or my body with another man. Not even my best friend. That lead to a whole other discussion. Since our lives were hectic enough with deadlines and time trying to fit in, Charlie and maintain our relationship wasn’t going to work long term. He kept asking why add the thorn to our side. I had to tell Charlie. I was not looking forward to that. He said he may not make it back for the engagement party, and that was alright with me. What I didn’t want to happen was evident. Things between us had started to change. I was saddened, but at the same time, I didn’t know what to do to keep my best friend. Raj’s last words, ‘I will be your best friend.’ Sweet sentiment. But Raj and I as best friends? Not sure we’ll ever get to that. Maybe.

“You ready for this?”

I smiled at Raj. “Won’t put it off for the world,” I replied. He kissed my cheek as he held me from behind. I leaned into him and looked at us in the full-length mirror.

“You look stunning, my love.”

“Most beautiful couple here tonight,” I replied as I turned to him, looking into his beautiful brown eyes. My eyes filling up with tears.

“You’re such a softy. No tears Autumn, this is a happy day.”

“I am happy.” I sniffle, trying to dab away the tears with the tissue Raj gave me.

“I’m going to carry a pack just for you. Don’t ruin your make up before we even take pictures. I told mom the engagement should take place early in the evening, and I was right.”

I laughed and continued to dab as we walked out of our room and into the hall.

“Are you ready, Autumn Alisa George?”

“Yes, I am Raja Arjun Arya.”

“Soon, you’ll be triple-A.”

I smiled and shook my head as we descended the stair and walked to the living room where all of the close family in the tri-state had gathered. Everyone looked at us and nodded. Riya walked right up to us and grabbed my hand and squeezed.

“I see Raja was right. You started crying, and you didn’t even come downstairs. You’re going to make everyone think he’s a terrible man,” Riya chided.

“Then, the other women won’t want him. All part of the plan, Riya.”

She laughed. “What a smart woman? And call me mom.” The tears rolled again. “Ladakee paagal hai.” She mumbled. “Okay, everyone, Panditji, let’s start before my soon to be daughter-in-law turns into a puddle.”

I smiled, and everyone chuckled. Raj had walked away to speak with his dad but came back to walk me to where we would be sitting. “Mom, what did you say to her?”

“I told her to call me mom, absolutely paagal.”

“When Autumn brought Raj to meet me, I asked if he was sure he wants such a sentimental woman. I told him she broke into tears at the drop of a hat. He said he would walk with a pack of tissues for her.”

Raj waved the tissues. The family cheered as I looked up to see my mom blow a kiss. I smiled, and of course, I shed more tears.

Raj replied to my mom. “Mom, why mention it, the waterworks are going to keep going.”

Raj called my mom, mom from our third date, and she told me he was a keeper. He was. I couldn’t help but smile as a few more tears fell. I took a deep breath and tried to contain them. I couldn’t wait for the words to be said and the party to start. I would be less sentimental dancing with Raj and his family.

Would you believe at the moment I begin to promise Raj a wedding ceremony and a blissful married life, Charlie walks through the door. I glanced at my mom when he walked up behind her, placing a hand on her shoulder. She looked to see him and placed a hand over his while dabbing at the tears in her eyes.

He was here. It only took a glance to see that he wasn’t happy that I was making this commitment to Raj. I was unwavering as I gave my vow. After Raj said his we exchanged rings. We hugged, and everyone cheered. I looked at Charlie. He was not happy at all, his face set, teeth clenched. I just said a silent prayer that he wouldn’t do anything to destroy my relationship with the Arya family. I knew Raj would stand with me, but creating a rift between him and his family wasn’t something he could withstand.

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Hope you enjoyed this chapter. Only a few more to go before I end this story. Make sure you check back next week for the next chapter.

Until next week.

Peace & Love


Loving Autumn: Chapter 6

Peace and Love Everyone!

I hope you’ve had a great week.

My was okay. Nothing out of the ordinary. It was a good week and a productive weekend. I was able to work on some ideas for my novel which I think will make it a better read. I believe it’s what was missing.

As I wrote this chapter or Autumn I realized something very wrong with my writing. Not even the program that was suppose to catch my errors caught it. So I’m sure my other posts for this story have the same error. I was blending the points of view. Loving Autumn was supposed to be from her point of view, but I kept inserting a narrator. Not sure if you noticed. I finally caught it on the read through. Not sure why it didnt’ stand out before. It was seemless in my mind, going from first to third person.

I don’t write from first person very often because it limits what I can tell you about the story. Many authors have solved that by writing different chapters from different view points. It works but if you’re not aware it leaves you lost and back tracking to see where you got lost. My goal is the take you through the journey with no concept of time in the outside world. I want my readers to get lost in the journey.

Anyway, without further delay. I bring you the next chapter in Loving Autumn.

Chapter 6

We walked up the stairs quietly, a bottle of Moscato in my hand to celebrate privately. We didn’t say a word until we were in Raj’s bedroom.

He picked me up and swung me around. “We did it. Well, you did it, really. I think you impressed my dad. I’ve never seen him do a complete one-eighty.”

“Surely, you jest.”

“No, Autumn, I really think you impressed him. You’re as good as my wife.”

“We still have to wait for your pundit.”

“No, we don’t.”

Autumn was surprised. “And why not.”

“We’ve already been matched. Just a few issues we need to pay attention to, which he will speak with us about a bit before the wedding. Your mom called last week and asked where to send the copy. I had her send it directly to the temple.”

“I see. Not wasting any time, are you?”

“No, I will waste no time making you my wife. I’ve already let you know what you mean to me.” She smiles as Raj wraps his arms around her. “You know I am head over heels in love with you. I have been for some time.” Raj pours his beloved another glass.

Autumn smiles as she moves closer to him. “I love you, Raj. You mean so much to me.”

Raj smiles. “Are you ready to set a date for our wedding?”

Autumn smiles. “We don’t have to rush.”

“No, but we should set a date before father sets our engagement.”

I nod and sips my wine. Before I could say anything else, my cell rings. I remove it from my pocket and look at the screen. Charlie, I want to ignore it, but knew better. It may be easier to face it head-on.

“My beloved.”

Oh no, was Charlie in love with me too? “Hi, Charlie.” The strain in my voice was already evident. I tried to smile when I heard the laughter loud on the other end.

“I scared you, didn’t I.”

“Oh, yeah.”

“Would it be so bad if I loved you?”

“Charlie, you do love me.”

“You know what I mean. Would it be a bad thing if I was falling in love with you?”

“Is this why you called?”

“No, I just landed in London, and I missed you. I haven’t spoken to you since we had our party. How are you and Raj doing?”

“We’re good.” I want to tell my best friend about Raj and me, but I didn’t think this was the time. Things were already changing.

“You still haven’t answered me.”

“Oh, Charlie, you know I love you. We’ve been best friends for over a decade.”

“What if I want more?”

“We’ve done more than most best friends.” I could hear the smile in his voice.

“And I want an opportunity to explore what we’ve created.”


“I know you and Raj have been together for almost two years. Shit, I know when you first slept with him. These last six months have got me thinking about our relationship. You’re my best friend, wouldn’t it be perfect to be my love as well?”

“Charlie, what are you proposing?”

“I don’t know. I would like time to see if we work. I know you well enough to know you’re not going to leave Raj for me. But that leaves me wondering where I will fit in? Does that leave me visiting New York periodically to climb into your married bed? Does it mean the three of us to live together?”

“I didn’t know you’ve thought about all of this. I really don’t know the answer to that. Raj and I were talking about that last night. I don’t know how it would work,” I was starting to get frustrated. Why now? Charlie had said nothing for years; now, now that Raj and I are getting engaged, he wants to explore our relationship? Now, he had all these feelings for me. How do I feel?

“Just don’t automatically count me out because I’m not there right now. Give me a chance.”

“I hear you.” I didn’t wait for him to hang up. My arm just lowered to my lap, phone, and all. I couldn’t help but think what the fuck?

I had briefly thought about this when Charlie and I first started being intimate. But I just figured it was a passing thing. Just curiosity because we had been friends for so long. We knew everything about each other. We had sleepovers and had never touched each other intimately until six months ago. No one ever believed us, but it was true. I often wondered what had changed in the last six months that didn’t exist before. I didn’t have a clue.

After watching me sitting at the end of the chaise unmoving, Raj sat next to me. When I didn’t move or react, he kissed my neck. He wanted to celebrate in my arms. We had been so excited.

“Autumn, what’s wrong? Why the sullenness?

“That was Charlie.”

“Is he okay?”

“Yes,” I said nothing further.

Raj knew that if Charlie was well, there was only one thing that would rock her like this. He knew they had been best friends from high school and through college. Raj knew they had spent hours on the phone when Charlie was away. He had moved around a lot because he was a freelance photographer. Charlie chose to move around. Autumn said he told her that he loved the experience of living in the cities he worked in. Even if not forever. Since they had been talking and dating, his absence had never shaken her.

After the silence persisted, he sat back on the chaise and helped me move towards him and into his arms. I scooted until I was comfortable. We sat like that for a while, saying nothing. He kissed my neck and my cheek. Then he caressed my hands and arms.

“Mera pyara, kya galat hai?

“Charlie, vah ek mauka chaahata hai.”

“Tum mere ho.”


“I thought we were going to explore this. Are we?”


“Can’t believe he picked today to call. Cut our celebration short. I won’t like sharing you.”

“Right now, you shouldn’t have to.” I turned my body and straddled Raj. I sat on his lap, staring into his eyes. I could see the love in them, and I smiled at him. “I love you, Raj. I am in love with you.”

I smiled and then slowly kissed his full lips. He deserved my full attention right now. How could I have let Charlie break our joyful celebration? I slowly kissed him again, longingly.

Raj began to caress my skin. Running his hands under my shirt and over my bra as he kissed me back. “I’ve loved you from the moment you smiled.” He kissed her cheek. “Let’s go to bed.”

Copyright 2019

Until next week….

Peace & Love


Planners 2020

Peace & Love Everyone! I hope you had a great week.

I’ve pretty much taken it easy this week. I’ve been crafting mostly and resting at home. I was tired this week, so I mostly went to bed early.

Gladly, I had the chance to plan with my planner besties this weekend. That was an excellent opportunity to catch up and plan.

This will be the third year that I will be diligently planning, and I love the world that I’ve become a part of because of it. Who knew? I mean, when I started looking on Pinterest and youTube, I had no idea the rabbit hole was so deep. Planning is a world unto itself. A vast universe, and I love discovering what it’s all about.

So let me start by saying I am a teacher by trade. I’ve been one for two decades. Damn, feel so dated now that I typed that.

Anyway, as I continued to teach, and the world of education changed and turned on its head, I needed a better way to track my homeworld and work. So about three years ago, I wanted to be more organized. I love writing, but between teaching and being a mom, I wasn’t finding much time for it. We’re not even talking about caring for myself. Something that women running single-parent households tend not to do regularly.

I had tried planning several years back but found the book I was using huge and restrictive. I had nowhere to track my home life and activities; it was just for scheduling. I gave up halfway through the year. To say I gave up maybe the wrong word. That would mean that I thought about it and stopped. That’s not really what happened. I just stopped writing in it. Would you believe I still have it?

That wasn’t helpful at all. Another year pretty unorganized and writing haphazardly. I was not happy with it at all. So a couple of years after my pretty planner, I tried again with a journal. I purchased a journal from Michaels and began to draw and experiment with planning. If you’ve read my earlier post, you may know this. You may have even perused the images I posted. If you haven’t, I’ll leave the link right here.

So two years after I tried bullet journaling, I’ve experimented with Hobonichis and Print Pressions weeks. Now I’m back in rings. I hadn’t used rings since I was in high school. But my a5 rings is the size of the binder I used for high school, so I’m very comfortable with it. I love being able to change the pages around. Don’t think that means I’ve given up my TN. I absolutely have not. I’m just not using it right now. I will find a place for it. At this moment it’s for my writing, and I haven’t written much lately. I’ve mostly been on my laptop.

After being in the planner world for a little over a year, I started looking at IG. I found a world I didn’t know existed. And like many others down the rabbit hole, I went. There were so many designs and stickers to chose from; I was in ahh. I didn’t know where to start. Then about a year and a half, I got the crazy idea to open a shop. I didn’t have any experience at all. I just wanted to contribute to the community so that girls who plan like me had more options. I love stickers, and there are a ton of them, but I don’t seem to use all of mine. One sticker set with a little washi can last me at least two weeks of planning. Sounds great, but it also leaves me with a lot of unused kits. As you may guess, my shop doesn’t have stickers. I started designing printables, but that didn’t seem to get any attention. There are so many digital shops out there that were more popular. Then I ran with an idea from my bullet journal. Whether people purchase them or not, I absolutely love them.

I began creating petal designs and using them for bookmarks. You just slid them over the corner of your page. I love them. I use them everywhere I need to mark a page, I can never have enough. I even use them at work in my planner. Yes, I have a work planner. It’s happy plannersque. I just couldn’t use the pages sold in the stores. I had to make my own but I do love their stickers and use them in all planners.

This blog was supposed to be a short post, so let me see if I can wrap it up. I’m still creating planner pages. My shop has bookmarks, page markers for Hobonichi Weeks, or Print Pressions weeks right now. I am still working on posting the page markers for other sizes, but they’re coming. My custom TN folders are available. Take a look through and see what papers you like for your planner. I’m excited about my new pencil boards. It was an accident, but writing on one of my petal dashboards worked well, and presto you have something pretty that doubles as a divider or dashboard as well as a pencil board. I love drawing it’s calming for me and making beautiful things for my planner, what could be more perfect. This week I started working on digitals for Valentine’s day.

Well, I think I’ve said enough. I’ll be back next week with chapter 6 of ‘Loving Autumn.’

Remember to check out my Etsy page. Follow me on IG to see what I’m up to. Want to see my planner pages, and what I’m creating, check out my Letti’s Planner Things IG page.

Until next week…..

Peace and Love.


Chapter 5

Hey, Peace and Love Everyone.

How was your week? Mine, pretty cool actually. I got to hangout with a friend I really hadn’t spent much time with. We had a ball. Then yesterday was writer’s critique. It was cool. Again time to hangout with friends. Something we all should create a time to do. Even when life becomes busy, time with those who mean a lot to us enriches our lives.

Today I bring you Chapter 5 of Loving Autumn. I’m not sure how much further I would like to take this story. I do know that this journey for Autumn is not over. After all, she still hasn’t decided what will happen with her and Charlie. Let me not jump too far ahead.

Chapter 5

Mr. Arya didn’t give me a hard time after that. He was congenial. That was a significant triumph for Raj and I. The dinner was pleasant. I didn’t often eat at the Arya house. Dinner with the head of the household made me uncomfortable most of the time, and other times I felt hurt and angry. He had a lot of opinions about America, and it’s people. Most of them were wrong. There were things ignorant people said. I didn’t expect that from him. I could never remain silent, so his casual comments often sparked considerable debate. Something Mrs. Arya tried to keep from her dinner table.

But tonight was pleasant after Rhea left. I no longer had to compete with her for Raj’s attention or Mr. Arya. He smiled, watching Raj spoil me with all the food I could eat.

“Is there something we should know, Raj? You’ve never heaped her plate like that before.”

“No, bauji. I just know that she’s hungry, and she’s being polite.”

“No need to be polite, Autumn. Eat, you are going to be a part of this family and hopefully give us some beautiful grands.”

I shyly smile before Raj stuffed a piece of paratha with curried vegetables in my mouth. The family laughed, and Riya winked at me before saying, “you’re one of us now.”

I was just glad we dodged the question about pregnancy. I didn’t think I was pregnant, but Raj and I never really used protection. Charlie and I did. So if I were pregnant, it would be Raj’s. I sighed with relief. I know we wouldn’t be able to avoid the question for long, especially after we got married. But Mr. Arya’s one-eighty perplexed me. Were all the inuendos and comments meant to show him the type of person I was? Why was he all of a sudden being kind to me? I felt like he was gearing up for one final attempt. Maybe I was paranoid.

As the table was cleared, Raj and I left. As we said goodnight to his parents, Raj grabbed a bottle of wine out of the fridge.

“We should all have a glass, huh Raj. We should celebrate you settling down finally. I must admit I didn’t think Autumn would be the one to make you settle down, but, hey, I’m glad. It’s not like Arjun and his wife are having any success.”

Oh shit, I thought. Mr. Arya is turning on Anjeli. He knew, shit even I knew that Anjeli and Arjun were building their careers now. After all, they were in their late twenties.

“Dad, you know that Anjeli and I aren’t ready for children.”

“Really? You can always build your career. It’s not like your mother, and I aren’t here to help with children. Your mom would be glad to take care of the babies.”

I looked at Riya, and her face turned sour when he mentioned how she would care for the babies. I knew that Riya was enjoying her freedom of not having to take care of her sons since they had women to look after them. I didn’t think Varun’s idea was appreciated.

“Dad, mom, isn’t ready to give up her freedom, and neither are we. We’re enjoying just being a couple.”

“When your mom and I were your age, we already had you and your brother, and she was pregnant with your sisters.”

“Varun, things have changed. Nowadays, newlyweds get to spend lots of time together before they have children.”

I like Riya’s attack. She would never mention how she didn’t agree with her husband. She gave other reasons besides her displeasure. Was I going to have to argue with Raj like this. I’ve always been one to state when I’m not going for the idea. I do remember Raj asked me not to disagree with him in public. Dear God. I was going to have to go along with this. By marrying Raj, I was accepting ideas and a culture that wasn’t mine. I only came out of my head when I heard my name called.

“Autumn, Autumn.”

I turned to Mr. Arya. Had he called my name? I didn’t want to be dragged into this discussion/argument. “Yes, Mr. Arya.”

“Oh dear, you can call my Varun or bauji whatever makes you feel comfortable.”

None of this made me feel comfortable. If I disagreed with him, would he turn cold again? “Yes, bauji.”

“That’s my girl.” He replied and I almost cringed. “What do you think about this? Should couples have children early or wait?”

“Bauji, I think the Creator makes those decisions for us. If he wanted Arjun and Anjeli to have children now, they really couldn’t stop a child from coming, except to abstain.”

Raj patted my shoulder. I knew he was proud of the way I maneuvered out of that one.

“Okay, how do you really feel. I know you are used to expressing your opinion with Raj. It’s one of the things he had to get used to and complained to your mom about it. So now you can express your opinion.”

I glanced at Raj who avoided my gaze. I knew that wasn’t true. Anjeli barely spoke at the dinner table. She was a delightful girl and a powerhouse at work, but here, she almost seemed reduced to an old fashion housewife. I was walking a tight rope now that would either make my life difficult here or put me in a role like Anjeli. I would be miserable.

“Bauji, I think it’s up to them,” I say to his face and decide to put both sides of the argument on the table. “Being young parents can be hard because while you have the patience and the energy for a child, you’re still not mentally mature. At the same time, the longer you wait, the older you’ll be when that child hits teenage or young adult.”

Varun nodded as if he was considering what I said. I was feeling pretty good. He didn’t immediately turn on me.

“So, what are you and Raj going to do?”

“We’re still discussing it. But we probably won’t wait long. My life is different, I mostly work from home only going into the office for meetings. I don’t have Anjeli’s stressful job that needs her to build a reputation before she can have a child. If she takes time now, that’s the last impression they will have of her. Not the few cases she handled expertly.” I looked at Anjeli, and she smiled at me. I smiled back. I had danced that high wire well. Being able to see all sides was a plus.

“You know Arjun, Anjeli; I never looked at it that way. I understand but I still would like to hear the pitter-patter of little feet. Your sister is younger than both of you boys and has two already.”

I didn’t even think of that. But I knew that Raj and Arjun’s youngest sister Amisha was in a totally different situation. She wasn’t allowed to work. She was expected to raise children and be the perfect wife. The Arya children were allowed to chose their partners, but I knew it blindsided Amisha when she walked into her husband’s family home. She never gave any thought to the type of people they were; now, she was pretty much stuck. I knew she was happy but dreaming of a different life.

I heard the pop of the cork and looked to see Raj opening the bottle of wine and Riya getting the glasses. This was indeed an interesting welcome. Still, I was glad we weren’t married yet. I had some time to adjust to what would be my new life, and an escape to my apartment would be warranted often while I still could.

Copyright 2019-2020

Next week…. Let’s talk about planning. Chapter 6 of Loving Autumn will return the following week.


Loving Autumn: Chapter 4

Happy New Year!

Can you believe 2019 is gone and we have moved on to a new year. Incredible.

I wish you and your family and loved ones the best for 2020.

I have a lot going on right now and I can’t wait to tell you. I have my planners ready and I am charting my life for the next year. I did so last year, but this year we’re a little better.

You didn’t log on to hear me rant about the 2020, so let’s get to the story.

Over my Christmas holiday I began writing the next two chapters for Loving Autumn. I hope you enjoy it.

Chapter 4

“You know, Autumn, when we started dating, I knew we would be happy together. But, I never pictured you, Charlie and me.”

“I know. Me neither; I just thought about that. I hope Charlie remains my best friend when it ends. Of course, not sure if his girlfriend will appreciate the relationship we had. What if we keep the relationship we have?”

“Is that what you really want?”

“I’ve never really thought about it. It never seemed like an option.”

“We wouldn’t be able to live here. Would we even live together? How would it even work?”

“Never thought that far. Are you okay with that? I don’t know how it would work or what to make of it. But no, we couldn’t bring that lifestyle here.”

“I’m not sure. I wouldn’t want to, but I also want to please you. Have you spoken to Charlie since last night?”

“No, he just texted me that he was going for another job.”

“So, I’ve got you to myself this week?”

“Absolutely. Maybe even longer, he’s out of the country on some freelance assignment.”

“I didn’t see an overnight bag.”

“I still have some things here. But I was going home tomorrow. Don’t want to overstay my welcome. You’re father already hates me.”

“He doesn’t hate you; he doesn’t know you and how brilliant you are. Don’t worry; when we have kids, he’ll love you.” Autumn didn’t reply; she just rolled her eyes.

“Raja, dinner is ready, bring Autumn.”

“Gi, Mom, be right down. Let’s go, Autumn. Dad doesn’t like for us to keep him waiting for dinner.”

“Can’t you just bring a plate for me?”

“You know the deal; you’re here; we eat with the family.”

Raj pulled me up off the bed, and we walked to the staircase together. Before we descended, he turned me to him and kissed my lips gently. “Autumn, don’t let my father upset you. I love you, and we are planning a life together.”

I smiled. I knew Raj meant well, but I had watched enough Bollywood movies and talked to enough Indian people to know that if his dad didn’t support us as a couple, it was an uphill battle that is near impossible to climb. I sighed as we descended the stairs and walked to the kitchen.

Mr. Arya addressed Raj first. “Raj, I hope you don’t mind. I invited Rhea to stay for dinner.”

Raj’s response was to pull me from behind him.

“Autumn, I didn’t know you were here.”

I smiled before giving him the evil eye. He knew I was here. The whole house knows when there are visitors, or the family members come in one by one. Mom patted my shoulder as she walked past whispering, ‘don’t let him get to.’ Easier said than done, I thought. Mr. Arya always said things that got under my skin. This wasn’t my first family dinner, and if I want to be with Raj, this won’t be the last.

“Yes, well, you know now.” We walked to the large dining room table. My seat isn’t as stable at this table due to my infrequent visits.

“Autumn sit next to Raj.”

“Thank you, mom,” I reply as I follow Raj’s lead to sit me next to him.

“So you call Riya, mom now. Your getting quite comfortable here, aren’t you?”

“Varun, leave the girl. You pester her enough.”

“Yeah, well, let’s eat.”

Dinner at the Arya’s is always delicious and eventful. I get to hear about Arjun’s day and what’s going on at the office of Mr. Arya. I prefer that then the chiding he seems to enjoy. I’m quiet for most of the banter between the sons and their parents. Even Arjun’s wife has learned to avoid being part of the discussion until she’s asked. The dinner table is Mr. Arya’s forum to keep track of his children’s lives and to instill his opinion. We don’t join in unless asked. Better to avoid arguments than hear what Mr. Arya thinks you should do or where you should work because of your gifts or there lack.

Dinner is going well until Mr. Arya remembers I’m there. “So Rhea, when are you and Raj going to get together? I always thought you made a good couple. Then, of course, Arjun married Anjeli. I thought it would be Raj and Rhea.”

I stare at him in disbelief, but I say nothing. I want to hear how this plays out. I look at Rhea, and she’s beaming. I try not to show how the question upsets me.

“Dad, I will not be going out with Rhea. In fact, we will not go out ever again. Rhea and I aren’t a match at all. I don’t pick my ladies because their name sounds good with mine.”

Mr. Arya looks at Rhea in disbelief. He avoids looking at me, but his face settles into a smirk after he asks, “And why not Raj? I thought you two got along wonderfully.”

“Dad, I’m with Autumn.”

“So, how long can you two possibly last. After all, it’s been a year, and I’ve heard no plans for a future.”

“That’s because we weren’t ready to talk about it.”

I hear a ‘yes’ from Raj’s mom. I smile as I look at Mr. Arya, and the reaction on his face is priceless. I wonder if he’s going to fake a heart attack like when Raj brought me home.

“Do you plan on getting married?” Mr. Arya asks in disbelief.

“Yes, dad. And I would like you and mom’s blessing, of course. We still need to set the engagement date.”

I decide it’s a perfect time to chime in. “I understand that your Pundit needs to set the date after looking at my chart. My mom said that she would make a copy and send it to me.” Mr. Arya just stares at Raj and I. It seems that he is speechless and trying to figure out what to say.

Rhea takes the opportunity of silence to chime in. “Raj, I can’t say I’m happy for you, but good luck. Mr. Arya, please don’t involve me trying to break up Raj and Autumn again. I need to focus on the prospects my parents have selected.” And with that, she nods towards each person and the table and excuses herself to leave. I smile — one win for me.

“So you plan to marry her? And where do you plan on living with your non-Indian girlfriend.”

“Varun, don’t.”

“What, Riya? Should we take in someone else?”

“Varun, you can’t be serious. You’re going to separate me from my son and future grandchildren.”

“Riya, let’s not jump ahead of ourselves. The Pundit will review her birth chart, and then we will go forward.”


“Fine, your son and his love will stay.”


Oh no, I thought. Is Raj going to ruin the moment? We just gained a stride.

“We’re not sure we want to live here.”

“Oh, really, and where would you go. You complain her apartment is too small and run back home every other day when you’re there.”

I smile. Varun is messing with me. If Raj wants to stay and his mom wants him here, there is nothing he could do. I start to see that Mr. Arya isn’t the man of iron; he wants me to believe. His wife and children control it all. He just talks a good game. I keep watching the silent interaction between Mr. and Mrs. Arya. Then I look at Arjun, and he winks and smiles at me. The family has accepted me. Cool, I mutter out loud as I sit back in my seat and smile.

Now, what am I going to do about Charlie?

Copyright 2019

Until next week. Peace and Love


The Calm Within

Peace and Love Everyone!

The holidays are getting closer and closer. People throughout the world are getting ready to celebrate Christmas, Hanukkah, the Winter Solstice, or another significant event I don’t know about.

As we get ready to celebrate, many of us aren’t looking forward to the festivities because they have no one to celebrate it with, or they are alone in the city or country they are in. As much as this is a time to celebrate, it is also a time of sadness and pain.

We all carry it with us. Many of us learn to cope better than others with whatever life had inflicted on us. At least we may see it that way. Maybe, we regret our decisions in life. It happens to us all.

I’ve found to place to help deal with much of that pain. Bayside Meditation Center.

Now I found out about the Center while grocery shopping. One of the members was standing outside, waiting to talk to people. I took him up on the offer and made an appointment to visit. I had no idea what to expect, but I knew I needed a place to go.

At the time, there was so much going on, at home, at work, my life. I was looking for a place to put it all in perspective. Being part of Bayside Meditation Center has taken away a lot of the worry of day to day life. I even deal with things so much differently. I’m not as angry at people driving crazy, and I don’t take people’s reactions or actions to heart. It’s made it easier for me to not be so anxious. I used to worry about things that were beyond my control. I knew it was not smart but I couldn’t help it. Going to the Center didn’t just help me to cope; it helped me to let go. I was finally free of all the things that were keeping me stuck.

Now I’m not saying it’s an easy process or that it’s a quick fix, it’s not. And most of all you have to be willing to do the work. Once you are, the rest comes a little bit easier.

Now, I wasn’t able to get the list of all the centers around the U.S. or the world, but I will give you the number to the Bayside center, and they can point you in the right direction. Hopefully, there is a center near you.

Bayside Meditation Center 718 225 3472

No matter what holiday you celebrate, I wish you a wonderful one, filled with love.

I’ll be back in 2020 with the next Chapter of Autumn and to let you know what I’m up to.

Happy Holidays

Happy New Year

Peace & Love


Next Week…

Peace and Love Everyone!

I hope your week went well. Mine was okay. But I can’t really say more than that. Now as I sit at my computer, I am at a loss for words. Literally stuck.

Since we have reached the Holiday Season, I am only going to do one more blog. So next week I’ll write about the meditation center I’ve attending. I will continue Autumn’s story for the New Year.

Peace & Love


Movie Review: 21 Bridges

Peace and Love Everyone

I hope you had a great week. If not, it’s almost over.

Saturday that just past, I went to see ’21 Bridges’ with my daughter. I just had to see it. After all, Chadwick Boseman (aka Ta’Challa from Black Panther) is versatile and impressive. I couldn’t let this movie go by and not see it on the big screen.

I must say that I was not disappointed. Boseman made me think that he was a police officer who did his job and was more than fair. There was action, shoot outs and car chases, even a chase on foot and a little parkour. It was a good movie.

WARNING!!! Spoilers Below Spoilers Below WARNING!!!!

I love the part Boseman played. The first time we meet him is as a child at his dad’s funeral. His father, a police officer, was killed in the line of duty. Then we see Boseman years later as Officer Andre Davis. But we don’t meet him arresting a perp, or in a shoot out, he is speaking at his Internal Affairs hearing. Wow, what a way to introduce a character. So you’re not sure what kind of police officer he is. Of course, you get to know as the story plays out. He’s a hardcore cop. He doesn’t have a problem with taking a criminal down, but he only shoots when he’s sure or in real danger.

Now you would think that this was the basic cop movie. A police officer chases bad guy, they’re not that easy to catch, and the chase takes the whole film because now the criminal is threatening the cops family, yatta yatta. Not totally for this one.

Now when the movie begins, I thought that the director was going to go for sympathy for police officers. You know you see the family after a good officer was taken down. Of course, our heart breaks, and you feel awful because he has to grow up without a father. At this point, sitting in the audience, I know that the little boy is going to be an officer. Duh. I’m so glad the rest of the plot wasn’t that easy to figure out. The boy grows up and becomes a fabulous cop. He has an eye for details. But he has the reputation of being trigger happy because he’s shot like nine or ten people in ten years. I am not an officer, so I have no idea whether that’s a high number.

I don’t want to give away too much of the movie, but his trigger finger is why he’s was called in to investigate the case of cop killers. It also propels the actions of the other officers. And for a minute, I don’t understand why officers are acting the way they are. Instead of following Davis’ lead they are hindering his investigation. I already felt the partner he was give was fishy.

21 Bridges deals with a lot of real issues that we are facing in the U.S. today. What I like is that the writers and directors don’t hit you over the head with what you should think. It’s simply presented and you decided it’s meaning and connection.

The movie touches on racism through a line or two of some of the characters. However, the cast is really diverse. The two captains, one is white and the other black. The officers for the FBI had the same dynamics as well as the police officers.

One issue that is cliche; officers aren’t paid enough. So because life turns for the worst, they take money to help them survive. No matter how cliche it is it’s still very real. Here are these men and women risking their lives, and they don’t get paid enough to support their families. That is absolutely horrible, no matter how you spin in — unfortunately, the real story for many civil servants around the world.

21 Bridges gets —– starry eyes emojis. I loved it.

Well, I’ll write another review once the Christmas Holidays are on their way. So, make sure you check back in a couple of weeks.

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Until next time.

Peace & Love.


LA: Chapter 3

Peace & Love

So glad you’re back to read my next installment of Loving Autumn. I hope you’ve been enjoying her journey.

So many of us are looking for the right person. Often it’s challenging to figure out who we belong with or who fits well with who we are. Sometimes we’re still trying to figure out who we are. This story is about a young woman’s journey to find her best love. What I think makes it interesting, is unlike most of us in real life, she has the best of both lovers and has to figure out who she really belongs with.

Chapter 3

I took the train from downtown to Raj’s home. He lived in his own apartment in the family building. Yes, they bought a brownstone together, and the parents and children live there. It’s a family tradition. So if I married Raj, I am supposed to move into his apartment so that the family unit remains intact. I’ve thought about it, but with my new love life, I’m not sure that would be approved.

I let my self through the door of the vestibule and walk up the stairs.

“Hey Autumn, here to see Raj.”

“Why else would I be here, Arjun. How are you?”

“I’m well. Aren’t you suppose to call first?”

“Why? You all know me, and no one seems to have a problem with me here?”

“That wouldn’t be the only reason.”

“Is there something you want to tell me?”

“No, you’ll see. Just know Raj loves you.”

“What the.” I was cut off before I could say the curse.

“You know how baujee feels about foul language.”

I roll my eyes at Arjun and continue to walk up the stairs passing the rooms on the first floor. Now that man, Raj and Arjun’s father doesn’t like me at all.

I sigh and reach for the knob about to open Raj’s door when I hear a female voice.

“Oh please, Raj, when are you going to give up that girl. You know baujee isn’t going to let her live here with you. You’ll have to move out.”

‘Baujee,’ I’m shocked. She called him that. I’m not allowed to. I have to call him Mr. Arya. I know exactly who the voice belongs to and am wondering why Raj would tell me to call. I never call become coming over. The other women who date the Arya sons don’t call. I’m starting to feel unwanted. I was about to leave and go home, but Mrs. Riya Arya walked right to me.

“Autumn, Arjun said you were here.”

“Hi, mom. I was…” I didn’t know what to say. I’m here standing eavesdropping at Raj’s door. I take a deep breath. “I was here to see Raj, but I should have called. He seems busy.” I turn to walk away, and Riya grabbed my arm.

“You don’t have to call. You and Raj have been serious for a while, and I like you for my son. Autumn, you and Raj, complement each other. Ignore Rhea. Varun encourages Rhea to get close to Raj. Don’t give up.”
I nodded and gave a slight smile as the tears build up in my eyes. Riya knocks on the door and then walks back down the stairs.

I quickly wipe the tears as they start to fall and open the door. I never knock. My entrance startles Raj and Rhea. How perfect do their names sound together? “You’re mom said you were up here. I didn’t think you had company. Did I interrupt something?”

Raj looked nervous, I knew he saw the look on my face and knew what I was feeling. Rhea looked angry. When she was talking, she was closer to the door, now she was standing over Raj as he sits at his desk chair.
I thought it took too long for anyone to speak, but I said nothing. Even in the silence, I knew my body language said everything.

“I told you to call.”

“You’re mom says I don’t have too. Not to mention, I live here at least half of the year. What the fuck Raj? And why is the door closed?”
Rhea found her voice. “I closed it. We need privacy.”

“Really, I could hear you loud and clear with the door closed. What made you think a closed-door gives you privacy.” If Raj didn’t ask her to leave in the next ten seconds, I would. Right before I walked out of the door.

“A closed-door tells the family not to enter.” Rhea turns away from me and looks at Raj.
I am boiling right now. I can’t help but think, how dear she.

You may think this is hypocritical, but I never hid anything from Raj about Charles. He knew how our relationship had changed before anything happened between Charles and I. He never once mentioned that Rhea was back in the picture.

Thankfully before I finished my thought, Rhea was walking towards the door. Granted, I didn’t hear him say it, but when I came out of my head, I saw his hand gesture for her to go. I couldn’t help but think he better had. He would have hell to pay if he didn’t.

“I knew she would be here today and didn’t know how long it would take to get her to leave. That’s why I said to call.” I said nothing, just stared at him. “My love.” He opened his arms for me to come to him. I knew the gesture well, but I couldn’t easily forgive. “Autumn, you know how we are.”

I couldn’t help but think, ‘yeah, mother fucka, I know.’ But I said nothing, I just stared.

“Autumn, please, you know I love no other. I just needed to deal with Rhea because until I propose to you, my dad will keep sending her to me. He thinks.”

“Yeah, I know, that I’m just a passing moment for you.” Did he say until he proposes? So he’s going to? I smile on the inside, but make sure to keep my face unfeeling.

Raj gets up and walks to the door where I am still standing. “You know, you’re it, right? There is no other for me.” He wraps his arms around me and kisses the top of my head. I lean on him, but don’t relax into him as I usually do.

“What do you want?”

“I understand the dynamics of your household, but you will not be alone in a room with a closed door with anyone else but me, or your family.”

“Is that all?”

“That’s in addition to everything else.”

“You’re such a hard woman to please.” Raj tugs me a bit, and I lean into him as I unfold my arms and wrap them around his waist. He kisses my cheek and grabs my butt before he lets go and walks back to his seat. “I have some work to finish. Relax, you’re at home.”

I smile. “I know.” I walk towards Raj’s bedroom to relax and watch something online. My head is spinning too much to work. I just need to veg out for a while. Maybe the rest of the day with how I’ve been feeling since last night.

As I drop my bag on the floor and sit on the bed, my phone pings. A text from Charles. He’s off traveling again and won’t be back for a few weeks. He’s always traveling for work. Charles is a photojournalist. I guess I’ll stay with Raj for a while. My best friend is gone and leaves me with no one to talk things out with. Charles was always my sounding board. He texts, and we sometimes talk when he’s away. But I’d much rather curl up with him and my chunky blanket and watch re-runs of the eighties show while I talk through my feelings. The lovemaking part was just an extra perk I wasn’t expecting. Now that we’ve crossed that line, will he disappear if we’re not screwing anymore?

I sighed and plopped back on the bed.

Raj walks in and sees the look on my face. “Charles is gone again?”

“You know me so well.”

“You say that as if you don’t know me.”

I smile and hold out my arms for him to join me. Raj climbs on the bed and hovers over me, smiling. He’s in a playful mood. It could go either way. We could end up making love for the next few hours, or we could just curl up and enjoy the presence of each other. Raj always decides what we do, and I’m cool with it. He reads my mood and energy right every time.

We kiss softly before he lays on his side next to me. He runs his fingertips across my cheek and lips.

“I love you so much, Raj.”

He smiles. “I know. I love you.”

“I nodded and turned to face him, my hand resting on his cheek.
We couldn’t be more perfect. So why do I feel like a storm this way comes?

Copyright 2019

Hope you’re enjoying my romance blogs. Make sure to leave a comment and tell me what you think.

My movie review is coming back. So Wednesday, check back and see what I really think of ’21 Bridges’ starring Chadwick Boseman. I will also do movie reviews for the Christmas holidays, so make sure to subscribe and see what I think about the star studded Christmas line up.

Make sure to check back next week for our next installment of Loving Autumn.

Peace & Love


Loving Autumn: Chapter 2

Peace and Love Everyone!

Thank you so much for following me. I hope you’re enjoying what I blog.

This week we’re in Chapter 2 of Loving Autumn. Hope you enjoy it. Feel free to comment. I’d love to hear what you think.

I sat up after hearing a key in the lock of my door. Few people had keys to my apartment. One of them was with me, and Charles left hours ago. It could only be one other person because my mom never used her key. I moved closer to Raj and laid back down.

“You’re unbelievable. Aren’t we going shopping?”

“Summer, I totally forgot.”

“I bet you did. But you promised you wouldn’t see either Raj or Charles and that you would save today for brunch and shopping.”

“I can’t help that they came over to check on me.”

“Wait, so Charles is here too?”

“No, he left hours ago.”



“We gotta talk. I told you not to keep seeing both of them.”

“Are you ladies going or not. I’m trying to sleep.”

“I thought you couldn’t sleep without me.”

“Your bed smells like you, I would not have awakened if you two weren’t chatting up a storm.” Raj pulls the sheet over himself and gets up. “Go out with your sister, I’m going home. Are you working tomorrow?”

“I always work. You complain I work too much, and now you’re asking if I’m going to work.”

“Autumn, you know what I mean.”

“I’m working from home tomorrow, I don’t need to go in unless I’m meeting with someone.”

“Fine, text me before you come over.”

“Why, are you going to have someone there?”

“Of course not. Just text me.”

I eye Raj suspiciously before replying. “Sure.”

“You have no shame.”

I look down at myself, sitting in the bed naked. “Please, you’ve seen it before, and so have they. What’s to be ashamed about.” I get up and walk into the closet. “Give me fifteen minutes to shower and dress.”
We stop at our favorite bakery to get a sweet treat before beginning our day.

“Where should we go shopping, Summer?”

“I wanted to go to Dover Street Market.”

“Really, Summer? I want to go to Chelsea.”

“Well, okay. We did go to Dover last time.”

“Cool. Let’s grab something from the bakery and grab a cab.”

Hopped up on sugar, we headed downtown to Chelsea. It was a great day laughing and talking with my sister. I managed to avoid discussing my love life by saying I would prefer a more private place to talk. That worked until we sat down for dinner.

“Going to Raj’s when you leave here?”



“Okay, yes, if Charles doesn’t call me.”

“So how did you end up with both of them in your bed?”

“I was relaxing by myself. Trying to figure out how to resolve my love life. I enjoy the company of both men, but dating both of them is tiring.”

“No, kidding. I can imagine. I love to imagine.”

“Please, you’ve been in love with your true love since high school.”

“So you think I never imagine what it would be like to be with someone else?”

“No, you said you were more than happy with Mike.”

“I am, doesn’t mean I don’t dream. Keep talking. What happened?”

“Fine. First, Raj came over. We sat and watched a movie. Of course, he made popcorn, and we had a couple of beers. We were just chillin’. I ordered pizza later. I actually ordered one pie too many, but that turned out to be a good thing. Instead of the delivery boy delivering, it was Charles. He said he met the delivery boy at the door and took it from him. We sat next to each other and watched Hulu. Me in the middle, of course.”

“You make it sound so dry, like nothing.”

“It was nice. I sat curled against Raj with my legs over Charles. I never thought we’d be so comfortable together, all three of us.”

“Sounds sweet.”

“It was.” I was hoping she’d accept that and leave it alone. I really didn’t want to talk about the rest.


I roll my eyes. “Then they started to caress and kiss me. I was over the moon.”

“Over the moon?” Summer asked, staring at me. “Really? How old are you?”

“Fuck you, Summer,” I said a little too loudly and caught myself before looking around. “I was out of my mind. It felt fucking awesome. They worked together to please me. I can not describe how my body felt as they kissed, sucked, licked, and fingered fucked me. I was high.”

“Did you have sex with them?”

“They took me, I was filled with them. And as I tell you, I want to do it again.”

“Dirty girl.”

“I loved every bit of it. I don’t want to give them up.”

“So now, what do you do?”

“Talk to them. Figure out what they want and what I want. Right now, I just want to enjoy whatever it is we have.”

“Lucky girl.”

“Totally. They both love me, and I love both Raj and Charles. We’ll see where this goes.”

“Knowing you, Autumn, you already know where this is going to go.”

“Of course. But don’t ask me. Talking about it will change the outcome, and I like the outcome.”

Copyright 2019

Make sure to check back next week to find out what happens.

Until then…

Peace & Love


Loving Autumn

Peace and Love People!

I hope everyone has had a great week!

Mine; was indescribable. It felt like a long week, even though we had Monday off. Well, maybe not so unspeakable. Grades are due, and I was working on grading papers and trying to keep up with lesson plans. At home, I was trying to get my head in gear for the Gold Sale starting this Friday in my Etsy shop and trying to figure out what to write for you lovely people today.

I feel like I’m ready for my shop sale, but for today’s story, I’m not altogether sure. It usually takes me a while to come up with an idea to write, and I think and imagine all week and often come up with something creative by the end of the week. I felt at a loss this week. I was tossing around an idea for a novel or blog. Not sure I could write this particular story long enough for a novel, so to me, that’s a perfect idea for my blog. But I couldn’t think of where to go with it. If I begin writing it, I would like to follow it to the end. I’m not sure I’m all that interested in it anymore. I was in love with the idea when it first came to mind.

So, let’s see how this goes. Let me know what you think.

Enjoy the journey.

Chapter 1

I open my eyes, wondering why I felt like I had weights over my legs and chest. I feel crushed between two walls. I take a deep breath and try to move. The pressure is unyielding; it moved with me.

“What the fuck?” I mumble. I hear groaning, and the weight across my chest releases me. I scoot towards the top of my bed and look around. “Raj, Charles?” I whisper and rub my eyes.

I try hard to remember how I ended up in bed with the two men I’ve been dating for over a year. What in the world is my first thought before I remember that I didn’t feel like going out last night, and both of them came to check up on me.

“Galat kya hai?” Raj mumbles, turning towards me. His American and Indian accent blending.

“Kuccha nahīṁ. Sone ke lie vaapas jao.”

“Apane hindee behatar ho raha hai. You know I don’t sleep well without you.”

“Thank you. You sleep just fine at your apartment.”

“How many times are we on the phone sleeping?”

I sigh and move down to curl against him. He pulls me close and wraps his arms around me. He starts to put his leg over mine, but I stop him. “Can I breathe, please?”

“Hūṁ,” he replies, pulling me into him. As if I can get any closer.

Raj is a cuddler. He’s strong and caring. When I say strong, I mean physically, as well, he takes pride in his rippling muscles. I fell in love with him after one of my more vulnerable times. We had just made love for the first time, and I felt as though he would bolt, now that he had gotten what he wanted.

I am a mixed heritage child. I claim African American, but my grandparents and great grandparents on both sides were black, white, Indonesian, and Indian. I look, well it depends on your lense, I guess. Most white people accept me because I am light enough that they can see I’m not all black, my hair does many things depending on the weather. Other nationalities often don’t know what to make of me; it totally depends on how I wear my hair. You can tell I’m not mixed with what most people consider Asian because my eyes don’t look it. If I had my cousin’s chinky eyes, I could pass for anything.

Why did I say all of that? Oh yes, I was talking about how I thought Raj would jet. I happen to like Asian men. I think they’re beautiful. But I stay away. I’ve had bad experiences with them. They seem to think Black women are just as exotic as most men think Asian women are. Although for black women, that means perfect for a lay and leave. I was fooled once, and only once. When I feel like they are only into me because of the sway of my hips and full lips, I make an excuse to avoid them. You know, I have to wash my hair, or my mom needs me to move the couch. They get the hint. Raj seemed different somehow. And after dating for a couple of months, I let him have me. He wouldn’t let me leave his bed that night. And he kept calling. At first, we weren’t intimate often. We continued to get to know each other. It’s been over a year.

Charles, on the other hand, was my bestie. Yes, a black girl can have a white dude as a best friend. We so weren’t into each other for years. Charles was my best friend from the second week of high school. He had a crush on my then best friend and asked me to hook them up. When they broke up their sophomore year, she expected me to stop talking to Charles, but Charles was real, and I appreciated that. We were also inseparable from the time I introduced her to him. If you wanted to find Charles, you would look for me and vice versa. She got jealous and thought I wanted him. Charles and I were on the floor, laughing when she confronted us. There was no way. But ten years later he ended up in my bed. He knew about Raj and didn’t mind.

Now Raj was pissed, of course. We had been dating a few months but had not made it monogamous. He adapted, I guess you can say. He never pressured me to chose. He did keep asking for at least six months as to whether I had any more men.

So I’ve been seeing both of them for a year. But never had I been with both men at the same time or within the same week. ‘Fuck.’ Will I ever go back to one man at a time? Last night was so beautiful, passionate and fucking hot.

Just thinking about it made me wet. I was still naked and began to grind against Raj.

“What are you doing?”

“As if you don’t know.”

“Didn’t think you’d be up for morning sex after last night. I thought we wore you out.”

“You did. I rested, and now I want you.”

“Just me?” Raj asked as he lay on his back. I climbed on top of him and slid him inside of me.

“Yes,” I replied, smiling at the glimmer in his eyes. “Oh, Raj.”

“I would be so jealous if I didn’t have to go to work.”

“Charles, it’s Sunday.”

“So, I’ve got a presentation due tomorrow, and I blew it off to have a sexathon with you two last night.”

Charles’s so handsome; I wink at him. I love his crooked smile and dazzling green eyes. And yes, his body is beautiful. He blows me a kiss.

“I gotta go home. I won’t get any work done with horny and obliging over here.”

“Obliging?” asks Raj.

“Tell me you wouldn’t do anything for gorgeous over here.”

Raj smiles. “She knows I would.”

“Exactly, and so would I. I’d fuck her all day if I could. And it’s Sunday; she will stay in bed, fuck, and binge watch Netflix before she orders dinner. She’s lazy and incorrigible on Sundays.”

“Fine you may leave, will I see you tomorrow?”

“Maybe. Isn’t Monday Raj’s day?”

“Who said I was leaving.”

“Yep, you’d do anything for her. I’ll see how my day goes.”

“And you wouldn’t?” Asks Raj.

“I stayed last night, didn’t I?”

Charles walks over to the bed and bends over to slowly kiss me before heading to the door. I sigh as I close my eyes and contract around Raj.

“Autumn, do you really want us both?”

I look at Raj. I had been trying to figure out who I should stop seeing for days, weeks even. Neither of them had pressured me, but I didn’t think it was fair to keep either of them from finding their life partner. I thought I should choose. Shouldn’t I. I mean, society would not be accepting of such a lifestyle. Shit, would our parents? Either way, I was in no way closer to making a decision now then I was when I started thinking of it. Could I keep them both?

“I love both of you. Yes.” Shit, did I say that out loud?

“You love me?” Raj smiled as he pulled me to him. Raj kissed me passionately before he turned us over. “I’ve loved you from the moment I saw you,” he said before he plowed into me with such zeal.

Copyright 2019

Well, I hope you enjoyed chapter 1 of ‘Loving Autumn’. Check back next week for Chapter 2.

Peace & Love


Ready for the Holidays

Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope you are having a blessed week and that your weekend has been fun. This week I blogging about planning and planners.

It’s been a while since I’ve blogged about planning or planners. So I thought I would take this weekend to catch you up. If you’ve been watching my journey, you know that I’ve been part of the planner world for almost two years now. It’s been one of exploration and fun. I’ve met new people, attended a conference, changed planners, and joined groups.

So, it’s November 2019 about six weeks from the year 2020. I’ve been so excited about using a new planner that I’ve decided to start the planner early. Starting December, I am moving into my latest A5 rings. It’s about exploration for me. I haven’t used a ring planner since college. At the time that I was tracking all the things I needed to do, there weren’t all of the fancy things to make planning more fun. Back then, I didn’t think of printing my pages, and the companies that were out at the time were too costly for just paper. Things have changed a lot since then, and it took me over twenty years before I returned to planning.

When I was looking to get organized again, I bought a planner that I thought was pretty. On each page, there were designs that you could color in. I loved it, but it was so rigid I had no way to adjust based on what I wanted, so I didn’t use it past a few months. It was a year before I tried planning again. Next was bullet journaling. It was cool, but I didn’t want to create each month, and I felt like my images could not live up to what I saw on Pinterest, I became a bit discouraged. So I moved to a Hobonichi this year, and I do love it except it was too much with the day pages and weeks pages, and I still needed pages for other things. I should have added pages where I wanted them to be, but I didn’t think of that until just now writing this. Not only were there pages not where I wanted them, but the stickers I wanted to use didn’t fit.

Earlier this year, I decided to create digitals. I started with flower pages, so you have beautiful pages for functional planning. They were available in the shop for a while. I just let them expire since no one seemed interested. If you’re interested, you can contact me here or DM me on IG.

I’m going to print pages for my rings planner for the Spring. I didn’t use them this year because I was using my Hobo, and I didn’t want to switch to a new book during the year. Right now, I have pages that I have created for my planner. I’ve tried using other planner pages, but I get stuck when it comes to arranging. I will eventually use the pre-printed pages I’ve purchased this year when I figure out what I want to do with them.

This summer, I set up a shop because I wanted to add to the planner community. It seemed the perfect community for a creative person such as myself. So many of the people were multi-talented. How awesome, I thought. For a while, I couldn’t figure out what crafting I wanted to contribute. I started with the digitals, but somehow I don’t feel like that is my niche. There are so many planner shops that create digitals that seem to be very popular in the planner community. I was playing around with them and didn’t think I wanted that to be my contribution. Of course, I will be using some of my digitals for this year’s planning.

Once the digitals didn’t get much attention, I was trying to figure out what I wanted my thing to be. I still didn’t know what I wanted to sell and eventually came up with my page markers. I haven’t worked on my drawing in a while, but being part of the community and loving my laminator lead me to create pocket folders next. I wanted to find a neat way to carry extra stickers and washi cards without filling up the pockets in the front of my planner.

It was some time after I started making folders that I thought of creating petal page markers. I was drawing just to doodle. I wanted to practice again. Then I thought how cool it would be to have the petals on the top corner of the page. Eventually I experimented with Pandas also.

For a few gifts I created matching washi cards.

I’ve gotten a lot of compliments on the page markers and thought it was a great idea to put them in the shop. I gave a bunch of them out at my first planner conference, and several people told me they love them. So now I have a set ready for Christmas in different colors than what’s available during the rest of the year. My page markers are useful anywhere there is paper. Instead of dog-earing the page, you can use a page marker. So if you’re an avid reader or planner, they are perfect for you. I even started experimenting with a panda page marker. I think they’re adorable. Still, I’m always improving them.

What I noticed as I began to plan is that I wanted to have dashboards that matched my page markers, so in time for the holidays, I created the clear panels that I also made available of my Etsy page. For both the page markers and the dashboards, you pick your color combination. You can even order the two to match.

I am going to post a walkthrough video on IG of my Hobonichi over the next few weeks, and I plan in December, I will show you what I’ve created. I’m also participating in a before Black Friday sale so make sure to follow me, Lettis Planner Things, on Instagram to get the discount code when it’s posted. Want to see what I’m up to as an author, I have an IG for that also.

Until next time…I wish you a well planned and blessed week.

Peace & Love


Intro to My Flow

Peace and Love Everyone!

I hope you all have had a great week. Mine hasn’t been anything out of the ordinary. I did go to a family gathering this week. It’s always great to see people you haven’t see in years. This spark my poetry writing again, so I figured I would share.

So, I’ve been writing poetry for many years now, decades, really. From the beginning, my poetry was and still is an extension of how I feel emotionally. It’s my outlet. As long as I remember, emotions at times were overwhelming for me. I always seem to feel things too deeply, and I was unable to deal with them and just let go. My poetry usually helped me put things in perspective or at least clear my head enough to think clearly.

Since romance is my intrinsic topic, my poetry tends to take that slant as well. But even if it’s not romantic, there are emotions hidden in the lines. A short time ago, I began to explore other topics that hit me hard other than romantic ones. I don’t usually publish those, being that they exhibit the rawest of my emotions on the issues I am passionate about.

No further delay. I wrote 3 poems this week. I hope you enjoy it.

Intro to My Thoughts

My guide

That 6th Sense from inside


And enjoy this ride

Of whatever love is to be mine

Choosing to learn if I get burned

Not to stay if things get stormy gray

Now I pray that I’ve learned from past experiences

Love myself

Not pick inferior instances

But ascend to hear the Creator’s devine intervention

If it doesn’t work, I won’t pray for an extension

But rock on to find the perfect friend

So in my heart love can live again

I’m A Woman

A woman has needs too

But now I keep thinking of you

And how you felt inside

As expected we were protected

A love perfected

As I suspected and like the 1st time

Hope to spend time, again 

Become the best of friends

Comrade until the end

A companion for all time

Should have broken it down to you

Dreams on the mind my truth

Still, we discussed so much

Hope to connect with you

Feeling different

More proficient 

My life, will you fit into?


Thinking of the possibilities

Crafted by endearing moments

A day of remembrance

We pay severance

Here is where I always wonder

Was it a moment to forever

Or just one of many

That your energy would bring me

Full circle 

Bring closure to our first exposure

I smile thinking that may be true

Hoping you would surprise 

My expectations

But no lamentations

Unfortunately, some frustration

Many women dream of smooth sailing

Fairy tales in the making

But life is mostly not that blazing

Or amazing

But Love is 

Isn’t it?

A story of glory to the real

Moving forward, not frail

Hoping to unveil the real



But this 

Two outcomes

I doubt one

Copyright 2019

Well, I hope you enjoyed them. Maybe they sparked something for you as they did for me.

Not sure what I’ll post next week. I haven’t really talked about my planner journey that much this year, so perhaps it’s time for an update.

Curious about what I’m up to when I’m not posting, check me out on Instagram; I have two pages. One is strictly about planning and the other just for my writing. Of course I am also on Facebook and Twitter. Although I’m not much of a tweeter.

Until next week. Have a great week.

Peace & Love


Someone to Lean On: The Final Chapter

Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope everyone has had a great weekend. I have had a restful one, which was much needed.

I hope you’ve enjoyed Allegra’s journey. This was an interesting tale for me. It didn’t go in the direction I thought it would. When I created these few episodes in my head, I thought that Allegra would be the new love interest of Jesse. I had such a major crush on him. But as I wrote it, Allegra and Pablo was what came to the page.

I tried really hard to maintain the originality that it was created with. I wanted you to see it from the mind of a young teenager. I was in my first or second year of high school when this was written. Since I started my blog I decided to dust off my old stories and see what my young mind had created.

Chapter 10

3 Days Later

“Pablo, I want to call mom and tell her about our engagement. I know we have at least another year before our big day, but I want mom and your parents to know.”

“Sure, I’ll call right now. They should be at the hotel…Yes, this is Pablo Roberto, tell my dad I would like to speak to him…Hey Dad, how are you and the family?… That’s good. I’m well. Listen, put the speakerphone on in your office, and tell mom and Mrs. Rivera to come into the office. Allegra and I have an announcement. To make.” They waited for several minutes for everyone to gather. Allegra was so excited. “Is everyone there….Awesome. Well, I’ll let Allegra tell you.”

“Mom, Mr., and Mrs. Rosas, Pablo, and I are engaged to be married.” She could hear cheers. “Of course, it won’t be until after I graduate high school, so another year and a half.”

“Thanks, dad. Having all of you approve makes it more joyous… We’re relaxing today…Okay, dad, mom, Essie, talk to you all later.”
“We love you all,” chimed Allegra.

Well, several weeks past by with nothing much happening that was out of the ordinary. Alle went to school, and Pablo went to work at the hotel. After school, Alle rehearsed with Jesse for the show while Nichole steamed at not getting the lead with Jesse. Pablo’s business was going pretty well. He would wait for Alle at the office and get some much needed work done while she had rehearsals, and Jesse walked her over to the office.

There was no sign of Mr. Sutton. They had hoped that he gave up his wild obsession, but he was waiting for the right moment. He’d wait years for that chance if he had to; the time had to be perfect. When she was at her prime, that high point in her life, he would bring her to her knees and let the world see what a whore ‘sweet’ Allegra was. She would pay for his misery.

“Well, everyone, this is the last dress rehearsal before the big show. So I want to see it the way you would perform it tomorrow night. Alright.”

“Yes, Ms. Grant.”

“I can’t hear you.”

“Yeah, let’s do it.”

The costumes were brilliant. The dance told the tale of a young lady and gentleman who fell in love and were happy together until her dad found out and forbid her to see him. One night they decided to take a chance and sneak out they were caught, and the father shot her love. She was distraught at the loss of her love and would go every night to his grave. One night at his grave, she saw his spirit, and came so close, she begged it for forgiveness and offered her life as a token of their love. The keeper of broken hearts tried to take her life, but her love beg for her life. They said goodbye and parted.

Everything was perfect. The show was ready. The Rosas’, and Allegra’s mom were flying in from Los Angeles to see her perform. Pablo was there, making the evening the biggest and brightest of them all. Just in case, though, Tony and the crew were ready to get Allegra safely there and home. They weren’t taking any chances.

The evening so far was going smooth; the first act was over, and everyone was getting ready for the second act. Just then there was a knock on the dressing room door.

“Nicky, get that, please.”

“Sure, guess the star of the show needs a servant now.” She paused after opening the door, feigning surprise. “Pablo, you shouldn’t have.”

“I know I didn’t” Pablo past Nicole and walked into the room. “Alle there for you.”

“Oh Pablo, roses, they are lovely.”

“These also came for you.”

“Two dozen roses?”

“The white ones aren’t from me, but there’s a card. Here.”

They read the card.
‘To my whore of a daughter. You may not die at the end of the play, but soon after, you’ll be gone anyway. Dad.’

Alle started to shake and cry after reading the card. It scared her so much. She knew that her stepfather would try again, but the night of her first show. She was glad Pablo was with her and sought comfort in his arms.

“Are you going to be okay.”

“Yeah, I think I can finish the show. This is the last act. Let Tony know, okay. I think this is going to be his crucial move.

Allegra tried to push through the fear. “Is mom enjoying the show?”


“And what about your parents?”

“They love it too. Everyone thinks you are so lovely.”

Allegra smiled. “Thanks, I feel a bit better.”

“Okay, knock ’em dead.”

“Okay. Thanks.”

“No problems.” He kissed her softly and then left the room.

“Wow, Allegra got a lover, boy.” All girls joined in to tease her.

“Come on, guys stop. We’ve got four minutes until curtain.”

The room burst into laughter before Nicole replied. “Yeah, yeah, sure.”

The show had just finished. The performers had taken their bows and were gathered backstage, excited for their first successful show of the year when everyone heard two gunshots coming from behind them.

“Everyone remains calm, and no one gets hurt. I want one person.”

He grabbed another dancer and walked towards his daughter. “No one gets hurt if you go with me now.” He grabbed Allegra and let go of the dancer.

At the sound of the gunshot, Pablo rushed on to the stage and through the curtain. Tony and several bodyguards followed him. He couldn’t help but wonder how Sutton had gotten past the bodyguard who was supposed to be on stage with Allegra.

“Pablo, if you don’t call off your boys, I’m going to kill her right here.”
“Guys, cool out. We want him dead, not her.”

“Sutton took Allegra and left the theatre through the back door.” He shoved her into a taxi that was waiting for him. They headed downtown and got out on fifth avenue on the Westside. They walked a block or two before he forced her through the doors of a sleazy motel.
“No sudden moves,” he said, pushing Allegra onto the bed. Then he picked up the phone to call Pablo at the brownstone.

When Pablo picked up the phone, he laughed. “My dear man, you and your dear girl have caused me lots of trouble. If you want to see her alive, you come into the alley on Broadway and fiftieth at midnight. Alone?”

“How do I know she’s okay?”

“You speak with her for a moment.”

“Pablo, Pablo, I’m scared.” Sutton pulled the phone from her scratching her face.

“Enough, don’t be late.” With that, the line went dead.

Pablo hung up the phone before dialing Jesse. He answered on the first ring. “Jesse.”

“What’s up, man?”

“I just got a call; I have to go meet him tonight on Broadway and fiftieth at midnight, alone.”

“No, he’s just going to kill both of you. We got to set up a trap. Or you’re both going to go together.”

“I don’t know, man. Maybe Allegra would be safer if I went alone.”

“Safer, she’s in the hands of a lunatic, mucho loco hombre. You have to think straight. It’s ten thirty, let’s go now, and we can talk about strategy on the way. We’ll need a straight shot of him when he moves from Alle. I just pray to God; he doesn’t hurt her.”

“Amen to that one. I’ll meet you there; we have work to do.” Pablo hung up the phone and turned to his parents. “Mom, Dad, Essie, will you be okay.”
“Yes, son, take care of your fiancé.”

At the Motel

“Now my little whore, how about one more time for old time’s sake before I kill you and your man. Any special requests?”


“Oh, what is it?”

“Go Fuck Yourself!”

“Grown bold, have you?” He laughed. “My dear, that is impossible. Besides, I’d much rather fuck you.”

“Pablo is going to get you for this. He will kill you, you son of a bitch. You bastard.”

“Flattery won’t make me let you go. But it turns me on. Keep talking.”

“You are so sick. Don’t touch me.” She began to back away from him towards the top of the bed. “I will die before I let you touch me again.”

“I can arrange that,” he replied, pointing a gun at her. “But that takes the fun out of it.” He ripped her leotard, where it prevented him my entering her. He held her down and raped her again.

Allegra disappeared into her head. She often did when he was on top of her. She didn’t want to remember anything. When she came to New York, she thought she had left this part of her life behind her. But it followed her. How could her mom stand this disgusting man?

Tears filled her eyes as she tried harder to disappear. She felt so dirty all over again. He had ruined her life, over and over again. She prayed to God that he would pay for what he did to her and her family.

At the Meeting Place

It was about eleven forty-five, and Jesse and his crew were all set. They had a plan that they believed wouldn’t fail.

Tony and Jesse hid behind a pile of boxes and dressed in all black. Another guy hid in an old window in the fire escape. He was hired to take out Sutton. He was in a position that he hoped would be behind Sutton so that he wouldn’t be spotted. His role was the most crucial. The police had failed this couple; he would not.

“Alright, guys, two minutes to go, let’s do this right. We only get one chance.”

Whispers went around when Sutton arrived. They saw the two walking down the alley. Allegra was hugging herself, her shirt stained, and her skirt partially ripped. Pablo’s fist clenched. He knew what happened. He knew Allegra would require so much therapy to move past this. He just wanted to be there for her.

“Pablo, I see you followed every rule. No backup. Smart. But not smart enough ’cause you’re both going together,” he said, holding the gun to Alle’s side. They were at least ten feet apart before Sutton stopped walking.

“Sutton, can I at least hold her while we die?”

“Sure this way, I get both of you in one shot, even if you try to escape.” He pushed Allegra to Pablo. As soon as Allegra walked halfway to Pablo, a shot came from the fire escape. Sutton hadn’t had time to raise the gun; he collapsed to his knees. Allegra stood, visibly shaking, not knowing what happened. Pablo ran to her and, she melted into his embrace. They were finally safe. Her stepfather wouldn’t hurt her anymore.

Their life returned to normal, as much as it could. After Allegra graduated from high school, she married Pablo, and they gave birth to their first child, Enrique.

Well, thanks for reading. Check back next week to see what I’m up to. You can follow me on IG or FB to see what I’m doing when I’m not blogging or writing.


Someone to Lean On: Chapter 9

Peace and Love everyone!

I hope you’ve had a great weekend. As it comes to a close and we start as new week, I wish you and your family a great week.

I know I’m late with the next installment of my Fame fan fiction. I need to work on my scheduling so that I can fit in what I neede to do in a timely manner.

Anyway, I’m bring you the next chapter of ‘Someone to Lean on’. Hope you’ve been enjoying my juvenile fan fiction.

“Hi, Chris. Have you seen Jesse and Nicole?”

“Hi, Allegra. They’re over by their usual table.”

“Thanks, see you later. Hey Jesse, Nicky.”

“Hi Pablo, Allegra, I see you made it.”

“Yeah, we did. So this is old Lou’s? It hasn’t changed much at all. Have a seat, Allegra. I’m going to say hi to Lue.” Pablo walks over to the area by the bar. “Hey, Lue, how’s it going.”

“It’s okay, Pablo. Haven’t seen you around in a while.”

“Yeah, I’ve been working hard. I just brought my girl here.”

“Now, Pablo, I hope you’ve stopped seeing those…” Lue was interrupted.

“This girl is special.”

“Who is she?”

“Jesse’s cousin, Allegra.”

“Really? Treat her well.”

“I will. Allegra’s back in my life, and she means a lot to me.”

“Yeah, okay. Well, I’ll let you get back to your girl while I get back to work. It was nice seeing you.”

“Same here, Lue.”

The voice of the MC, ‘now ladies and gentlemen, we have something special for you. Would you please give a big hand for a pretty lady with a lovely voice, Allegra.”

“Thank you, Chris. It’s great to be here in the big apple. I’d like to dedicate this song to my one and only.” She began her song. Her voice was gentle and sweet.

“So, Pablo, tell me, how do you know Allegra?”

“She was my girlfriend in Los Angeles. Then when she came here, Jesse reunited us.”

“If you don’t mind my asking? What made you part?”

“Who said we did? And I do mind. It’s none of you’re a concern.”

“I’m sorry.”

“Since you’re more into getting to know Pablo, I’m going to play a video game.”

“Jesse, it’s not like that,” replied Nicole. Jesse ignored her, so she turned back to Pablo. “So Pablo, why don’t you drop Allegra and go for someone older and more sophisticated.”

“Oh, do you know someone. I mean, Alle is the best woman I’ve known. But I might consider if you find someone.” Nicole was quiet for a few minutes. Visibly upset at his reply, but moved closer to Pablo as he focused his attention to Allegra on the small stage.

As she approached the table, ‘Alle, thanks for the dedication.”

“No problem. It was worth it,” Allegra replied, sitting on his lap backing Nicole. “No problem. I just wanted you to know that I’ve always loved you and always will.”

“Me too, babe, me too. Come on, let’s go home.”

“Sure, see you, Nicole. See you in class.”

“Yeah, sure.”

“Bye, Jesse.”

“Bye, cuz, don’t I get a hug?”

“Sure, see you tomorrow.”

At the apartment, they began to get ready for bed.

“Allegra, you know she did try to make a play for me. But of course, I didn’t accept it.”

“Why not?”

“One woman is enough. Two is hard to handle, and you are hard enough. I can’t take one more.”

“Am I that hard to handle?” Allegra began to pout.

“Oh yeah, babe, a handful.” Pablo laughed. “Come her gorgeous.”
Allegra smiled as she walked toward Pablo, who was sitting on the bed.

“You really want to sleep?”

“I’m kind of tired. I promise you I’ll make it up to you.” He hugged her tightly. “See you in the morning, goodnight.”

“Night, sweetheart.”

“No.” Allegra popped up in bed, her nightmare seemed stronger than before. She started to breath harder.

“Allegra, what’s wrong? Babe?”

“It’s back, I keep seeing it again.” Pablo drew her close to him and embraced her.

“It’s okay, Alle. I’m here, I’m here. Alle, I’m alive.”

“I know, now.”

“Think you can get back to sleep?”

“Maybe, don’t let go.”

“I won’t.” Allegra rested her head on Pablo’s chest. It’s going to be okay.” He tried to calm her and get her to go back to sleep.

Pablo was up early, wating his beloved as she slept. Allegra looked so peaceful. It reminded him of when they were back in Los Angeles. He thought of how much he loved her and how happy he was that she was back in his life.

“Jesse, I’m glad you came by. How is Allegra?”

“I saw her yesterday after school. I guess she’s okay. She and Pablo really are good together. He takes care of her.”

“That’s good. I’m glad she found someone to help her. Those nightmares overnight were starting to scare me.”

“What nightmares.”

“She kept seeing Pablo dying in her arms.”

“Oh, my poor Manchichi. She never told me about them.”

“She’s was too ashamed. One night she didn’t sleep at all. She stayed up all night and wouldn’t tell me why. The night she got up screaming, she told me. Her past still haunts her, and it will as long as her father stays here.”

“Wow, I didn’t know.”

“Yeah. Excuse me.” Ms. Grant walked a few feet to get the phone.

“Hello…Yes, this is Ms. Grant…Yes, officer Green. How can I help you?… He what? Oh, God, no! Well, thank you for letting me know.” Ms. Grant hung up the phone. “Jesse, Mark, just got out on bail.”

“Damn. Can I call Pablo from here? They should be up by now.”

Allegra was still sleeping when Pablo answered the phone. “Hello…Hey Jesse, what’s wrong? You sound upset…What?… Jesse, if this is a joke, this is cruel man…Well, this isn’t good news at all. I’m going to call my uncle and let him pull some strings for me. I want that man strung up…Goodbye. Damn you, Sutton, I’ll have you pay.” The last statement woke up Allegra. She walked out into the living room.

“Honey, what’s wrong?”

“Oh, I’m just upset because yesterday my stock fell. I forgot to check the prices.” He couldn’t bring himself to tell her.

“How dear they arrested me and had the nerve to press charges. Those bastards, sons of bitches, little whores. They will pay. Everyone will pay.”

“Pablo, I’m so glad you were with me last night and that you’re here now.”

“I’m glad too. We can start over. Build our lives again.” What Pablo was really thinking was ‘when her stepfather is dead or in jail, we will be able to start over.’ “You know I love you, Allegra.”

“I love you too, Pablo.”

“Hey, how would you like to speak to your mom?”

“I’d love to hear mama’s voice. I miss her a lot.”

“That can be arranged. Pablo reached for the phone and dialed his parent’s number. “I’ll give you the number so you can call whenever you want to…Hi mom…Yes, it’s me, mom… I’m okay, how are you?… How’s dad?… Yeah, I found her mom. She’s back in my life…. She’s fine, she’s here hold on.”

“Hi, Mrs. Rosas…Hi mum…, I’m okay. How is everyone?….Hi mom…Estoy bien, mama, y tu?…Yo soy, I’m happy to be with Pablo. I only wish we were all together….Love you, mom…Bye, mama.” Allegra hands Pablo the phone. “Okay, mom….I will… I’ll call you all next week…Goodbye.” Pablo turned to Allegra. “Your cheeks are looking rosy. Happy?”

“Yes, and do you know why?”

“No, why?”

“I’m with you, and I love you so much.”

Pablo smiled as he embraced her, bending down to kiss her lips. “I love you. Anything you want to do today?”

“I’d like to spend the day with you like we used to back home. Just the two of us. Nothing else matters.”

“Sounds promising.”

“Maybe. What do you want for breakfast?”

“No, I’ll make it. You shower and dress.”

“Okay.” She murmured to herself, “what am I going to wear?”

“Remember what you used to wear when we spent Saturdays at home.”

“Yes, I have it, but it’s not that warm in here. But I have something I think you’ll like. Why don’t we take a shower together, I’ll help you with breakfast.”

“Okay, let’s go.”

After their shower, they headed to the kitchen. “So, what are we making?”

“I saw this recipe on Carnival eats. I wanna try. It’s a french toast sandwich. So I made sure that we had all the ingredients.”

“Sounds tasty. Where do we start?”

“Let’s make the french toast and sausage going.”

“Get all the ingredients out, I’ll be back. I need to make a call.” Pablo walked into the living room and grabbed the phone, taking it into the den. “Johnson is my uncle there?… Yes, just a moment…A lot going on uncle Xavier. I can’t talk long Allegra will miss me in the kitchen….Her step father got out on bail. I need you to help get him off the street before he hurts Allegra or me again. I want us to get on with our lives, and we won’t be able to do that with him on the street…Please, uncle, try. I don’t know how long I can keep it from her.” Just then, Allegra walked into the room. “I’ll talk to you later…Bye.”

“Who was that?”

“My uncle. Are you ready to cook breakfast?”

“I started the french toast using the croissants we have. You can make the eggs and sausage.”

“Not a problem.”

Sutton walked into a gun shop on Madison. He was furious about what happened at Xavier’s.

“Can I help you, sir?” Asked the salesperson.

“Yes, I’d like to buy a magnum forty-five and a silencer.”

“Okay, I take it you know a lot about guns. This is our latest model. I won’t be able to sell you the silencer, though.”

“How much is the gun?”

“With tax, it’s two hundred and thirty-seven dollars and forty-three cents.”

“I’ll take it.”

“Breakfast was great. We can’t eat like that often.”

“Thanks. I appreciate the help. I guess we can, though.” Allegra began to clear the table of the dishes and maple syrup. “What do you want to do now?”

“We can see what’s on tv or watch a movie.”

“You haven’t changed a bit. Still, like kung fu flics?”

“Yep. We should still be able to catch one.”

“No, Godzilla, please.”

“If we’ve missed the kung fu movie, I’ll pop in a VHS.”
Allegra smiled as she washed up the dishes.

“Hurry up, one is on. Leave the dishes.”

“I’m almost done. What’s on?”

“Drunken Master.”

“Cool. I’ll be done. Okay, finished.” Allegra walked over to join Pablo on the couch.”

“Sit right here.” He pulled her down on the couch and placed her legs over his.

“Just like old times.”

The two watch for a while, Pablo rubbing her legs and her feet. “You know, Allegra, after all, that has happened to you, I thought you would have changed. But you’re still the same person. So sweet and humorous, considerate. I can go on, but I think you get the point.”

“I do, but you can go on and on and on.” They both laughed before kissing and fondling each other.

“We interrupt this program to bring you a special broadcast. We are looking for this man. He is armed and dangerous. Police are asking anyone with information on him to call 1-800-223-6777. More on the ten o’clock news.”

“Pablo, that was a dad. How could he be running the streets if he is in jail?”

“Allegra.” He reached to kiss her again, hoping to distract her. She moved to avoid his kiss. Pablo took a deep breath. “He got out this morning on bail. I didn’t want you to know. I have my uncle pulling strings for me. I hope they catch him soon.”

“Me too. Pablo, I’m scared. What if dad finds us?”

“He won’t.” Just then, the phone rang. Pablo reached to the table behind the sofa. “Hello.”

“Yo, Pablo, it’s Jesse.”

“What’s up, man. You heard.”

“Yeah. I take it Allegra knows now?”

“We were watching a show when the emergency broadcast came on. I’m going to call the precinct and see if I can find out what Sutton did.”

“Okay, call me back and let me know.”

“Sure.” They hung up, and Pablo called the precinct number that he was given. “I’d like to speak to Captain Jenko, please…Yes, Captain, this is Mr. Pablo Rosas… I’m well, thank you. How’s the family?… Glad to hear it… I’m calling to find out what’s going on with the Sutton… He’s my finance’s stepfather…Yes, we were there…I see. Are there any leads?… I see. Please keep me in the loop, Captain….I know that…Thank you.”

“Pablo, what’s going on? Are there any leads?”

“He’s wanted for the murders of a gun shop owner, a mother, and daughter outside of the shop.”

“Oh my God. I know you’ve brought me too far to leave me to know.”

“Yes, he has a babe.” Pablo kissed her lips gently before embracing her. They sat that way for a while. “Allegra, one more thing.” She looks quizzically at him. Pablo brought out a small black box and opened it.

“Pablo, it’s gorgeous.”

“Will you marry me? After you finish school, of course.”

“Yes, I will.” The two embraced. Allegra was so happy, feeling that things were finally going her way. But the thought of Mark stole her peace. She couldn’t help but wonder if she’d ever be rid of him. Pablo pulling away broke her train of view, and she looked up at him.

“Let me call Jesse back.” Pablo got up and walked into the den. “Jesse, man…. He’s wanted for three murders by the Madison Avenue gun shop…I think you do that will just frighten Allegra. Plus, he might follow them. He doesn’t know where she is right now…I know. I could always hire someone…Fine. No, I dont’ want to do anything that would put her at risk…Alright, thanks, man.”

Pablo almost hung up when he heard another tv update.

“We bring you another up to date from the channel nine newscast. The police have just told us that tis man has stolen several guns from the shop. He is not to be approached, he’s armed and dangerous.”

“Yeah, man, please. Alle’s not gonna be good with this.”

“Pablo, now I’m more scared.”

“Allegra, Jesse is sending Tony and crew until I can hire a bodyguard. We’ll be okay. You’ll see, nothing with separate us.”

He put the phone on the table behind the couch again and sat close to his beloved. He wanted to take Allegra’s mind off of the circumstances and began to move his hand across her body. She began to watch him with heavy eyelids. He leaned over and kissed her again, just as the doorbell rang. Pablo got up to open the door.

“Sorry to bother you. I just wanted you to know we’re here. There will be two outside your door at all times, and we’re keeping an eye on the building.”

“Is all this necessary?”

“Gotta keep you two safe. I had to call in a few favors, but I know you’re good for ’em.” I know, but all this is making Alle more upset.”

“Tell her it’ll be okay and that we’re here to keep her safe. Go back to your girl, we’re here now. Everythings cool.”

“Thanks, man.”

“No problem.”

“Who was that at the door?”

“Tony. He and his crew are here, so we’re safe. Nothing to worry about.”

“As long as I have you, there isn’t anything to worry about.”

He tightly embraced her and kissed the top of her head. To think he almost lost her was more than he could take. It was destroying him before she returned to him. Now that she was back, he wasn’t letting her go.

“Now I have a gun and am wanted by the police. I have nothing to lose if
I kill Allegra and Pablo. My dear Allegra, daddy’s getting revenge. The little whore won’t know what hit her.” He laughed. Sutton was obsessed with his daughter and her boyfriend’s death. Nothing else seemed to matter. Thoughts of her begging him for her life made him happy. He laughed again as he fondled his new gun.

Stay tuned next Saturady for the next installment of my Fame fan fiction, ‘Somone to Lean on.”


Someone to Lean on

Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope everyone’s has had a great weekend. Sorry this is up late. I tried several times to post from my phone but I had some technical issues. Finally, I’m home and posting from my computer.

Someone to Lean on is a fan fiction tale based on the tv show Fame from the 1980s. It was one of my favorite shows and I wondered how I could add a few episodes to it. I wrote this story during my teen years and I wanted to keep the innocence that it was created with, so I’ve changed some things but not a lot.

I hope you enjoy the next chapter.

Chapter 8

When Johnson announced Sutton, he walked further into the room.

Pablo finally found his voice. “Uncle, what is he doing here?”

“He wanted to invest in the hotel. He owns a big company.”

“I don’t know about a company, but that’s Allegra’s step-father. The man I told you about.”

“I see. Well, sir, you are not welcome in my home. Johnson, please show him out.” Sutton laughed at this demand. He made no move to follow Johnson, but reached into his pocket brandishing a gun.

“Mr. Rosas, it is not so easy to get rid of me as Allegra and her lover have witnessed. My dear Pablo, you got my daughter pregnant and tried to take her away from me. This time, I’ll make sure you stay dead. My dear Allegra shall pay for her constant betrayal.”

“You know Mr. Sutton; it’s disgusting what you did to your daughter. Terrorized a child, abused and molested her as if she is your possession. You raised her, you and your wife, but you act as if you are her man. What kind of man would rape his daughter? It is a disgrace. I will not have you in my home. Kindly leave.”

“No, I don’t’ think so. We’re going to be here a while, and I will get my revenge on your nephew and his girl.” Sutton smiled at Allegra and chuckled to himself.

Allegra drew closer to Pablo. She began to tremble. “Pablo, I’m so scared.”

“I promise I’ll die first before I let him lay a hand on you again, ” he replied, embracing her. That didn’t make her feel any better knowing that she thought he had.

Without anyone seemingly aware, Tony came up behind Sutton and wrapped his arms around Sutton’s throat; keeping him in a chokehold. Sutton gasp for air and he dropped the gun.

“Well, it looks like your batting average is still zero,” said Tony.

“I’ll get you both next time.” Sutton’l said in a strangled voice. “Tony won’t always be there to save you.”

“But I’ll get rid of you first. Pablo take Allegra home.”

“Thanks, Tony, man.”

“No problem, I know you’ll cover me. Call when you get home. I’ll wait here for the police.”

“You got it.”

The phone rang in Ms. Grant’s apartment. “Hello.”

“Hi, Ms. Grant. This is Jesse.”

“Yes, Jesse.”

“Yes, listen, I just got a call from my man Tony. He caught Alle’s father.”

“Really, where?”

“Pablo’s uncle’s home. He tried to pass as a businessman. He was holding them at gunpoint. But Tony got the jump on him. We have to meet them at the police station in less than an hour. I’m on my way, be there in half an hour. He wants us to ID him for breaking into your apartment also.

“I will be there, thanks, Jess.”

“Thank God we’re home safe. What would we do without Tony?”

“Let’s not talk about it. Say we hit the sack.”

“I’m not tired.”

“Who said anything about sleeping.” Pablo winked at his beloved. “Let me call Tony.” He walked into the living room to call. But the phone just rang. He guessed Tony hadn’t arrived home yet.

“Did you get him?’

“No, He’s probably still at the police station.”

Allegra slipped off her heels. “I love you so much.”

“I love you, Alle.”

“Unzip my dress, please.”

“My pleasure. Turn around.” His hands ran over her skin as he removed her dress. “You look just as beautiful, he continued. His hands sliding over her behind.

“You’re naughty,” she replied as she turned and embraced him. Make love to me.”

“I would love to.” He picked her up and laid her gently on the bed before undressing.

“I still dream about being with you, making love to you. About getting to be with you again. Allegra, I tried to force myself to forget how much you mean to me. But I’m so happy you’re here.”

“I’m glad that I’m here also. But enough talk,” Allegra replied, kissing Pablo passionately. She longed to be loved by him again. She felt blessed that she got another opportunity to be with him.

The next morning they both got ready to leave. Pablo had to go into the office, and Allegra went to school. They were planning on a Friday night together. Pablo wanted to go dinner and dancing tonight, and Allegra was looking forward to it.

He dropped Alle off in front of the school. “Remember, ask Jesse to bring you over to the hotel after school. If he can’t; you know where to reach me.

“Okay, bye, honey.”

“Bye. See you later.” They kissed each other, and she got out of the car, closed the door behind her.”

“Allegra, so tell me how do you know Pablo.”

“Well, Nicky, I used to be his girl when he lived in L.A., so I reunited with him when I came here. Does that answer your question?”

“Yes, but I don’t believe you.”

“You believe what you want, Nicole. I know the truth, and Jesse knows its true.”

“Really, now?”

“Nicole, please, you’re so full of shit. It isn’t funny. You’re jealous cause I’m spending time with your honey. So step off lady cause it won’t work. Jealousy doesn’t become you, makes you look like a jerk.”

“What’s going on, Alle?”

“Nothing, Jesse, just explaining something to Nicole. Nice chatting with you.”

“Jesse, I figured that your cousin would be as nice as you. But apparently not.”

“Nicole, Allegra is as a matter a fact, just like me. So why don’t you tell me what happened.” Nicole began to speak. “Allegra, you first.”

“Oh, that’s just great. Just forget it, Jesse. You both are sickening.”

“Yo babe, if you can’t handle it, forget about us.”

“Oh, okay, okay. It’s late, let’s get to class.”

“Oh, Jess, can you walk me over to Pablo’s work after school.”

“Sure.” Trying to make amends with Nicole, Jesse asks, “Hey Nicole, why don’t you come. You can meet Pablo, and then we can go to Lou’s.”

“Sure. Hope you don’t mind, Allegra.”

“Not at all. You’re welcome to come, Nicole.”

After school, Nicky and Jesse walked Allegra to the hotel near Columbus circle. The hotel was a tall and ornate building. Even though it was old, it was beautiful. Allegra imagined that the clientele was very particular.

They walked to the front desk. “Can I help you.”

“Yes, I’m here to meet with Pablo Rosas. Tell him Allegra’s here.”

“Ah, yes, he said to expect you. I’ll let him know.”

“Thank you,” Allegra replied.

Pablo walked out of the office to greet them. He gave Allegra a quick squeeze and a kiss on the cheek. Then he turned to greet Nicole and Jesse.

“Thanks, Jesse, man. I owe you a lot.”

“No sweat, man. You’re both fam, and I want to see you both happy. I want to introduce you to a friend of mine, Nicole. Nicole, this is Pablo.”

Pablo smiled and nodded his head.

“Pleasure to meet you, Pablo.”

“Yes, same Nicole. I’ve heard a lot about you from both of them.”

“Really?” Nicole asked. Pablo nodded. “I hope they were good things.”

“Most of them.” Nicole glanced at Allegra. “You assure too much, Nicole.”
She smiled gravely.

“Hey Pablo, wanna join Nicole and me at Lou’s?”

“Sure. I’ll meet you there. I want to go home and change.”

“Cool, see you at Lou’s.”

“Ready to go home, Allegra?”

“Do you really wanna go to Lou’s?”

“Sure, don’t you?”

“No, not really. Nicole and I haven’t really gotten along since day one. Hanging out with her doesn’t excite me. I know Jesse likes her, but she might make a play for you.”

“You don’t have anything to worry about.”

“Not my feelings I’m concerned for.”

Check back next week for the next installment.

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Hrithik vs. Tiger Review

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Well, the wait is over, and I finally saw War. I have so much to say about this action-packed movie, and it’s not all good. I’m still trying to figure out when I became so critical of movies. It’s all fun and games, right?

First, let me say that I made a colossal error seeing it in NYC. I figured it was a good idea because I’m already in the city on Sundays, so why not see it at the only NYC theatre that is showing it — sounded like a great idea. Except, I don’t like that theatre. The theatres are separated by floors, so we had to go up to the sixth floor by narrow escalators. That’s not such a big deal, but I was late. For some reason, everyone was out this past Sunday, and I couldn’t find parking for twenty minutes. I had all but given up. I decided just to go home when I found parking on the busiest street in Midtown. Then why do people sit in seats that aren’t theirs? I had to disturb people who were comfortable on both sides of our chairs to settle in.

My lovely student told me that the first twenty minutes was dreary, just a meeting. But I assume that meeting set the foundation for the whole movie. Not to worry, I caught on. This isn’t a mind-bender. And that couldn’t have been all, I had to have missed Tiger and Hrithik dancing together because I never left my seat and I didn’t see it. For that, I would go see the movie all over again.

War was a fast-paced action movie after the meeting, of course. It has car chases, a motorcycle chase, and some severe parkour over rooftops. Tiger was killing that parkour. But, it seemed a lot all packed into one movie. There were not enough fight scenes. I still kind of loved it. And yes, Bollywood has what it takes to emulate American films. Kudos, I never had a doubt.


Big Reveals coming, so STOP now if you don’t want to know.

IF you continue, you’ll know most of the movie plot.

Okay, so if you’ve continued it’s on you. Why does War remind me a lot of Bang Bang with the whole renegade spy thing? It might have something to do with Hrithik being the star. It’s like a combination of Fast and Furious movies. But I guess the Fast and Furious series has set the bar and all films must follow suit. But did they have to copy the snow scene from The Fate of the Furious? Of course, not the same ending at all. Now every car chase movie, people are drifting like Tokyo drift. And Hrithik dropped out of a plane in a jeep. Really? He doesn’t stay in it all the way down, he parachutes.

I feel so cheated by this HrithikvsTiger thing. Tiger’s character isn’t even Tiger’s character by the end of the movie. They pull a Don. Yes, I’m referring to Shah Rukh Khan’s Don movie. But wait, that’s not what pisses me off. How the hell does Saurabh all of a sudden get Tiger’s skill’s when he puts on his face? WTF. To me, that’s a significant movie, faux pas, and many movies do it. Being a fan of both actors, it made me mad. All of a sudden, you’re good enough to do the things you couldn’t do at the beginning of the movie. Seriously? Now there are time lapses in the film, but it’s less than a year, roughly six months. You’re not going to be a prizefighter, ripped, and flying through the air in six months. It’s not humanly possible, so to me, the premise doesn’t work. Now the actor who plays Saurabh is ripped, so that part may work, but not Tiger ripped.

And way to spoil the ending before we get there. When we get down to the final fight scene, I already knew who was going to walk away, it wasn’t a surprise at all. I wasn’t sitting on the edge of my seat with each blow. I wanted to be surprised, but with the plot created that way, I was unhappy.

There was only one fight scene between Tiger and Hrithik. Why? We should have gotten a teaser to the end.

Now they left it open for a new movie, but there won’t be a Tiger 😢. It would really be unbelievable. But honestly, I’ll buy it.

Hrithik, I loved all the way through this movie. He was cool. Although, I thought he’d fallen in love with the girl, and that isn’t the case at all. Just a spy doing his job, so there is no romance here. A Bollywood movie without romance, sigh.

With all the love and hate I have for this movie, I will only give it 🤩🤩🤩 and a half starry eyes emoji. Kind of disappointed.

Well, that’s my review. I hope it’s helpful.

Sad to say, this will be my last review for a while. I enjoy writing, but movie reviews aren’t really my focus, and I need to focus on writing my novel. You’d be surprised how much time writing a blog takes, and that is the time I need to develop all the ideas rattling around in my brain. I will continue with my Sunday short stories and updates. So, I’m not leaving altogether. I’ll give updates on my IG and FB page when a movie review is coming up again. Possible for the summer. Otherwise, I’ll just do an IG story.

Someone To Lean On, fan fiction for Fame will continue for Sunday.

Until then…

Peace & Love.


Someone to Lean On

Peace and Love everyone!

Glad you back to continue reading my fan fiction for fame.

Chapter 7: He’ll Come True for You

She approached the door of Jesse’s apartment. Several blocks after leaving the brownstone, she ran into Tony, who brought her back downtown.

“Thank you, Tony.”

“No problem, I figured you would be back soon. Don’t worry, Pablo will come around.”

“Yeah.” Allegra knocked on the door. “Hi, Jesse. I’m back.

“What happened?”

“He’s a self-centered, arrogant son of a bitch.”

Jesse smiled, “strong words.”

“He doesn’t care, he doesn’t want me around. He doesn’t need me.”

“Yes, he does, he just doesn’t want to admit it.”

“Whatever, can I stay here tonight.”

“Sure, come in, let’s get some sleep.”

For the next two days, Allegra was sad. She just moped around the apartment and school. She really thought Pablo would have called her by then. Oh, how she wished he would come back to her.
It was now the end of the second day, and Allegra was more upset than before. She was coming out of the building right behind Jesse when someone from a fancy car called out.

“Yo, Jesse.”

“Hey Pablo, what’s up?”

“Nothing really. I’m looking for Alle.”

“Of course you are.” Jesse looked around to see Allegra walking out of the building. “Alle, someone is looking for you.”

“Oh, really? Who could it be?” Allegra looked into the car as they walked a bit closer to the vehicle. “Oh, it’s you.”

“I know I’ve been terrible. I didn’t even call to straighten things out. But I needed time to think. Can we talk?”

“I have nothing to say. I’ve said what I needed to say.”

“But I haven’t. Please, Allegra, I need to talk to you.”

“Fine. I’ll see you later, Jesse.”

“Sure, later.”

Allegra walked over and got into the car. “So talk.”

“When we get to my home. Just lay back, listen to the music. Our song is playing.”

Both were quiet in the car for the entire ride. When they reached the apartment, Allegra hesitated. “Sure, you want a hoe like me in your home.”

“You’re not a hoe. And yes, I want you here. I truly did miss you. I really didn’t want anyone else, so I just shut myself down. The beautiful girls were for physical reasons only. There weren’t more than a few. It was hard for me to forget about you. I tried. Thinking of you, and how we almost had our first child. It would have been great the three of us.” Pablo paused and smiled as if reliving the memories. “And well, everything that happened. Sorry, we tricked you like that. But we couldn’t do it any other way. Your mom knows I’m alive by now. In fact, I’ll call them sometime this week. Babe, I still want you in my life. I never stopped loving you.”

“Me neither. You don’t know what I went through the months after the incident. It was horrible. The newspapers and the reporters waiting for the trial, and then the case was dismissed. Finally, he came home. I’ve been having nightmares ever since the shooting. I keep seeing you lying in my arms. It’s been horrible.”

“Oh, babe, I’m so sorry you couldn’t come with me. We didn’t see how we could do that and not draw suspicions. But you’re here now.” He kissed her softly. “Let’s get some rest. Tomorrow I’ll pick you up after school, and we’ll go shopping. I have a business dinner, and I want you to look great when you accompany me.”

“Okay, see you in the morning.”

“Just like old times. Us sleeping together.”

“I feel safe with you.”

“Glad you do.”

“Morning, Pablo.”

“Morning Love. Did you sleep well?”

“Like a baby. I’m glad you came to get me.”

“Me also. Get ready, and I’ll drop you to school. What would you like for breakfast?”

“Remember, my favorite? You made it for me at your home.”

“Yeah, no problem,” he replied, kissing her. “Go get ready.”

Allegra loved her day after reuniting with Pablo. She had her dream of dancing, and Pablo would share it with her. When her day was over, Pablo came to get her.

“Hey Jesse, have you seen Allegra?”

“She’s coming. Glad to see you two happy. She really cares for you.”

“I know. You know I love Alle. I’ve been miserable without her.”

“Yeah, you have and just grumpy.”

Pablo chuckled. Jesse turned to look again. “Here she comes.”

This time Allegra didn’t hesitate to walk up to the car.

“Hi, babe, ready to go?”

“Sure. See you tomorrow, Jesse.”


“We’ll stop home first.”

At the Brownstone, Allegra dropped her backpack on the floor and slumped into the couch. “I need thirty minutes to finish this assignment. Then I’m yours.”

Pablo tried to focus on his work for the time, but he couldn’t help but watch her. It had been more than six months since he saw her. Or spent any amount of time with her. She was, in some ways, still that sweet innocent girl. He didn’t know how that was possible. Almost as though she locked away the bad times and didn’t think about them now that she was away from them.

When she closed her book, he realized he sat with the papers in his hand and hadn’t looked at them at all. He shook his head. “Ready to go shopping?” He asked, thinking he would have to focus on his work instead of her some times. “There are a lot of nice stores around here. Say we get you a nice sleek dressed for tonight?”

“Sounds good. So, ah, what do you do for this guy?”

“He’s my uncle, actually. I manage his hotel.”

“That seems to be a family thing.”

“Yes, my parents and uncle have built from what my grandparents started. Now, enough about that, let’s find you a dress. I want to show you off tonight. Let’s go.”

They got into the elevator and got off onto the main floor instead of the garage. “Aren’t we driving?”

“No, we’re not going far. I think it would be fun to explore the neighborhood. I already know what I would like you to wear. The couple took a leisurely stroll looking into store windows until they reached the store Pablo had in mind. “Let’s try this shop, I think we can find something here.” They walk around the store for a few minutes. What do you think of this one?”

“I like this one.” Pulling out another dress to show him. “What are we looking for exactly?”

“Something sexy but not too revealing,” Pablo replied.

“Okay, how about leather?”

“No, not for a business dinner. What about that dress?”

“A bit too frilly. But you always liked that. What about that one?”

“Oh, that is me. Close-fitting, split on the side. The lace is also elegant, and it’s my favorite color, turquoise.”

“Can I help you?” A salesperson finally asked.

“Yes, I’d like to see this dress in size eight.”

“Sure, would you like to try it on.”

“Yes, I would.”

“Right this way. It’s a charming dress.”

As she tries it on, she thinks as to whether she wants to surprise Pablo or show him now. She wouldn’t want to get a dress that isn’t right for the event. Although, she much rather surprise him with how beautiful she looks.

“This is lovely. Pablo, here I come.” She walked towards him, sitting in the back of the dressing room. How does it look?”

“You look gorgeous. Do you want it?”


“We’ll take it,” he turns towards the salesperson. “Do you have shoes that will go with this?”


“I’m a size nine,” Allegra states.

“Give me a minute. You’ll want to see how the shoes look with the dress.”

As Allegra waited, she looked at herself in the mirror, twisting and turning to see every angle. Pablo watched her watching herself. He remembered taking her shopping only once in Los Angeles for a fancy dress. Alle hadn’t wanted him to spend a lot of money on her, so she often said no to shopping trips. She had looked so glamourous that day at the hotel gala, much the same as now. The only thing different was that she wasn’t pregnant. That saddened him a bit. Still, he couldn’t help but think of how careless he had been. He would take better care this time. She needed time to finish school and have a career in dance before he gave her children.

When the sales representative came back with the shoes, he watched Allegra try them on. Yes, she is gorgeous. “We’ll take everything. Do you take plastic?”

“Sorry, cash only.”

“No problem. How much?”

“Six hundred dollars.”

Pablo pulled out six new bills and handed them to the salesperson after she bagged the shoes and dress. “Let’s go, Alle. We have to get ready quickly.

“Mark, I don’t want you here at all. You’re a disgrace to the family. And I will have no part in your scheme to try and ruin that girl’s life.”

“You don’t have to do anything. Just let me stay here.”


“I’m not asking I’m demanding.”

“How dear you! You barge in here and demand to stay here. I’ll be damned if you stay. Get out.”

“You have no choice.”

Just then there was a knock at the door. A voice called “Ms. Grant.”

“Jesse, how are you?”

“I’m fine. Open the door.”

Ms. Grant watched Mark wearily as she walked over to open the door. Jesse nodded toward her as he walked in.

“Hey, Sutton, wasn’t that beating enough for you?”

“I knew someone was behind it, but I never knew you had the guts to do something like that.”

“You don’t know me, Mr. Sutton. Keep messing with my family, and you’ll have more than just a black eye and a few bruises.”

“You talk very big.”

“My actions hurt more, believe me.”

“Jesse, where’s Allegra?”

“Safe, very safe.” Jesse turned toward Sutton. “Now, why don’t you leave. Find your way out of the building.”

“You’ve won for now. But I’ll be back, and it will all be the worst for Allegra.”

“Well, Alle, you look sensational. And for the finishing touch.” Pablo reached into the jewelry box and pulled out a necklace that he unclasps and places around Allegra’s neck.

Allegra walked over to the full-length mirror in the bedroom and looked at the jewelry sparkle. She smiled. “This is so beautiful.”

“Not more beautiful than the girl that wears it.”

“So sweet. You look great in that suit. It reminds me of that night you took me to the gala with your parents.”

Pablo smiled as he reached to take Allegra’s arm. “Let’s go. Can’t wait to show you off.”

“I think I’m going to enjoy this. My first big dinner in New York.”

“Ms. Grant, are you going to be okay?”

“Yes, I think so. Jesse, where is Allegra?”

“With her old boyfriend, Pablo.”

“I thought he was dead.”

“To her knowledge, but his parents were wealthy enough to manage to get him out of the state. He’s here, and she’s safe. Besides, I’ve got some of the brothers looking after her.”

“Yeah, well, she’ll need all the protection she can get. Mark is crazy. I think her dating Pablo really set him off.”

“I know. I pray Sutton doesn’t find her.”

“Pablo and Allegra approached the steps of a large Long Island home. It was gorgeous. There was a rock garden that reminded her of the small one at home, in L.A. She planted that garden, her pride, and joy.

Pablo rang the doorbell, and the butler came to answer the door. “Ah, Mr. Rosas, your uncle, is waiting for you in the library.”

“Thank you, Johnson. This is my girlfriend, Allegra Rivera.”

“Miss Rivera, pleasure. Shall I take your shawl.”

“Sure. Thank you.”

Johnson nodded, draping the heavy shawl over his arm. “This way to the library.”

“Uncle Xavier,” Pablo exclaimed.

“Pablo, good to see you,” the uncle replied, getting up from his chair. The two men greeted each other with a hug.

“I see you brought another young lady.”

Pablo hoped that chide didn’t bother Allegra too much. Why did his uncle do that every dinner? “This is the one I was talking to you about when I first arrived in New York.”

“Really? She’s more beautiful than you said. Allegra, I presume?”

“Yes, nice to meet you, Señor Rosas.”

“Enchanted,” he replied, kissing her hand. “Sit, please. What brings you to New York?”

“I’m studying dance at the School of the Arts.”

“Oh, well, are you a good dancer?”

“My aunt thinks so. She’s my dance teacher at the school.”

“That’s lovely.” Xavier looked up at Johnson, who had just returned to the room. “Now we can proceed with dinner. There’s only one more person, but he said he’d be late. Shall we go into the dining room?” Xavier gestured as he asked.

Pablo leads Allegra. “Uncle, whose the business person tonight.”

“You wouldn’t know him. He’s an old acquaintance.”

“Oh, I see. What’s for dinner?”

“From what Johnson says, Smith is cooking up a seven course Italian delight with a lot of seafood and pasta. Hope you’re hungry and not allergic, Allegra.”

“I’m not allergic too much. And I’m famished. Sounds great.”

As the food is brought out, Xavier addresses Johnson. “Compliments to the chef Johnson.”

“Yes, sir.”

Dinner carried on through several courses without Xavier’s guest. Allegra though the conversation diverting but lost interest after a while as the men went on about business and how to keep profits up and pull in new clients. They even discussed the options coming to the hotel business that they might be able to take advantage of. Xavier seems to spend very little time entertaining Allegra, which she thought rude. Still, Allegra was at ease. She ate and rehearse her solo in her head to account for every detail.

She wondered how many dinners Pablo came with a new woman on his arm. She couldn’t help but notice that Xavier didn’t see to have a significant other.

When the guest was announced, they were having dessert. Allegra went absolutely still not even acknowledging their presence. Also, Pablo seemed to freeze, not knowing how to react. Neither of them could figure out how Xavier knew the gentleman standing no more than a few feet from them.

Until next week. Check back for the next chapter.

Peace & Love


War is Here!

Peace & Love Everyone!

We made it through two anxious months waiting for this movie release, and it is here. War comes out today, October 2, 2019. I’m still waiting to see if they’ll release it in any other theaters in New York. Funny thing, it’s not in the usual movie theaters. There are three major theaters in New York that Bollywood movies are released, that is not the case this time. So far it’s only released or going to be released in three Regal theaters. Not sure of the reason.

Anyway, what do you think? Have you picked your team? I hope I helped you make that decision. Or maybe I made it harder. I know I made it harder for myself. Movies don’t work logically; there is always a twist and turn to make things more exciting.

Maybe you’re team Hrithik. I would agree with that. He is a great actor with an impressive range of characters. As he gained more experience, his range expanded. He dances well although I’ve heard he’s not a natural. Wouldn’t have known that by looking at him. And if that’s true, he deserves more props.

Still, what about our newcomer? Tiger’s acting is getting better. He’s a martial artist and a dancer. He looks great in those routines. So does the younger wipe the floor with his master or does the master show him whose boss?

My prediction, the two will figure out what happened and work together. What do you think?

I just don’t know who to pick. I’m an avid fan of both actors. That’s one of the reasons that I wanted to see this movie in the first place. I’ve seen the majority of their movies and I’m anxious to see what the writers and directors have done with the skills of these two stars. It’s not often that your favorite actors star in a movie together. This should be an epic movie in Bollywood history.

Can you believe that on Twitter, I read early yesterday that Aditya Chopra is planning a sequel. Is it a sequel with both of them or after one dies — so many questions.

Hope you’ve enjoyed my countdown to War and I hope the movie is as action packed as we think it’s going to be. Check back next we for my review of War.

Peace & Love


Fan Fiction: Chapter 5

Peace and Love Everyone!

I’m late with the chapter tonight but I’m bring it to you. It’s been a long weekend and I would have completed it sooner, except I needed to wash and braid my daughter’s hair. That is always a feat in itself.

Anyway, I didn’t want to disappoint so I finished typing and edit today. Now this story was created when I was in junior high. I’ve been working to type it and clean it up. And without further delay, I bring you Episode 5 of my Fame Fan Fiction.

Chapter 5

Jesse took Allegra home after Lou’s. They talked a lot about old times, but Alle made sure that her step-father was not part of the conversation. She didn’t want to remember any of it. She was ashamed of that part of her past. Not only was her family hurt, but the only guy she ever loved was killed trying to protect her.

Thinking g of it now made her want to curl up in a ball in bed. Well, Jess, are you coming in, have a coke?”

“Sure, I’ll have a cherry coke.”

“Fine, let’s go into my room. I want to show you something.” Allegra grabbed two cokes out of the refrigerator and headed to her room. When she opened the door, she screamed aloud, a sound piercing to the ears. To her surprise, Mark was lying on her bed.

“I was wondering when you would get home.”

“No, no,” she said, backing out of the bedroom door. She was about to scream Jesse help when she backed right into him.

Just then, her aunt walked in.

“Allegra, what’s wrong? I heard your scream from the hallway. “Why are you screaming?”

“Ms. Grant, her father is here.”

“What the hell do you mean, her father is here?” Lydia walked to the bedroom and opened the door. “Mark Sutton, what the hell are you doing here? Get out, or I’ll call the police.

“I’m taking Allegra with me.”

“No, Auntie, Jesse don’t let him take me. Please, don’t let him take me. He’ll hurt me again, just like before and just like he hurt Pablo. He killed him; he’ll kill me just the same. Don’t let him take me.” Panic was rising in Allegra. She began to feel like she would never escape her pain. It kept coming back, no matter how she tried to break free.

“Jesse, take her to your place, please. I’ll bring her stuff over later.”

“Sure, Ms. Grant. Come on, Allegra.”

“You can run all you want. I’ll find you, Allegra. You know you want me. No one gives it to you as good as I can. And you know it.”

“Your delusional Mark and sick. Get help. But mostly get out!”

It took the whole train ride uptown for Allegra to calm down. By the time she reached Jesse’s apartment, she wasn’t as upset. Seeing her, stepfather brought back a lot of painful memories. It was a living nightmare.

“Allegra, tell me what happened to you when you returned to LA. You wrote to me once about a guy you were studying with. Did anything happen?”

“Yeah. As you know, Pablo and I studied at my house a lot. And well, dad got very upset at Pablo always being there. But I kept that under control for a while. At least up until the time something started between us. Pablo knew me like a book, and he was the only one I trusted. Mom had convinced dad to let me date, so I had hoped that Dad would leave me alone. He did for a while anyway.

“Pablo and I got close. I told him about dad and what I felt about him not abusing me anymore. Pablo wanted to be sure so he would sneak into my room at night and stay with me. I felt so safe with him. Pablo came every night for two months to protect me.

“Allegra, you sound so calm.” He paused and looked at the cousin he had grown fond of during one summer in Mexico. “When did he start abusing you?”

“What, who?”

“Mark. When did the abuse start?”

“Oh, about six months after Mexico.”

“Allegra.” He was going to continue, but he saw the storm brewing behind her calm. He didn’t want to cause a scene, so he let her finish.”

“I went to the doctor, well Pablo took me. My period was a little over two months late. The test was positive. I told Pablo, and he was upset at first, but then he was thrilled. He was going to send me to college and dance school. He wanted to support my every dream. I never told mom, though.

“I was almost three months pregnant. That same day that I found out, there was an emergency at the hotel, and Pablo couldn’t stay with me, so he just dropped me home. I thought I was safe, but it happened again. He raped me. Oh, God, that night is still fresh in my mind. I felt dirty again. I didn’t think I would ever feel that way back, but I did.” Allegra recounted the story, and the thought of it made her stomach roll. She thought she was going to throw up. Instead, she took a deep breath, swallowed and managed to continue. I felt like I was betraying Pablo. I know now it wasn’t my fault. I would have screamed, but he had a knife to me. He beat me pretty bad. After it was over, I felt sharp pains in my stomach. I was bleeding, and I lost the baby. I spent a week in the hospital, but not without another attempt from him. Good thing Pablo was there.

“Three months later, I went to see my mom. After the hospital, I went to live with Pablo and his family. It was good to see mom. I had missed her. Everything was fine for a while, but then, Mark came out of their bedroom with a gun. He shot and killed Pablo, and all I had left of him. Pablo died after two months in the hospital. The case was dismissed in the eighth month. I’ve lived with those memories ever since, and I hate Mark for ruining my life. He killed the only man I’ve loved and killed my baby. The baby would have been smart like his father, I know it. Pablo was so intelligent, a brilliant man. He was all I had left to make life worth living.”
They had just stepped into Jesse’s apartment. “Oh, Allegra, I’m sorry. I didn’t know you were carrying around all that pain. But I have a secret to tell you. Pablo isn’t dead.”

“What? Jesse, I saw him in the hospital. I went to his funeral. How can you tell me he’s alive. That’s not funny.”

“I’m not joking. Did you tell him about me? Anything at all?”

“Yes, where you lived, and the times we had. I told you he knew me like a book.”

“Yeah well, after the shooting and the funeral and all he came to New York. He got in touch with me and told me everything. Well, almost everything. I didn’t know uncle Mark was abusing you. Anyway, his parents set him up here. They wanted to protect him. Said they didn’t want him to have to deal with the circus. Besides, your stepfather would have killed him for sure.”
“Anyway, we talked, and we still keep in touch. I’ll take you to see him, but I warn you Pablo is not the same man you knew. He’s become cold. I know he’s still dealing with the loss of you and the baby, but he won’t admit it. He’s more of a ladies man now, thinks women just get you into trouble if you get too involved.”

“Jesses can you take me to see him?”

“Maybe. Do you really want to?

“Yes, Jesse. I can’t believe that he’s alive.”

“Yeah, well. Let’s call him first. Get the door, will you?”

“Sure.” Allegra walks a few feet and opens the door, “Aunt Lydia.”

“Hi, honey. Are you okay?” Lydia hugs Allegra.


“Where’s Jesse?”

“Hey Richarson, any mail?”

“Yes, the courier brought an envelope. I slipped it under the door.”

“Thanks.” He replied, getting into the elevator up to his floor. The apartment door was open, and Linda’s suitcases were outside of it.

“What the hell’s going on? Where are you going?

“Away from you. To someone who treats me right.”

“What’s wrong? Diamonds aren’t good enough for you anymore?”

“You know what I mean.”

“I did everything but kiss up to you. You ungrateful bitch. I gave you everything. I tell you what. You want to leave do so, leave all the jewelry here.”

“No, that’s a gift.”

“Bullshit. You leave, you leave jewelry here.” He yelled, grabbing her arm.

“Let go of my arm, you bastard. I hate you.”

“A bastard, fine. You go, and I’ll take this.” With that he grabbed jewelry kit and shoved Linda through the door, slamming it behind her. “I should have sent her out with what she came to me with, nothing.” He paused, looking at the closed door and took a deep breath. He couldn’t help but wonder what had happened to him when the phone rang. He walked over to the table and picked up the receiver. “Hello…Yeah, this better be good Valesquez.

“He’s making a phone call.”

“I just brought you some of your things. Tell Jesse I came by and thanks.”

“Sure, Auntie, see you.”

“Okay, Alle, let’s go. Wait, let me check my window.” As Jesse entered his bedroom, he saw Mark about to climb through. Jesse punched him; Mark lost his balance and fell unto the fire escape. Jesse locked the window.

“What was that?”

“Nothing, let’s go. I have to stop to see a friend first.”


They walked down the hall, and he knocked on the door. “Tony, you home.”
The door swings open. “Hey, Jesse, what’s up?”

“Hey man, listen. I need you to take care of someone whose messing with my cousin here.” Jesse points to Allegra. “He was just here a couple of minutes ago.”

“The dude on the fire escape.”

“Thought so, he’s handled. I thought he was after the girl you brought home. I didn’t know she was family. I’ll keep an eye out.”

“Thanks, Tony. Check you later.”

“No problem. Take care of her; she’s one fine chick.”

“Yeah, see ya.” He turned to Allegra. “Let’s go Alle.”

“Aren’t you going to introduce me to Tony. And what was that about?”

“There’s no need for that. You’re my cousin; you’re his cousin. And don’t worry about a thing.”

They were quiet for a while as they walked to the train station. “You know, you sure are a lot of trouble. Here I’m seeing you for the first time in a decade, and I’ve taken you home, then my place, now mid-town.”

“Sorry. I don’t mean to be any trouble.”

Jesse smiled and put his arm on her shoulder and gave her a side hug. “I know what we do for family. Especially my Manchichi.” They got off the train and began walking. “Now I’d like to remind you he isn’t the same guy you knew in L.A.”

“I know, I just hope that later he’ll take me back.”

Jesse rang the bell of the brownstone. The doorman opened the door. “May I ask who you are and who you wish to see?”

“Pablo Rosado Rosas and I’m Jesse Valesquez.”

“Yes sir,” the doorman replied, picking up the building phone. “Mr. Rosas there is a Mr. Burrego to see you….You can go right up, the fifth floor. Use the front door.”

“Sure, thanks. Come on, Allegra.”

Pablo lived on the top floor of the building. There were several homes in the building, and the apartments were large.

When they reached the apartment, Allegra hid behind Jesse. Then he rang the doorbell and waited, but not for long.

“Burrego, what do you want?”

“My aren’t we in a bad mood.”

“You would be too if your main bitch walked out on you. She moved all her stuff.”

Jesse turned slightly and whispered, “I told you he changed.”

“Who are you talking to, Valesquez?”

“Pablo, I have someone that will cheer you up.”

“You have another loving bitch for me.”

“No, an old lover.” Allegra stepped out from behind Jesse.

“Hi, Pablo.”

“What are you doing here.”

“Trying to change my life. Hoping to leave the past behind. I needed a new start in my life.”

“So find a new boyfriend.”

“I much prefer the old one. I’ve missed him so.”

“Well, I’ll leave you two to catch up,” Jesse said to both of them. Then he turns to Allegra, “I’ll see you in school tomorrow. Pablo, check you later, man.” Jesse chuckles and walks away.

“Yo, Jesse, man what am I suppose to do with her?”

“Take care of her. You did before. The streets aren’t safe for her.” Pablo sighed. “Come in. Can’t leave you standing there.”

“I still need you, Pablo.”

“I need you too, babe.” He replied, embracing her. “I need you too. Let me take the bag. I’ll put it in the bedroom. So how are you?”

“Okay. I’ve missed you a lot. I wasn’t the same without you.”

“Yes, same here. I missed you. I’ve locked myself away here because I don’t want to care about anyone anymore. So let’s go into the bedroom, and I’ll show you have much. I missed you.”

“Pablo, I’m not one of your hoes off the street. What do you think of me now? Do you still respect me? Do you even care for me?”

“I don’t know. How do you want me to feel? You endanger my life by tricking me into protecting you from your father. You made me believe he was abusing you. You probably made up the baby.”

“Is that what you think?” Allegra couldn’t believe this was happening. She so didn’t need this right now, not after how her day was ending. “Sure, I bruised myself to get the attention of a guy. I even got my gynecologist to pretend I was pregnant and then having a miscarriage. I didn’t want you to get hurt; I just wanted to get away. You seemed to care; maybe I was wrong to think you did. Thank you for nothing. Goodbye.” She screamed at him and ran out of the apartment, crying.

Pablo sat down in the middle of his living room. “Damn Pablo, you got the one you loved back in your life, and you blew it. I hope she’ll give me another chance. I still love her, dearly.

I hope you enjoyed the next chapter in my Fame fan fiction. Let me know what you think.

There are ten chapters in this story, so we’re half way there. Join me next week for the next episode in my Fame fan fiction.

Until then…..

Peace & Love


Countdown to War

We’re getting closer to the movie release. OMG! I’m so excited. Time seems to have flown as I’ve done a review each week.

This week we’ve come to the end of our movie list. Today I’ll review Munna Michael, Flying Jatt and Heropanti.

First, let me say that I’ve loved Tiger from the first movie. With Hrithik, I wasn’t impressed until KKKG. That’s when I truly began to like Hrithik and wanted to watch every film. With Tiger, it was different.

Heropanti was the first movie I saw Tiger in, and I loved it. It was fun, romantic and the action scene were great, but when I saw him dance, I knew I was going to be a fan of him forever. I love dancing and remember the hours it takes to perfect it. It’s not easy, and it was evident from his moves that Tiger was a pro.

By the time I realized there was a new Bollywood star on the rise, Tiger had already done Heropanti, Flying Jhatt, and Baaghi. I was definitely late to this party, but I won’t sleep on Tiger any more and neither should you.

Heropanti is about a young man (Tiger plays Bablu) who seems to know he’s off the chain. He has skills when it comes to fighting, and everyone knows it. Well, those who know him. When his friend elopes with his girlfriend on her wedding night to someone else, Tiger is tight-lipped when attacked by her uncles. The chase ensues, with her uncles and her dad trying to find the missing girl. Meanwhile, Tiger realizes the girl he is smitten by is one of the daughters and sister to the girl who eloped. The fun and action continue throughout the film to the very end.

My favorite videos from Heropanti are Whistle Baja and The Pappi song.

Heropanti gets 🤩🤩🤩🤩 out of five starry eyes emoji’s from me. I enjoyed it, even after the fourth time watching it.

Now Flying Jatt took a while to make it to Netflix streaming. That’s actually where I first watched it. I canceled my DVD subscription years ago, so I have no clue if it is available that way. (I’m writing as I watch.)

Does anyone have any idea what’s going on in the beginning? I was watching for a minute before I realized it was that Jatt reversed the damage done by man. Really? It’s a far fetched idea, to say the least, but okay. I watched it anyway.

Flying Jatt is partially comedy. A reluctant hero has to save his village from a billionaire who wants to tear it down. He’s afraid of heights and makes the wrong judgment calls on several occasions. His first serious rescue attempt he runs into the car, head first. LOL. But he does get the hang of it after a few tries, and this reluctant hero manages to save a lot of lives.

Unfortunately, by the middle of the movie, I’m bored. I guess because it just seemed like another superhero movie, seen one seen them all. Right? I sincerely hope not; I enjoy those movies. What did make it cute were the songs and the dance routines. I enjoyed Bhangda Pa, and Beat Pe Booty brought my attention back to the film.

One of the things that I liked about the movie is how it dealt with the issue of toxic waste and waste in general. We, human beings create a lot of waste, most of it toxic. The companies make it, but we don’t dispose of a lot of it correctly, we litter, and pollute our waterways. We don’t make companies responsible for the waste they create. Instead, they dump where they want to, infecting waterways making it undrinkable. The trash produced is killing off our wildlife, and we don’t stop. Do companies not realize that we are all affected by it. Even they and their children are affected by it and money won’t save them.

Flying Jatt is okay, I give it 🤩🤩🤩 out of five starry eyes emojis. I heard they’re actually making a part two.

The last movie for this review is Munna Michael, which my daughter and I saw and readily enjoyed. We were there on opening day in North Carolina to see it. We enjoyed it so much. I purchased the DVD when it was released. It’s presently only streaming on Erosnow.com, and if you bought it through Amazon Prime, it doesn’t have subtitles.

Munna Michael takes us through the life of a dancer who instead of working as a dancer in Bollywood he goes into dance clubs to compete and scam people who think they can dance. It works at first until his group is band from the clubs. The group routines are fun, and of course, Tiger is in rear form. Watching him dance is a fascinating thing.

Now it gets strange when looking for a club to run game, Munna bets the wrong person and ends up working with a gangster. I’ve probably said too much already. But this dancing fighting character has a lot of twists and turns throughout the movie. It’s fun.

There is at least one problem, Bollywood seems to have problems finding a competent dance partner to play opposite Tiger. The partnership in Heropanti and Baaghi works, mostly because dancing isn’t the main focus of the movie. Even the routines that Jacqueline Hernandez does opposite Tiger work. But each time they create a dance movie (i.e. Student of the Year 2 and Munna Michael) the partner for Tiger has something lacking. Munna Michael has this issue, majorly. Even if you wanted the full focus on Tiger, his partner should have enough rhythm to keep up and be on beat.

There are of course a few more issues with Munna than what I’ve mentioned, but if you can get past the dancing of his partner and have fun with the film, it’s worth watch. I give Munna Michael 🤩🤩🤩 and 1/2 out of 5 starry eyes emojis.

That was our last movie for the War Countdown. Next Wednesday, I’ll discuss my team for the movie War, which will be the day it is released. I’m going to see it with my children that Saturday, so I will do a follow-up review when it’s all said and done.

Is War worth the hype? The trailers and music videos sure make it look like it’s scorching. We shall see. Usually, Yash Raj films does a great job.

If you like romance, check back on Saturday for the next installment of my fan fiction to Fame.

Until next week.

Peace & Love


Fame Fan Fiction

Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope you’ve all had a great week. I’m finally back. Sorry about not posting last week. I just hadn’t prepped and couldn’t pull off the last minute blog post. Last weekend I attended the Sugar Gals Shop Planner Conference in New York City. It was my first planner conference ever. I definitely has a good time.

This week I bring you the end of the first section of my fan fiction, chapter 3 and the beginning of the second section, chapter 4. I hope you enjoy reading it. I’ve been enjoying working on it. It brings back good childhood memories and I continue to recognize certain things about my writing. I hope posting the two chapters will make up for me missing a week. Enjoy.

Chapter 3

Within a week, Allegra was out of the hospital and was staying with Pablo and his family. She even worked a few hours at the hotel each day after school. She loved her new life. As soon as she finished high school, she and Pablo would get married. That was less than two years away.

“Pablo, it’s been over three months since I’ve seen mama. I would really like to see her.”

“Okay, we’ll go after work. But you know your father will be there.”

“I think I can handle seeing him for a few minutes.”

“Okay, get ready to go. Dad, see you at home.”

“Okay, son. Bye, Allegra.”

“See you, Mr. Rosas.”

“It’s about time that you call me Enrique.”

“Okay. See you, Enrique.”

“That’s better.”

“Anita, bring me a beer.”

“Get your beer yourself. You haven’t been sober more than a few hours since Allegra was away.”

“If she hadn’t gone off with that jerk, we could have had it good.”

“Mark, you ass, ‘we could have had it good.’ The girl doesn’t want you. She’s trying to get on with her life. Leave her alone.”

“Well, Alle, we’re here. Want to go through with it?”

“Yeah. I can’t let Mark stop me from seeing mama.”

“I understand that. You two can always meet after school and go shopping, or your mom can come to the hotel and have dinner with you.”

“I’ll discuss that with her when I see her.”

“Well, it’s now or never. Let’s go.”

“Okay.” They got out of the car and walked up the front walk. It wasn’t long after she rang the doorbell that her mom opened the door.

“Mi Bambina.”

“Hi, mama. How are you?”

“Okay, and you? Pablo, como estas?”

“We’re both well.”

“Bueno, bueno. Come in, come in. Don’t mind Mark; he’s out of it.”
Mark got up from his chair and headed for the bedroom.

“So everything okay.”

“Yes, great. His parents are so nice to me. Working at the hotel is going well also.”

“What do you do?”

“I answer phones and other little things.”
“Sounds good. I am glad you are happy. When you make my daughter happy Pablo, you make me happy.”

“That’s good to hear, Mrs. Sutton.”

“Call me, Essie, please.”

“Of course, Essie.” Just then, Mark came out of the room with a shotgun and pointed it at Pablo.

Everyone froze.

“Get out of my house, you bastard. You took my daughter away from me. You will pay.” He paused and came closer.

Pablo and Allegra got up and began to move toward the door. Pablo had pushed Allegra behind them as they slowly edged their way to the door. Mark watched and several moments pasted.

“With your life.” Mark pulled the trigger. Mrs. Sutton fell from the couch to her hands and knees.

“No,” screamed Allegra. “You son of a bitch. You shot him! No.” Allegra held Pablo in her arms. There seemed to be blood everywhere. Allegra pressed her jacket into the wound to staunch the bleeding, but that didn’t see to help “Mama, call 911,” Allegra yelled, seeing her mom frozen in prayer.

“Why did you have to ruin my life. You ruined my mother’s life wasn’t that enough. Pablo hold on. Please don’t leave me here. I can’t carry on without you. I love you.”

“I love you too, Alle. I always will.” Pablo closed his eyes. It almost sent Allegra into further panic. But his heart still beat, his chest rose and fell, although shallow. He would hold on for her.

It seemed life the ambulance had taken forever to arrive. Finally, they rushed Pablo to the hospital. Allegra road with him. Her mom promised to call Enrique and tell him what happened.

Mark was arrested for the attempted murder of Pablo Rosas. It was a big story printed in every newspaper across Los Angeles. It would take a while for the trial to begin although prosecutors had promised her they would try to fast track it. Several months went by, and it seemed like Pablo was getting better. When the doctors announced his death, everything stopped for Allegra. It didn’t matter that her so-called father would be tried for murder.
When the case was dismissed on a technicality after the trial hearing was postponed Allegra thought she would die.

Anita had been righting her sister Lydia in New York when all the chaos started. Lydia had sent a plane ticket for Allegra as soon as she heard, but Anita held on to it, thinking Pablo would get better. The day the charges were dropped, Enrique drove Allegra to the airport and Anita said her goodbyes to her daughter.

Since Essie had no reason to stay a homemaker, she began to work at the hotel. Both families had suffered a horrible loss and formed a friendship to support each other.

Part II: Chapter 4

Allegra approached the steps of her new school. She looked up and smiled as she read the name written above the doors. She walked through the halls looking for the dance room. She heard music coming from a place a short distance ahead. She followed the sound and opened the doors. She stood watching her aunt for a while.

Allegra stood about average height, long dark brown hair with a golden brown complexion. Her complexion is only slightly darker than the woman she watched now. Allegra and her aunt were about the same height, but Lydia had cut her hair into a short trendy style.

“Hi, Aunt Lydia.”

“I see you made it. So, what do you think of the school.”

“It’s nice. Three girls greeted me and introduced themselves. I think their names were Nicky, Dusty, and Reggie.”

“Oh, so you’ve met some of the girls in the class.”

“Yeah, I think I’ll go down and change. Then I’ll warm-up. See you soon, Auntie.” Allegra ran downstairs and changed quickly. She returned to the room and began warming up just as the bell rang. Students began to pour into class. Allegra stopped stretching and stood next to her aunt.

A tall black guy entered the room. Well built, with braids in his hair. Cute, but so not Allegra’s type. He seemed too old to be a student, so either he got left-back, or he was the guy her aunt had told her helped out a lot with classes.

“Leroy, come here, honey.”

“Yes, Ms. Grant.”

“I want you to meet my niece. Allegra, this is Leroy. Leroy, my niece, Allegra. She will be a permeant student here at the Arts.”

“Hello, Allegra, nice to meet you.”

“Same here, Leroy. Aunt Lydia, when am I going to see Jesse?”

“He should’ve been here by now. But knowing him, he’ll be late. Leroy, do me a favor and take over the class, I’ll be back. Oh, and introduce Allegra to them.”

“Yes, Ms. Grant. So tell me, who are you related to in this school? Besides Ms. Grant, that is.”

“Jesse Valesquez, I’m sure you know him.”

“Who doesn’t?’

“I guess he’s very popular.”

“Yes, he knows every girl in the school, and every girl knows him.” Leroy turned to the class. “Alright, class, let’s get started. We’re going to work on the number for the show. Oh yeah, class, I’d like you to meet our new student Allegra. She’ll be working with us at the Arts from now on.”
Allegra just smiled and joined the class. Just then, a tall guy with long, straight hair walked in. He was indeed cute and Allegra’s type if he wasn’t family. They met when she went to visit her grandparents in Mexico. She and Jesse were attracted to each other at first sight, must have been the family resemblance. Her aunt Maria explain their family connection before the two could get any more attached. They were cousins. My what a shock that was, he was her cousin. Well, she and Jesse became the best of friends. He was a great guy.

“Valesquez, you’re late.”

“Yeah, I know. My alarm clock didn’t go off.”

“Just get in line. Okay, let’s get to work. Allegra since you’re new, watch. You can join in the next time they go over it.”

“Okay,” she replied to see if her cousin had noticed her or even sensed her presence. But he didn’t even look to see who Allegra was, too busy getting ready to start.

“Okay class from the top, 5,6,7 and.”

They began to dance. The class was so good, Allegra wondered if she was even good enough to fit in. As she watched and felt the beat of the music, she began to move. Her aunt had briefly gone over the routine with her at home.

As she continued, Leroy stopped dancing to watch her move. Allegra was so graceful and light on her feet. “Everyone stop. There’s nothing wrong, and I just want to start from the beginning. This time Jesse and Allegra as the lead. Jesse, you know the steps.”


“Good show, Allegra. Now, I want you to watch Jesse and follow him.”

“Okay, I hope I don’t let you down.”

“Believe me; we won’t mind.”

“Ah, Nicole, did you say something.”

“No, I didn’t hear anything.”

“That’s what I thought. Go ahead, you two. Let’s see what you’re made of.”

“Allegra watched Jess, but she also watched Nicole. It seemed that she was not happy about Leroy’s decision. Well, Allegra was going to do her best no matter what. She did, she caught on really fast, and the lead role became hers. No one could take it from her now unless she couldn’t dance. She would make sure that wasn’t a possibility. It would be her first show since she was in school, and if her mom were here, she would be so proud of her Allegra. Allegra beamed.

“Alright, now everyone from the top, straight through, 5,6,7 and.”

So far, everything was going as planned. They had lead dancers; the rest of the dancers were almost ready. With a little work, they would be. Leroy thought of all the things that need to be completed as he watched. He mainly kept an eye on Allegra to make sure she was up to the part, and indeed she was.

“Really good class and I mean it. Let’s break for a few until Ms. Grant comes back. Everyone except Allegra and Jesse. I want to see that combination one more time, from the leap.”

The pair started dancing, they were good, but they had to work on that leap. It needed to be more synchronized. Otherwise, it was almost perfect. Leroy wasn’t the only one to realize it. So did Nicole, she knew now she had some fierce competition. Apparently, not only in dancing.

Even though Jesse wasn’t her boyfriend anymore, they were working on getting back together. This girl, Allegra, would spoil everything.

“Well Leroy, looks like you found the lead dancers while I was gone.”

“Yes, I hope you approve.”

“Yes, I do.”

“Your niece is terrific.”

“Yes, I was observing her. She is graceful, very light on her feet. I never knew she could dance like that and I’ve known her all my life.”

“She takes after you, of course.”

“Why thank you, Leroy. Okay, that’s it. See you all later. Jesse, Allegra that was very good.”

“Thanks,” they replied at the same time.

“Allegra, I have a cousin in Los Angeles with that same name.”

Allegra sighed, “That’s because I am your cousin. Jesse, I’m surprised you didn’t recognize me. Especially after all the time, you spent taking all those pictures with my camera.”

“Allegra, I haven’t seen you in almost a decade.” Jesse gives her a big hug swinging her in a quick circle. “So good to see you. My you’ve, well grown, I guess in all the right places.”

Allegra rolled her eyes. “Yep, that sounds like something J.T. Would say. So, how’s the family.”

“Good, last time we wrote. I can’t believe it, Allegra Antonia Maria Rivera. The little cousin I called Manchichi, well not so little now. How about we practice after school and then go for pizza? I can introduce you to the crew.”

“Sounds good, it’s a date.”

“Don’t say date; it doesn’t sound good. Cousin, remember.”

“I didn’t mean it like that. Plus no one knows that.”

“They will after today. See you later, Manchichi.”

“Sure, just don’t call me that.”

“Okay, see ya.” As Jesse turned away from Allegra, Nicole walked over to him.

“Jesse, want to get pizza after school?”

“Sorry, Nicky already got plans.”

“Sure, see you later.” She walked back over to her friends. They looked at her expectantly. “I told you guys that she was going to cause trouble between Jesse and I. He already has a date with her.”

“Do you know that for sure, Nicky?”

“I saw them talking, and then he tells me he has plans. Two and Two guys come on. We can all tell they knew each other, and now she wants him back, and Jesse is willing to take her back.”

“Nicky, you’re jumping to conclusions. They could be old friends.”

“Dusty, no girl is just old friends with Jesse, and you know it.”

“She’s got a point, Dusty.”

“Maybe. Do you really want to find out, Nicole?”


“Okay, say we ask Allegra to join us for pizza after school and see what she says.”

“Sounds good.”

“Hey, Allegra, what’s up?”

“Nothing really.”

“Would you like to join us for pizza after school?”

“Thanks, Nicky, but I’ve got plans.”

Dusty and Nicky look at each other.

“A date already and you just got here, my. So whose the lucky guy?”

“Jesse, but..”

“Oh really, well I used to go with Jesse, and we’re working things out.”
“Really? He said nothing to me about seeing someone.”

“Listen, Ms. Fancy Pants; I don’t want anyone to mess things up between Jesse and me, so just step off.”

“My aren’t we insecure. Listen if Jesse wants to be with you he’ll tell me. But at this point, I think he prefers my company.”

That made Nicole steam. Allegra excused herself and headed for the showers.

After school, Allegra went to the dance room and began to warm up. She had barely warmed up when Jesse walked in.

“Allegra, what did you say to Nicole?”

“My goodness, I don’t even get a hi cuz.”

“Hi cuz, what did you say to Nicole?”

“Well, I kinda told her that we were competing for you, but not directly. When she first asked if I wanted to join them after school, I told them no I had plans. When I tried to say that you were my cousin, she tells me to step off. That made me angry, so I kinda told her we were going out.”

“Thanks a lot, Manchichi.”

“I’m sorry, but she made me angry, and I kind of overdid it. Really sorry, but I think she’s a snob.”

“She’s not a snob, just insecure about our relationship. We’ve been trying to put it back together.”

“Yeah well, I’m sorry. Say we forget practice and go for pizza. After you can take me home. I’ll help you make up with her tomorrow.”

“We should practice but okay. Let’s go.”

At the Club….

“Hey, Jesse, what’s up?”

“Donnely, I want you to meet my cousin, Allegra.”

“Hi, uh.”

“It’s Chris, nice to meet you, Allegra.”

“Same here.”

“Hey, Chris wanna join us for pizza?”

“Thanks, but I go on next.”

“Check you later, man.”


“So, Manchichi, how’s the family back in L.A.?”

“They’re okay.”

“Is your stepfather still weird?”

“Let’s not talk about him, okay?”

“Sure. What do you want on your pizza?”

“How about sausage?”

“Sounds tasty.”

I hope you’ve enjoyed these two chapters from my fan fiction.

Until next week…

Peace & Love..


Countdown to War 9

Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope you’ve had a great week so far. Mine has been okay. My work days have really tired me out.

We’re close now. A couple more weeks and War will be out for us to see. I’m truly looking forward to it.

This week I’ve watch 3 Tiger Shroff movies. I watched Students of the Year 2 (SY2), Baaghi and Baaghi 2. I wanted to make sure I’ve covered his movies before October 2. There of course are only a few. Hrithik has been in the business much longer than Tiger.

I wasn’t able to see this movie in the theatre but I was able to stream it on Amazon Prime. I wasn’t sure what to expect from this film. I had seen the first one, but I wasn’t really a fan. The only reason I wanted to see this one is because of Tiger. I love watching him fight and dance. I wanted to see how the directors utilized his talent.

I must say that Tiger is still working on his acting, and I hope he continues to do so. The looks that his gives while more expressive are not distinct in this movie. However, I must say that his voice inflections have improved over the years with each film.

That being said, I didn’t like SY2 very much. The story line was poor and to some degree unbelievable. To think that Tiger’s movie rival remotely thought that he was something special and Tiger was so clueless. At his age in the film he should have had more of an idea that he was being played. I understand not being exposed but to think everyone is your friend. Seriously? And even after being mistreated, he took the guy at face value. How stupid can you be? I know it’s just a movie, but the writers should have done better.

Please explain to me, why when Bollywood does these dance movies, the girl they chose and the crew that stars opposite Tiger are so off. I see the background dancers that perform with Tiger, can they not find any to star opposite him that are at least close to his ability. It looks so tired when they dance and cannot compete on his level or even close to it.

I must say that at least the young lady opposite him this movie was better than the last dance movie.

Other than seeing Tiger dance and watching the fight scenes at the end, I didn’t like the movie. Also, the ladies roles were so weak. Can they not find a leading lady to star opposite him that fits, shows chemistry?

Now for Baaghi….

Loved this movie! Baaghi was action packed, hot love story! A love that is not returned and turns to a kidnapping. A love that is sabotaged. Baaghi was an awesome movie. Watching the fight scenes was exciting. Wanting the two love birds to meet again to see how their story develops.

The choreography in this movie is awesome. Not always believable, but you have to have a bit of movie magic. Did you know that Guruswamy is actually Grandmaster Shifuji Shaurya Bharadwaj? He doesn’t usually act in the films he works on but they convinced him. I believe it became a great role.

OMG Baaghi 2! We’re on fire here. The fight scene at the police station is fabulous and the movie winds you through a desperate woman’s desire to find her child. She is so desperate that she calls her first love to help her. But it’s not easy to find a child no one wants to be found.

This Baaghi is different from the first. I thought it would be a continuation, but it is a whole different story all together. While there aren’t many dance scenes, only one with Tiger, the fight scenes are awesome. The directors, producers and choreographers have out done themselves. It only gets hotter.

The problem is that I wasn’t able to stream the movie at all. I was able to stream the first one but not two. Luckily, I own both videos. After the fight scenes in the first one, I had to own the second for sure. And we can definitely see the differences in Tigers expressions and voice inflictions. Experience is definitely key.

Well, I would definitely recommend that you see both Baaghi and Baaghi2. I would rate both movies 🤩🤩🤩🤩 and 1/2 starry eyes emoji. I would have said five for both, but there were a few fight scenes that didn’t run as smoothly as they should. Either way, both are s must see.

Two more weeks….

Check back next Wednesday for the last look at Tiger Shroff movies.

Peace & Love

Oh yeah. My fan fiction does continue Sunday.


Countdown to War: 8

Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope you’re having a great week! I’ve begun this post days before you’ll even see it because I didn’t want to wait til the last minute to watch these two movies.

I’m sitting here about to watch my all-time favorite Bollywood film ‘Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham’ (KKKG). While Devdas is my favorite because of the classic Hindi style dancing and clothing, KKKG is my all-time favorite for so much more. I love the storyline, how much fun it is and of course, it stars my four favorite Bollywood Actors, King Khan, Hrithik Roshan, Amitabh, and Kajol. What a fabulous cast? I have to change it to favorite five because Rani Mukerjee is also in the first part of this movie. Except for Amitabh, the actors hadn’t been established back then. Even Shah Rukh Khan wasn’t as big a star then as he is today. Together these actors created a timeless piece.

I’ve watched this movie several times, and I love it every time. The actors have created a believable world of love and family on screen. Hrithik, of course, is a wonderful actor in this. It isn’t an action film, but this drama is the most touching.

It starts with who you eventually learn is the younger brother, Rohan, played by Hrithik. His last cricket game of the season before going home. As he is about to hit the ball, he thinks of the advice his brother gave him about succeeding — touching moment. His first stop is to see his grandmothers who he hears speaking about his older brother, Rahul, played by Shah Rukh Khan. The topic of discussion is why he hasn’t been home. The grandmothers tell the tale of what happened to Rahul. Once Rohan finds out why his brother left, he takes it upon himself to find his brother and bring him and his family back home. Rohan’s journey begins. Not an easy feat.

This dramatic tale is so beautiful, and moving it might influence you to make up with your family. I said, maybe.

There are several movies between his first movie and this one, and you could see the changes and improvements

You can see it on Amazon Prime. I would recommend it. I loved it so much I would give it 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 out of 5 starry-eyed emojis. I cried like a baby through some of the beginning and the last thirty minutes of the movie.

Kaho Naa Pyaar Hai (KNPH) was Hrithik’s first major movie. He had small parts in several other movies before this one. Who would have known after this cute film that he would go on to be a big star?

In KNPH Hrithik plays Rohit, a car salesman who dreams of becoming a great performer. During his journey, he falls in love; unfortunately, this love could cost his life.

No Kaho Naa Pyaar Hai does have a happy ending, you’ll have to watch the whole movie.

I don’t want to ruin it for you, but there are several unanswered questions that this movie raises. They play with the double ganger theory, and I guess it works. Either way, whether he plays Rohit or Raj, he’s pretty good. And did I forget to mention there is a fight scene? Pretty good for his first major movie.

So which direction are you leaning? I, myself and leaning towards Hrithik. I’ll make a decision or hope to after watching Tiger’s movies. Of course, as I said, Tiger doesn’t have the years of experience or the films to match Hrithik, but maybe he has something else.

Kaho Naa Pyaar Hai was cute. I would give it 🤩🤩🤩 , and 1/2 starry-eyed emojis.

It’s not available on the regular streaming apps I had to resort to YouTube. The quality was pretty good regardless, and there is even a subtitle version.

Well, that was my last Hrithik Roshan movie. Next week I’ll review Student of the Year 2, Baaghi 2, and Munna Michael.

Only a few weeks to go before the movie releases.

Until next week…..

Peace and Love


Fan Fiction Fame: Chapter 2

Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope everyone has had a great week and weekend. This was my first week back to school. So far so good. I hope it stays that way.

I know you’re probably wondering when I get to the Fame part of my fan fiction. It’s coming. I built a story within a story. There’s only one more chapter before Allegra heads to NYC.

Chapter 2

It was now the third month of their little arrangement. Today Pablo picked her up early because Allegra had an appointment at the doctor.

“Well, Ms. Rivera, I have the results of your test.”


“It was positive.”

“That’s not possible. Are you sure? There must be some mistake.”

“There isn’t. You’re almost three months pregnant.”

“Oh, Pablo will not like this at all. I still need to finish school. Dios, ayudarme, por favor.

“Shall I call in Mr. Rosas.?” Allegra nodded.

He showed Pablo into the examining room. “I will leave you two alone.”

“What are the test results, Alle?”

“Pablo,” Allegra paused. “I’m almost three months pregnant.”

“No, not possible. How did this happen? Is it mine? Who else have you been seeing? Is it your father’s?”

“Pablo!” How could he think that? He had been with her every night since they started having sex. “Are you serious right now?”

He shook his head and moved towards her. “Alle, I’m sorry. I’m truly sorry. Come on, let’s go home, mine. I’ll take care of both of you. I love you.”

“I love you too. Why are we going to your house?”

“I should have introduced you to my parents already.”

“I wanna go home. I need to talk to my mom.”

“As soon as you meet my parents.”

“Are you going to tell them? I’ll start showing in a couple of months.”

“I don’t know.”

“Are you mad at me? I didn’t make the baby by myself.”

“No, Alle. I’m just in shock. I don’t know what to do. But I won’t let your dad hurt you again. We won’t lose the baby, and you will finish school and go to college. You will dance. I promise you.”

“Oh Pablo, what would I do without you? I don’t want to find out.”
They left the doctor’s office and headed for Pablo’s home.

“Mom, I’m home,” Pablo called as he walked through the hallway.

“Hi, Pablo.”

Hi mom,” he hugs and kisses her. “Mom, this is Allegra.”

“Hi, Allegra. I’ve heard a lot about you.”

“Hello, Senora Rosas, same here.”

“Please come in, have a seat. Pablo always talks about you.” She turns to call her husband. “Sweetheart, come here. Come meet Allegra.”

“Hi, Allegra, he says as he enters the room.”

“Hi, Senor Rosas.”

“Well, you certainly are much prettier than we heard.”

“Thank you, senor,” Allegra replies, blushing.

“I just wanted you to meet her. I have to take her home now. You can reach me at her house.”

“Not tonight, son. There’s an emergency at the hotel. I was waiting for you to come home.”

“Okay, I’ll meet you at the hotel. Let’s go Allegra.” Once they were seated in the car, Pablo asked, “Will you be okay tonight? Maybe you should come with me.”

“I should be fine. I don’t think you should take me to work with you.”

“Okay, I will pick you up in the morning. Make sure you pack what you need — anything else we’ll buy.

The car ride was quiet. Each lost in their thoughts. When they reached the Sutton home, Pablo walked Allegra to the door.

“See you in the morning.” He kissed Allegra goodnight and left once he saw that she was safely inside.

It was late, and all the house lights were off. Allegra took off her shoes after locking the door and quietly walked to her room. She undressed and put on a nightshirt before packing what she would need. She fell asleep dreaming of the life waiting for her. One day she would become Allegra Antonia Maria Rivera Rosa, and she and Pablo would have at least two more children after this one. Allegra placed her hand on her stomach.

When she felt the covers pull-down, she shivered and turned to grope for the covers to get warm. Then she felt something cold on her skin. It moved up to her throat, and a hand went over her mouth. Allegra’s eyes flew open to see her dad already on top of her. He had parted her legs and was getting ready to enter her. She tried to struggle but felt the pressure at her throat, and something wet ran down the side of her neck. She knew she couldn’t fight back and stopped struggling. He was so rough with her bruising her skin again. She didn’t know what to do to get rid of him. Now he was inside of her; again. Her mind raced as she tried to think of surviving this attack. She needed to block out what he was doing to her. She knew getting out of this house was her only way to survive. She would never be safe in her family home. She cried silently. How would she see Pablo tomorrow? How would she face him?

Mark punched and slapped Allegra. He made slash marks across her skin with the knife. “You broke your promise to me.”

The tears ran faster. She had been unfaithful; betrayed Pablo. What would she do?

When Mark was finished, he pulled up his pants as he headed to her door. As he opened it and stood in the threshold, he turned to her, “you’ll always be dad’s little whore.” With that, he left.

Allegra’s body shook with fear as the tears rolled faster down her cheeks. She curled herself into a ball. What would she do? What should she do? She couldn’t stay here; he would never leave her alone now. She would be vulnerable to his every whim. What about her baby? Mark hadn’t known, but he beat and punched her.

As she lay in the remnants of her betrayal, she felt her stomach cramping and her legs were wet. Allegra panicked, she needed to get to the hospital, and she must call Pablo. She knew the number to the hotel. She dialed and waited for Pablo to come to the phone.

“Alle, are you okay?”

“Pablo, can you meet me at the emergency room?”

“Alle, what’s wrong?”

“I I…can you meet me? And please call my doctor.”


“Mama,” Allegra screamed. “Mama.”

“Si Bambina, que paso?” Her mom came running after hearing her scream.

“Mama, please get me to the hospital.” Her mom nodded.

“Senor Rosas.”

“Yes, Dr. Martinez.”

“Is anyone from Allegra’s family here? We need to operate. Either we stop the bleeding, or we lose her and the baby.”

“Yes, her mom Mrs. Sutton is here.” He turned to get her. She had been staring into space since she sat down — worried lines etched in her face.

“Mrs.Sutton, you need to sign the papers for them to operate. Dr. Martinez says this is the only way to save Alle.”

“Anything to save my baby.”

Several hours later

“Senor Rosas, Mrs. Sutton.”

“Doctor, how is she?”

“She’ll be fine. The surgery was a success. We managed to stop the bleeding. We’re lucky the damage wasn’t worse. However, there was no way to save the baby. I’m truly sorry.”

“As long as she’s okay. May we see her?”

“Yes, but she needs her rest.”

“Mrs. Sutton, we can go see Alle.”

Mrs. Sutton got up from her chair and followed Pablo. When they entered the recovery room, they just watched her. Her neck bandaged, her wrists purple, and her left eye a purplish black. Tears began to run down Mrs. Sutton’s face as she looked at her daughter. She knew that Allegra could no longer live with her. But where would she go, could her boyfriend even care for her? Did he want to?

Allegra opened her eyes. “Mama, Pablo.” Her voice was faint.

“Oh, Allegra I’m glad to see you open your eyes.”

“Alle how do you feel?”

“How should I feel? Weak and tired, I guess. Pablo, before you leave, I need you to know that I tried to stop him. I did, but he had a knife, and he cut and beat me. I’m sorry to involve you in all of this. I won’t be mad at you if you want to leave.”

“Alle, it’s not your fault. Just rest, okay. You’ll be out soon. I’m taking your things to my place. Mom brought your bag with her. I should have never let you go back home alone. You won’t have to worry about him anymore.” Pablo bent over and kissed her pale lips. “Get some rest. I’ll come by later. I love you.”

“I love you.”

“It’s good to see the love between you. Will you be okay, Bambina?”

“Yes, mama.”

“I will come back tomorrow. I’ll pack some more of your things.”

“Okay,” Alle replied.

Mrs. Sutton bent over and kissed Allegra’s forehead and smoothed her hair before she walked out of the room. Pablo was standing right outside.

“Mrs. Sutton, can I give you a ride home?”

“Thank you, but I’m not leaving. I just wanted Allegra to close her eyes and rest. If I stay in the room, she’ll try to be chipper and carry on a conversation to stop me from worrying.

“Okay,” Pablo paused. He was just about to leave. “Who’s the man who just entered Allegra’s room.”

“I didn’t see anyone. Then they heard a scream come from Allegra’s room. Pablo ran in, followed by Mrs. Sutton.

“Allegra, what’s ….” Pablo stopped mid-sentence seeing a man on top of Allegra who he could only assume to be Mr. Sutton. He was raising Allegra’s gown and had his hand over her mouth. Without thinking, Pablo pulled him off of him, throwing him to the ground and punching him over and over again. When he got no resistance, he stopped.
“Allegra are you okay?”

“Yes, now. Pablo.” Tears began to roll down her cheeks. “I’ll never be safe.”

Pablo sat on the bed and held her in his arms as her body shook with sobs. “You’re going to have to speak with the police Allegra. Have him arrested.”

Allegra didn’t reply. She was silent now wrapped in his arms. Mrs. Sutton was sitting close to the bed in a chair her face in her hands. She had watched her daughter with Pablo for a while. She didn’t know what to do. She was happy that Allegra had Pablo, but the two of them wouldn’t be safe with Mark running around free.

Pablo could hear the sobs coming from her. What the hell was he going to do? This was too much for him to handle by himself.

They were all there sitting in the silence when Mark regained consciousness. Allegra was asleep wrapped in Pablo’s arms. He was holding one of her hands and playing in her hair.

Mrs. Sutton hadn’t realized that her husband was awake until he stepped in front of her. “Let’s go, Mark.”

He didn’t reply but followed his wife out of the door. He knew he was losing his daughter, and he would have to do something about it.


Countdown to War 7

Peace and Love to you all!

Hope you’ve been having a great week. I’m still trying to finish watching the movies for this week’s countdown. As I write, I’m cracking up watching Abhishek Bachchan dance to Touch me. He was trying to be cool but so wasn’t.

Anyway, we’re here for the countdown to the 2019 Yash Raj film War starring Hrithik Roshan and Tiger Shroff. Have you chosen your side yet? I haven’t. I will by the end of our countdown. I’ll definitely let you know.

The movies I watched this week were Mujhse Dosti Karoge and Dhoom2. I was suppose to watch them this weekend but was sidetracked by my obsession with Chinese dramas. I did get to finish watching them. It was fun seeing them all over again.

Mujhse Dosti Karoge is a fun loving movie. A family and their son leave India and their friends for opportunity in London. Raj says goodbye at the train station and they plan to write. But the girl Raj writes for the next decade isn’t who he thinks. When he finds who she really is, it is impossible to prevent the misunderstanding from getting even more mixed up. But then Pooja (Rani Mukerjee) decides she can do without love if it means not hurting her friend, Tina (Kareena Kapoor). Learning this leaves Raj (Hrithik Roshan) is quite a dilema. Enough of one that he gives her an ultimatum that eventually back fires. Watch this love story unravel before your eyes.

I would recommend it giving it 🤩🤩🤩 and 1/2 starry eyes emojis out of five.

Dhoom2 happens to be one of my favorite Bollywood movies. It’s action packed and the stunts are awesome. Not to mention, seeing the different faces that he uses to commit the crimes is amazing. Watching it again was just as much fun as the first time.

Dhoom2 is an exciting race against the best thief in the world Aryan played by, of course by Hrithik Roshan. Even the opening is exciting. Leaving you wondering if the producers have left some of the action scenes for the rest of the movie and indeed they have. It’s a taste of what’s to come. I think that this movie really made him into an action star. Not that he hadn’t done action before, but Dhoom2 takes the action up a notch. His action movies only get better and more complicated after Dhoom2.

I love the opening dance sequence ‘Dhoom Machale’. It’s fun and the sexy Hrithik Roshan is fab here. My next favorite song is Dil Laga Na. I feel like Aishwarya Rai was a good choice to play opposite him. She was also a good match dance wise. Once thing Tiger’s movies don’t always accomplish.

With that said, there were some scenes that are unbelievable. I won’t tell you what they are, but let me know what you think.

I would give this movie 🤩🤩🤩🤩 out of five starry eyes emojis. A must see.

Well, we’ve reach near the end of my review of Hrithik Roshan movies. Next week his very first feature film and my favorite of all time after Devdas, Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham. Then I take a look at Tiger’s movies.

Have I convinced you to choose Hrithik’s side?

Make sure to check back next Wednesday.

Peace & Love


Fame Fan Fiction

Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope you are well this week and I wish you a fabulous week as we leave one behind and head into another.

Today I bring to you my fan fiction short story for FAME that I wrote in Junior high school. It was one of my absolute favorite TV shows. As I read it to type for you and make corrections I had to laugh. I was in no way the author I am today. It was also before I had experienced life. It’s evident. Something that I noticed also that I still practice today, I use a lot of dialogue to move the story forward. It seems that I always have.

I bring to you chapter 1 of ‘Someone to Lean On’ and hope you enjoy. I tried to improve the story without messing with its innocents. Not an easy task.

Chapter 1

Allegra stood in the hallway threshold between the bedrooms and the living room watching her mom. She twisted and pulled at her disheveled curls. She sighs. ”Mama we’ve got to talk.”

“Oh, what about Allegra.” Her mom, Essie, motioned for her to sit beside her on the couch.

Allegra hesitated, strolling toward her mother. “Pablo and Daddy. Pablo, first.”

“Well, I’m listening.”

Allegra took a deep breath, sat down, and turned towards her mother. “I’m now sixteen, and well, I’ve been studying with Pablo for almost six months. We’ve become more than good friends. Mama, I want to go out with him. He’s asked me.”

“Really?” Essie looked at Allegra, who nodded. “So go out, have fun. But baby, what does that have to do with your father?”

“Mama, for the past two years, I’ve been afraid to tell you,” she replies, sounding anxious

“Tell me what child? Speak up.”

“Mama, at least once every week, sometimes more; father comes into my room and he…he touches me. Then he, he….” Allegra begins to cry.

Essie doesn’t know quite how to take this news. She’s saddened and angry all at once. She embraces Allegra. “Mi pobre hijita. Porque no me dijieste?” Tears welled up in Essie’s eyes.

“Father said you would disown me. That you would hate me.”

“No, querida. I will talk to your father. Did Pablo ask to see you tonight?”


“Y, dije.”

“Respondi nada.”

“Oh, no bien. Ve a llamarlo.”

“Si Mama, Garcias.”

“De nada, Allegra.”

Allegra wiped the tears from her eyes as she walked into the kitchen to call him. “Hola, puedo hablar con Pablo, por favor.”

“Si, hola Allegra. Cual es respuesta.”

“Si, que hora.”

“En una hora, ya es tarde.”

“Esta bien, luego.”

“Te quiero.”

“Ditto.” Allegra sat on her bed for a moment. She was so happy she wanted to live in the moment. She was nervous; it felt like her gut had ladybugs crawling all around. After a minute or two, she called her mom. “He’s picking me up in an hour.”


“Yes, very.”

“I’m glad. Pero, dije mi hijita, you and Pablo son mas que amigos, no?”

“I can’t lie to you, yes, mama. We’ve do more than just study.”

“Then why haven’t you gone out before?”

“I, I, well.” Allegra walked into the hallway and leaned on the end of the wall. “Father thought we just studied. I didn’t want him to. Well, he made me promise that I wouldn’t date Pablo. He said if I did, he would force me to have…sex with him again. I didn’t want that, so I kept turning down Pablo’s offers. Mom, I felt so dirty after he…he. Oh, God, mom.”

“It’s okay. Mark won’t hurt you anymore. Now get ready. We’ll talk later.”

“Si, mama.”

Some time later…

“Allegra, your date is here.”

“Si, mama, coming…..Pablo, hi.”

“Hola Alle, you look beautiful.”

“Thank you. Vamanos”

“Vuelve al las doce.”

“I’ll have her back safe and sound.”

“Great. Have fun.”

“Donde quieres ir, Pablo?”

“Yo no se, ah movies.”

“Sure, let’s go.”

Pablo Rosado Rosas was a hell of a catch; he had always been the most desired boy at Los Angeles High School. He had been one of the richest boys there. Most of the girls also thought that he was the most handsome. He had graduated from high school and worked with his father running the Paradise Hotel.

Allegra didn’t think Pablo was like most guys. To her, he was a sweetheart and considerate, understanding gentleman.

“The movie was great.”

“Yeah, but I can’t believe we saw the whole thing.”

“Pablo, are you disappointed?”

“No, we’re home early. We’ve got plenty of time.” He began nibbling on her ear, then her neck.”

“Pablo!” Allegra shouted. When he looked at her, she calmed down and said quietly, “we need to talk.”

“About what? We’re going great.”

“I know, but after what I tell you you won’t think it’s so great.”

“Alle, what wrong? Why are your eyes full of tears? Alle, what’s wrong?”

“Pablo, I asked you last month what should my friend do if her father was or had sexually abused her. You said to tell her mom.”

“Yeah, what about her?”

“I told my mama.” As she watched Pablo for a reaction, Allegra began to cry. She saw his look of love and happiness fade. She wasn’t sure what the look on his face meant. He had never looked at her that way.

“Oh. God help us. You were talking about you?”

“Yes. Do you still love me?”

“Yes, I love you, Alle.” Pablo reached over and embraced Allegra.

“Please don’t leave me.”

“I won’t, baby. I’ll be there for you.” For a while, there was silence between the two of them as Allegra rested her head on Pablo’s chest.

“Alle, all those times we studied you never wore the shorts that hung over the bed. Was it because you didn’t want me to know?”

“Yes, I was afraid you would see the bruises on my thighs.”

“I would never leave you. Not now. Can I see the bruises?” Allegra raised her skirt.

“Some have faded. Others, well, they’ve never gone away.”

“Any other bruises?”

“No, most of the bruises have healed. I’m glad Mark, hasn’t bothered me in over a month. Mama’s been in a good mood if you know what I mean.”

“Yeah, I’m glad you told me. I haven’t met your father. Is he one of us?”

“He’s not my real father, and partly. He’s mixed, his father was white, and his mother is Mexican. I met them once; grandfather is strange. He kept saying, ‘my Allegra, you’ve blossomed. Have you noticed Mark?’ That was so weird, over and over. That’s when dad changed. After we returned from Mexico.”

“That’s where you met your cousin Jesse.”

“Yes, that’s my real dad’s sister’s son. At first, I thought Jesse was just another guy, but Aunt Maria explained. He’s in New York now.”

“Yeah, you told me. Allegra, listen, at night I will come to stay with you. Make sure you’re okay. Do you mind?”

“No, I would feel safer with you.”

“Starting tonight, I’ll drop you off, then about an hour after I’ll come in your room window.”

“Okay, let’s not talk any more,” she replied as she kissed him.

“I see you’re feeling better.”



“Mark, I want to talk to you.”

“Me too. Where the hell is Allegra?”


“With who? Not that rich kid, I hope. She promised me.”

“Well, I told her to go. She told me, Mark. What you did to her, she told me.”

“Told you what? That she seduced me. You’re daughter’s a slut.”

“For almost two years, Mark? My God, your daughter.”

“She’s not mine. I married you when the kid was five. You were a widow, so I raised her.”

“You raised her? You were never home, hijo de grande puta. You perverse old bastard.” Essie watched him closely. Her mind was racing with questions but her words were short. “She looked to you like a father, and what have you done to her? She’s so ashamed. For something that’s not her fault.”

“Yes, it is. She’s a slut just like her mama. Don’t forget how I found you.”

“Get out of my father’s house. You’re a disgrace. Get out.” Essie never yelled, but now she couldn’t control herself.

“Oh shut up and calm down. I work to support this family. You don’t do shit. I pay the bills here. So calm down and shut up.”

“I will not. How, dear you.”

“I said, shut up.” Mark struck her.

He had never hit her before. Pushed, grabbed and twisted her arm, but never struck. When he went into the bedroom and slammed the door, she was grateful.


“Pablo, que hora es?”

“Oh, Allegra, not now. I, oh.”

“Que hora es?”

Pablo looked at his watch. “Quarter to twelve,” he sighed.

“I enjoy being with you but, I wish it didn’t happen in the back seat of your convertible.”

“True. Sorry about that, bad taste isn’t it? Next time my house. I have a water bed.”

“Sounds interesting.”

“Yeah, get dressed.”

“Pablo, I wish you were my first.”

“I am.”


“Abuse doesn’t count. You didn’t want your so-called father, but you wanted me.”

“Oh, you’re wonderful,” she replied, hugging him.

“I know.” He looked at her and smiled. “Now, get dressed.”

“Pablo, where are my panties.”

“Here, oops.”

“What is it?” Allegra asked as she took the panty from him. “Pablo!”

“Sorry about the strap.”

“I can’t wear this.”

“Why not, it will cover part of you.”

“It’ll fall off.”

“That’s what you get for wearing bikini underwear.”

“I don’t have anymore. Every time we make out, you pop the strap.”

“Sorry, really sorry.”

“Fine, I hope my dress doesn’t blow up. Let’s go.”

“I love you, Allegra,” said Pablo as he walked Allegra to her door.

“I love you too, babe. See you in an hour.”

“Yeah. Leave the window open in case you fall asleep.”

“Okay, goodnight.” They kissed each other, and Pablo returned to the car.”

“Mama, I’m home. Mama.”

“I’m in the kitchen.”

“Hi mama, I had a great time.”

“Muy bien, bambina.”

“Well, I’m going in. Buenos Noches.” She reached over and kissed her mother’s cheek. Her mom hadn’t turned to face her.

“Mama, why are you crying?” Her mom finally turned toward her.

“Mama, what happened? Why did father hit you? Did you talk to him about me? He knows I went out with Pablo.” The questions just kept coming. She hadn’t even given her mother a chance to answer. “Maybe I shouldn’t see him anymore.”

“No, Alle, you keep seeing him, if you want to. He’s a nice boy. He will treat you well and your children.”

“But mama.”

“No, you will see him. Now off to bed.”

“Buenos noches y gracias.” Allegra hugged her mom.

She entered her bedroom and undressed. Then she unlocked the window and climbed into bed. She turned on the radio; Spring Love was playing.

She loved that song. It made her think of how she and Pablo first started to like each other.

A few minutes later, the window opened, and Pablo’s head appeared, then the rest of him. He wore a cut off and baggy pants.

“You’re half an hour early.”

“I couldn’t wait.”Pablo took off his pants and shirt and laid them over the footboard before climbing into the bed. He felt her warm body pressed against him. “You’re not wearing anything.”

“I know I hope you don’t mind.”

“No, easier to get to you.” He began kissing her neck, caressing her thighs and breast. It was as though he couldn’t get enough of her.

“I always feel so safe when you’re around. I love you, Pablo.”

“I love you too. Don’t say another word. Love me.”

For the next two months, the two went out after school. Pablo helped her with her homework before bringing her home. After work, he would stay with her through the night. Allegra didn’t think her father knew about it, but he did.

Stay tuned to find out what happens. And let me know what you’re think.

Peace & Love.


Countdown to War 6

Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope you week is going well. Things here are going well and school begins next week. Back into the swing of things. I have mixed feelings. This is the time of year where I look forward to going back and meeting my new students. Of course, who wants to go back? By the time I get to December I think I was crazy for wanting to go back.

This is my number six blog countdown to the movie War starring Hrithik Roshan and Tiger Shroff. We’re getting closer to the movie release. So close they’ve released another trailer. So exciting. I hope they don’t release all the good parts before the movie comes out. So many times that happens and when you finally get to watch the movie there are not more surprises.

This week I watch three more Hrithik Roshan movies, Guzaarish, Agneepath and Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara. They are not my favorite movies but watching them again was entertaining all the same.

Let’s start Agneepath. Agneepath meaning ‘path of fire’, is a movie about karma. No matter who you are, you must pay for your transgression and sometime karma takes it from more than just you. As the movie begins its a happy time, and you know l life is about to be disrupted. When boys are misguided, I already see the set up for the man who the village loves taking the blame.  His son can do nothing, not even of age. What will his family do? I’m starting to notice that Hrithik and King Khan have a lot of movies in common. Although not similar totally Raees has a similar theme. A boy taking his life in his own hands because he has not choice and paying for it afterwards.

Hrithik plays a powerful part. Sanjay Dutt was excellent in his part of the villian. Still not one of my favorites, however the storyline is fierce. I would give it 🤩🤩🤩🤩 out of 5 stary eyes emojis.

Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara is a very human tale. Three best friends bonding over a bachelor trip. It’s a light and fun that unfolds from the marriage proposal. It reminds us who’s important and makes us want to reach out to them again. After watching this movie I want to have a girls trip through Europe. Although, I will never run with the bulls or jump out of an airplane to remember that life is precious. That I am fully aware of.

I would give this movie 🤩🤩🤩 and 1/2 stary eyes emojis. This is perfect for an evening at home when you want to watch something but you’re not totally committed.

Last but the most passionate of all Guzaarish. This movie tackles the compelling issue of euthanasia that was being addressed in India. The film was made in 2010 and it wasn’t legal in India until 2017 when the India Supreme Court finally recognized the living wills of terminally ill patients; the right to die with dignity is a fundamental right.

In Guzaarish, Hrithik Roshan’s acting is outstanding, the dance scene, graceful and beautiful. When it comes to Hrithik as and actor and dancer we expect no less than the best and you see it here.

I fully enjoyed this movie and I would rate it 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 out of 5 starry eyes emojis. If you haven’t seen it, it’s a must see.

All of these movies are available presently on Erosnow.com which can be purchased through the website or Amazon Prime. I had originally watched them on Netflix streaming but they are no longer there.

We are so close to the movie release date and I am running out of time to review Hrithik’s movies. There are still 15 left and I haven’t gotten to Tiger’s movies yet. Over the next two weeks I will review at least four more movies. Next week I will review Mujhse Dosti Karoge! and Dhoom 2 and the following week Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham and his very first movie Kaho Naa..Pyar Hai. I do have room to add one more each week, any suggestions?

Until then, have a great week and weekend.

Peace & Love


Planner Life Update

Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope everyone is well. I’m finally getting back in the swing for school which starts in a few days. Looking forward to it as well as not. LOL

I’m in the middle of a lot and I’m trying to figure out how to transition my blog. I want to thank you all for reading. I appreciate you. I’m wondering if I should keep working on building my blog. I always have a lot to say but I’m splitting my time several ways and I don’t think I’m putting enough into my endeavors. I still dream of finishing my novels but between teaching, blogging and my planning it’s a lot to get done. With all of that, being a mom comes first. All are endeavors of love. As I’ve written this I’ve decided that for now I will keep building.

You’re probably disappointed that there isn’t a story here. The romance blog returns next week. I have a story I want to share before I go back to sharing my first novel with you. My romance blogs will be back next week. For now….Let’s talk planners.

shared in earlier blog post

So much as changed since my last planners post. I’ll include links and images for you to see. So far, I’ve added another planner. It will be my planner for the year 2020. I’ve also added an Etsy shop and a page in IG all about planning.

I’ve been enjoying the planner world or community. I say world because it often seems as though it’s separate from everything else. I’ve created and used stickers that I’ve printed as well as bought from other vendors. I have found that when I stick to what I’ve scheduled for myself, so much gets done. Of course there are times when I ignore the whole ‘to do’ for the day. At times that is so necessary.

I’ve found out that I need more self care and love and that my creative side can be expressed in so many ways. In this planner community I can express all of the things I love to do. That’s why I created the planner shop on Etsy. The shop is farely new, still I hope to create things that people can admire and appreciate. Presently, there are digital pages mostly as well as my favorite pocket folders, and envelopes. I am working on a few other ideas, but there not ready yet.

Below are some on my drawings and items I’ve created. The pocket folders are available in my Etsy shop where you can also see the digitals I’ve designed.

While I’ve been planning for almost two years, I’m still on the journey of exploration to improve myself as well as to see where I fit into the planner world.

Thanks for reading. Make sure to subscribe so that you know when the posts go up. Also follow me on Instagram to see what I’m up to between blog posts. I have two pages, one for me as an author and my planner page.

Next week I will have your romance blog ready. Wednesday’s movie review is our part 6 Countdown to War.

Until the next blog…..Peace & Love.


Countdown to War 5

Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope you all are having a good week or that it gets better. Today we look at the next part of our countdown to the movie War starring Hrithik Roshan and Tiger Shroff.

I am an avid Hrithik Roshan and Tiger Shroff fan. Both or these men star in movies that have awesome stunts and they are some of the greatest dancers of all Bollywood stars. I’m excited to see how writers, directors and producers create this movie. It goes without saying I’m looking forward to seeing what these two sexy men are up to.

The last few weeks I’ve been reviewing Hrithik Roshan movies. I continue; reviewing Hrithik’s Krissh. By the way there will be a Krrish 4.

Now, let me say I do enjoy this sequel. Each building on each on the other as a series should. We start in ‘Koi.. Mil Gaya’ with happy go lucky Rohit who fought to save his special friend. In Krrish, Rohit’s son grows up to save his dad from the villain. By the time we get to Krissh 3 writers have created a full on evil villain who can compete with Krrish one on one but of course being evil resorts to cheating.

Hrithik can act. It’s amazing to see him take on the characteristics each character. I love when he gets so angry he shakes. Looks so real.

Sounds wonderful so far right. But there are many flaws to Krrish. Major flaw that kept standing out to me is when children are in unrealistic situations. How did the child get in the middle of the busy street while his mom was on the sidewalk? Did she just leave him there, what in the world? The circus scene in the second movie, where they are having so much fun flame is knocked over and starts a fire. Everyone runs out. You mean to tell me, that as a parent you forgot that your child was with you and ran out without them. I get that people panic, but really. And not just one parent several. There were four children stuck in the fire. WTF?

What I love about Bollywood films are the dancing and songs. I think it make Bollywood movies unique. My favorite songs and dance for these three are Koi Mil Gaya from Koi Mil Gaya, Di Na Diya from Krrish and of course Raghupati Raghav from Krrish 3.

My favorite line from all three so far ‘Just Imagine’ from Krrish. Love that line.

Lucky for you, if you’d like to see these three movies they are available on YouTube. They were available on Netflix and Amazon but no longer. So, if you have a ErosNow account you can also watch it there to see what I’m going on about.

How do I rate these three movies? If I were just rating Hrithik it would be a 5, but I’m not. This series gets 🤩🤩🤩 out of 5 starry eyed emojis.

On a side note, I always find it interesting that superhero movies show the rights and wrongs of society. It shows how wonderful science can be, but also how scary. It makes me wonder at what point is too far? Does the end always justify the means? At what point have we gone too far? Is it with the destruction we have caused to our planet? Or when we continue to cause it in the name of whatever we feel is right?

Well, that’s it for today. Check back next week for when I review Agneepath, Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara and Guzaarish. The first two are not my favorites at all. Check back and find out why.

I’ll have some other movies for you coming soon. I just haven’t really wanted to see anything out. But, I’m going to check out some this weekend. So stay tuned. And of course new ones are coming.

Peace and Love


Moments: Part 5

Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope you have had a great week and a better weekend. Today I bring you the last part of Moments. I truly hope you have been enjoying the journey of Lily and Dakota. Let me know what you think and if you have any suggestions about what you’d like to read next.

Chapter 5

“Dakota, do you mind if we stay at my house?”

“Sure you want me sleeping in your bed?”

“You don’t deserve to, but I’m exhausted. Early mornings and late nights working on this contract has taken its toll.”

“Please, you do this all the time.”

“No, not like this. Your uncle’s company was a big contract for the company, but my first big contract so I took the lead. I just wanna get a hot bath and hit the bed.”

“We can talk about what we’ll do for the weekend later.”

Lily signed the check and watched as Dakota packed up the laptops. Am I really going to take this man home? I will be unable to keep him at arm’s length. I won’t be able to kiss him and have him touch me and pull away. Lily watched as Dakota packed up the laptop. 

“You ready to go?”

Lily nodded, not trusting her voice at the moment. She was fine discussing business all this week, but she was nervous about being alone in her apartment with him. She didn’t trust herself to make the right decision.

The two met their Uber and drove together downtown to her apartment. The ride was quiet. Lily sat close to him, their legs touching, Dakota’s arm around her waist. She wanted to fall asleep, but his closeness caused havoc with her desires and her emotions.

“Your apartment hasn’t changed much.”

“Why would I change it? I love the way it was decorated. I did change a few things in the bathroom.”

“How about I run your bath?”

“You’re lovely, but I can run my bath.”

“Lily, please. Let me take care of you.”

Lily smiled slightly and nodded. Now he wants to take care of me. Kinda feels like the old Dakota. I’ve missed that. As he ran her bath, Lily grabbed a bottle of wine and two glasses. She hesitantly walked into the bathroom, watch his every move. She placed the glasses and the bottle on the floor by the tub and went to change. She didn’t want her favorite suit on the floor. 

“Lily, it’s perfect. What are you doing?”

Lily walked into the bathroom wearing a short silk robe. Her hair unpinned, and her twists put into a high ponytail. “I just wanted to change. You don’t have to stare.” She watches Dakota. He now stood before her, shirtless.

“It’s been a long time since I have seen you like this. It still stops my heart.”

“You’re so dramatic.” Lily walked closer to him and untied her robe, letting it drop to the floor. His eyes roam possessively over her body. Dakota took a step away from her and extended his hand. Lily takes his hand and steps into the tub. Dakota hands her a full wine glass and kneels beside her.

“To a job well done with my partner at my side.”

Lily smiles at his words, and they clink glasses. ‘My partner at my side,’ he’s laying it on a bit thick. Still, I’m more than flattered. How long should I let him watch me before I fulfill his desire to be close to me?

Lily looked into Dakota’s eyes. She could see the desire pooling there. She could only imagine how uncomfortable he was. She knew he wanted to touch her, be near her, but he hadn’t made a move to satisfy his need.

“Dakota, you can join me if you want.”

“I would like that.” He stood and undressed before stepping into the tub. He was about to ask where she wanted him to sit.

“I want to be close to you, Dakota.”

He nodded and stepped to sit behind her after she slid forward. Lily waited for him to open his arms and pushed her body back and against him. Dakota wrapped both of his arms around her, and Lily rested against his chest.

“I’ve missed this, Dakota. I’ve missed you.”

“Lily, you don’t know how long I’ve waited to hear those words.”

“You would have had to wait if you’d have called.”

“I wanted to be ready to be whatever you needed. I just needed some time. I didn’t want to tell you to wait for me or move on.”

“So you selfishly left me in limbo and heartbreak.”

“I am truly sorry.”

Lily was silent for a moment, enjoying how it felt to be in his arms again. Then she sat up and turned her body to face him. She moved away from him and folded her legs to rest her head on her knees. 

“Are you back now? Are we going to be together or am I just a stop for you? Are you going to leave me and not call or contact me for six months to a year again?”

Dakota looked into her eyes. “Lily, I want you in every way possible. I want us to be a couple again. I want a life with you.”

She didn’t respond at first. She watched him. “You’ve never lied to me Dakota so I will take you at your word. But if you ever disappear on me again, I won’t take you back.”

Dakota smiled. “I won’t disappear on you. You’ll know my every step.”

There was an emotional silence then. Lily looked at him, sitting in front of her, knowing in her very soul that he meant what he said at that moment. She sighed. 

“Come on, let’s shower and get some sleep.”

Lily smiled, “as long as you promise to hold me. I’ve missed your touch, Dakota.”

“Of course. I’ve missed touching you.”

Lily opens her eyes; her head still resting on Dakota’s chest. She was tucked into his side, his arm around her waist. Lily was trying to pull away gently.

“Last night was real. Please don’t second guess us,” he murmured, his eyes still closed. He moves over to hold her, run his arms over her hip and behind as he watches her reaction to his touch. They kiss and fondle each other but don’t have intercourse yet

She offers to make him breakfast

‘If I deserve breakfast, why won’t you let me make love to you?”

The question throws Lily, and she stares at him. She hasn’t left the bed yet and sits on the edge.

“I’m hungry.”

‘Are you really? I thought you were avoiding being close to me. He reaches over to touch the small of her back. “Come to me, mi Amor.”

He turns to face her and pulls her into him. Their eyes lock. “I love you, lily. I just needed time. I’ve missed you.” Lily doesn’t react. So he says, “sorry I didn’t call. I want you, can I have you?”

 Lily brings her body closer to his. “You’ve never lost me.”

Hope you’ve enjoyed Lily and Dakota’s journey. I’ll leave what happens after up to you.

Check back next week to see what what I write about next.

Peace & Love

Copyright 2019


Countdown to War 4

Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope you’ve had a wonderful week. I’m continuing the countdown to the upcoming Hrithik vs. Tiger movie War. It’s scheduled to release October 2, 2019. Which if you look at the poster below is the same date that Bang Bang was released in 2014.

This week I’m reviewing Hrithik Roshan’s Bang Bang. His co-star for this movie was Katrina Kaif while not my favorite Bollywood actress she appears to be equally matched to Hrithik as far as being able to keep up with him on the dance floor of this movie.

Bang Bang happens to be one of my and my daughter’s favorite Hrithik Roshan movies. It’s a Bollywood remake of Knight and Day. After watching both of them again, Bang Bang is the version I like better. And it’s not just because Hrithik is one of my favorite Bollywood actors; Tom Cruise is one of my favorite Hollywood actors. So favorite to favorite, Hrithik wins out.

Bang Bang is a funny, romantic, action-packed adventure. Hrithik plays Rajveer Nanda a thief and Katrina plays Harleen Sahani a bank receptionist. The two meet when Harleen is sitting in a restaurant waiting for her internet date. Rajveer sees her and decides to detour, he sits with her and pretends to be her date. She being none the wiser because she’s never seen the guy she’s supposed to be meeting is infatuated with Rajveer. The adventure between the two begin.

Before I go any further you need to know, I was not a film student, so I cannot critique from that perspective. My movie reviews are strictly opinion.

Now, many people are very critical of Bang Bang because not all of the action is believable and they thought the script could have used some work. I won’t comment on the writing other than to say most of it worked because that would require me to watch the movie again and I wanted to post this by noon. As for the action sequences, I loved them, and there were a lot of them. I believe, I said in one of the other reviews that I’m mostly interested in being entertained. I expect to see amazing stunts that can only work with a stunt crew, camera tricks, and animation. If I wanted to watch reality, I’d watch the news.

With all of that said, I give Bang Bang 🤩🤩🤩 and 1/2 starry eyed emojis.

Next week I take a look at all three Krrish movies, Koi…Mil Gaya, Krrish and Krrish 3.

Peace & Love.



Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope you’ve had a great week and an even better weekend. We’re nearing to the end of my short story ‘Moments’. Only one more chapter to go. I thought of continuing the story but, I feel it’s meant to be a short one. I hope you’re enjoying Lily and Dakota’s Moments in time.

Feel free to let me know what you think.

Chapter 4

Why did I let him kiss me? Touch me? Now the feeling remains. I can feel his lips against mine; his thumb pressing against my flesh. Lily walked into her apartment slowly, her thumb rubbing back and forth against her bottom lip. Oh Dakota. Lily placed her bag on the couch and headed straight for her room. She needed a hot bath. Perhaps rose petals are just the thing for tonight.

She ran the bathwater before going to her wine fridge. She walked lazily through her home to the kitchen to grabbed her favorite brand of Moscato and her largest wine glass. I’ll text Sam to check on me in an hour. Wouldn’t want to fall asleep in the tub.

Lily put a few drops of geranium oil in the bath and dropped in a hand full of petals. Then she popped the cork on the wine bottle and filled her glass before getting in. Best tub a girl could have. It was worth every penny.

Her center throbbed, and her heartache for Dakota. She wanted nothing more than to have him with her. Still, Lily knew she had to tread lightly for her own sake. She didn’t want to get wrapped up in him not know what he was looking for or if he genuinely wanted to be with her. She couldn’t deal with giving in only to have him leave with no connection to him.

“Good Morning. You look lovely and cheerful today.”

“Shut up, Sam.”

“Is that how you treat you, a life saver. Lucky I called when I did.”

“Yes, thank you. Hugs and kisses.”

Sam scowled at Lily. “He’s here. At least half an hour before you.”

“Really, and I’m early today.” Lily winked at Sam before she walked into her office.

“Good Morning, beautiful. Didn’t know if you wanted to work in the conference room or not today, so Sam gave me his workspace in your office.”

“That was very nice of Sam.”

“I could sit opposite either of you in my cushy chair. Thank you, Lily.”

“You deserve it.”

“So today’s agenda gentlemen?”

“We finish the contract. My uncle is leaving New York tomorrow, so our deadline is tonight.”

“Guess it’s a good thing we ironed out the details at lunch last night. We’ll have to work through lunch today. Sam, make sure to call in the lunch order today by eleven. Working hard makes me hungry. Also, make a reservation for the private dining room at that new place we heard about and let Mr. Jameson’s secretary know. Make it for six-thirty.”

“I’ll get the lunch menu for you, Dakota. Mrs. Stream, for dinner, do you mean Shun? Also, do you need your usual smoothie by ten.”

“Yes, that’s it. You can go half an hour either way if there’s an issue with the time I picked. And I will need that smoothie.”

They tossed about ideas to settle any issues that Jameson would have with the standard company contract. The partners had already explained what the company would and wouldn’t accept. She did her best work when she was at ease. Thankfully Dakota seemed relaxed today. He didn’t push me. It was nice to feel his eyes on me, and the few times he ran his hand over my legs under the table.

When five o’clock came around, they had finished the last of the contract and were taking a breather.

“You don’t have to watch me like that.”

“Lily, what are you talking about?”

“Please, you’ve been looking at me as though I’m your next meal. Not to mention, please keep your hands to yourself.”

“You know you love my hands on you. Glad you noticed me watching you. I have to burn your image into mind for when you make me sleep alone again tonight.”

Lily smiled. “You’re right. I have always loved your touch, but we’re in my office so I’d appreciate you keeping your hands to yourself.”

“Okay, but I was hoping you’d let me be with you tonight.”

“I bet you did. There is no way you’re saying, ‘Lily I’m sorry’ and I’m going to jump in your arms and be like ‘I’m yours.’”

“Well, a man can dream.”

Lily laughed and returned to sit at her desk. Don’t want him thinking I’m easy. He needs to learn there are consequences for his actions. But I guess I don’t have to be too hard on him. It was the mother of his child. I’m not sure how I would have told him if the shoe were on the other foot. Lily sighed, and she rummaged through her purse. Damn I feel like I’m punishing myself too. I need to feel him.

“Ms. Stream, do you need me to come with you to Shun?”

“No, but you are my assistance so you can come with us.”

“Great, because I made a reservation for five in the private dining room.”

“That’s fine. I have yet to use half of my expense account. And as the partners say, ‘it’s there to spend on the clients. Don’t want them to reduce my account for next year.”

“Got it. We had to take the six o’clock reservation. That’s when Jameson would have dinner with us. So I’ll print and tag everything, you get your mind in gear.”

“My brain switched off ten minutes ago. It needs about thirty minutes.”

Sam chuckled. “Okay, I’ll call a cab. You make sure you have everything.”

Lily closed her eyes and began rubbing and pinch the bridge of her nose. She didn’t pay any attention to the movement in the room. She figured Dakota was packing up his computer. To her surprise, he had walked over to her and began massaging her temples.

“Thank you for the magic fingers, but…”

Dakota didn’t let her finish. “No buts, I’m glad to help out any way I can.” He stopped massaging her temples and moved his hands to her shoulders. Lily barely felt him bend over. “There is so much more of me that I would love to give you,” Dakota whispered in her ear before he nipped the top of her ear with his teeth.

Lily jumped. She would have sprung out of the chair, except he’d pushed her chair as close to the desk as he could comfortably get her. I cannot do this. Creator, I need your strength. You know how I feel about this man, and he is seriously pushing up on me.

Dakota moved to the right of her chair and turned it towards him. He knelt in front of her. “Babe, I am truly sorry that I left you hanging. I’m sorry that I didn’t let you know what was going on with me. I knew you would be hurt, but you would have given me the time I needed. Still, I can’t take working with you and having you act as though my touch doesn’t affect you. You say it does, but I’m not getting the reaction that you usually give me when I sneak touches and kisses. I’m just getting that cold stare and your promise of another night in a cold empty bed.”

Lily said nothing for several minutes. He was holding her hands in her lap. I know this mother fucka is not doing this to me. I could scream. Lily closed her eyes and pictured herself, screaming at the top of her lungs from the balcony of her office. Now Lily Stream pull yourself together. It’s time to get this contract signed. I’ll consider letting him come home with me.

Lily pulled her hands from his and rolled her chair back and stood up. She fixed her skirt as she watched him. Dakoda just stared, dumbfounded by her reaction. She could see it all over his face. I needed to give him a little hope. Lily winked and smiled before turning to leave her office.

“Come on, Dakota, we have to get to the restaurant before your uncle.”

Lily, ordered drinks and an appetizer and took a deep breath just before Jameson was lead to the room by the host. “Mr. Jameson, thank you for coming. Would you like to order a drink.”

“I told you to call me Teddy. And yes a scotch, neat.” The hostess gave a quick nod and walked away.

“Teddy, we’ve created a contract that we think is beneficial to all parties involved.”

“Dakota, what do you think?”

“Best work I’ve ever seen. We’ve covered all the issues and started working on the legal problems.”

Jameson took the contract handed to him by Sam. He skimmed the pages before he proceeded to sign all of the pages flagged with blue tabs. Again he glanced over the pages. Everyone waited for his reaction.

“Excellent. I knew you two would make as great a team as you had in the past.”

“In the past?”

“Yes, I know who you are to my nephew, Ms. Stream.”

“Lily, please. You can’t expect me to call you Teddy and you call me Ms. Stream.”

“Lily, I knew that if he came back and you two started working together, he would be able to apologize and you two move on.”


“Sorry, I’ve overstepped, but since I’ve said this much. You’ve completed the contract before I left the city, you’ve earned a couple of days off. Relax, get to know each other again. I’ll contact you next week for updates on the next steps.”

“Teddy, I.”

“Enjoy the rest of the dinner, please.” With that, Jameson got up from the table and left the private room.

Lily was shocked. She didn’t think Jameson knew that much about the situation. He’s ordering me to take a few days off. I’m not sure how comfortable I am with working for ‘family’ if they are all in my personal life.

“Well, that was interesting. Mr. Jameson has signed all the tag lines,” stated Sam as he reviewed the contract. “So now you two have to sign it.” Sam passed the agreement to Lily first. “Ms. Stream.”

Lily went through the pages with pink tags to initial and sign where she needs to before passing the contract to Dakota. Then she looks at Sam who nods and mouths ‘relax’ to her.

Relax he says; he’s funny. How can I relax when my loins, heart, and brain are going in different directions. I want to be with Dakota, but a long-distance relationship? How are we going to manage that.

“Thank you both. I’ll see you in the office tomorrow. Well actually, I’ll see you in the office next week since today is already Wednesday and you’ve been ordered to take a couple of days off. I’ll get the court documents for New York filed and review everything that Dakota needs to take back to California with him.” Sam winked at Lily and smiled. Then he nodded at Dakota before picking up his attache and leaving the conference room.

“We’ll make it work Lily. Since we’re working together, we’ll need to fly back and forth to complete these cases. We’ll work out what comes after that. I want you. I don’t’ want to be without you.”

Lily said nothing. * I’d like to try a relationship with him again. I miss Dakota so much. But what if? “Let’s enjoy dinner, and I guess I’ll go with you after I pick up some things from my place.”

“Of course, it sounds wonderful.”

Join me next week for the last chapter of ‘Moments’. Will Lily give her heart to Dakota again?

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Peace & Love

Copyright 2019


Countdown to War 3

Hey! Peace and Love to you all.

Hope you’ve been having a great week. This is my second review of the day. I just couldn’t put the two reviews together. If you’re interested in my views on the new movie ‘Hobbs and Shaw’ check out the previous movie review. Here we’re all about Hrithik Roshan and Tiger Shroff.

Since I did another review today, I didn’t get to re-watch Bang Bang. I will complete my review for that next Wednesday. As to why we’re here, Mohenjo Daro.

Hrithik’s 2016 movie about the ancient river valley civilization in Southeast Asia, that is now part of modern day Pakistan. Hrithik plays Sarman, the son of one of Mohenjo Daro’s counselors. But of course we don’t know that until some time into the movie. The producers and directors created an authentic feel to the city. It’s as though you are in Mohenjo Daro.

The storyline is beautiful. The long lost son comes home to find out why this village looks so familiar. It’s a beautiful story that brings Mohenjo Daro to life again. With a Hero and two deadly villians. I love it. Hrithik is his charming heroic self. Of course the fight scenes are to die for.

It’s on Netflix now, but no telling how long it will be there. I give this movie 🤩🤩🤩🤩 out of 5 stars.

Check back to see what reviews I write next week.

Until then…Peace & Love.


Movie Review

Peace and Love Everyone!
I hope everyone has been having a great week. I have two different blogs for you today. I didn’t want to mix the two because there’s a different focus for each one. So first let’s talk about ‘Fast and Furious presents Hobbs and Shaw.’

Now before I go any further, let me say, I am an avid Fast and Furious fan. I have loved almost every Fast and Furious movie from the beginning. I am an avid Vin Diesel fan; I love Idris Elba, The Rock and, Jason Statham. Not necessarily in that order. I’ve seen every movie by Vin and Idris. That does not mean I live every film they’ve done. I have liked most of them.

Now, with that being said, I liked Hobbs and Shaw, but I am not over the moon about it. There was action, most of the men were gorgeous and sexy, and there was romance. That’s usually all you need to have to get me to love a movie. Or so I thought.

We already know who Hobbs and Shaw are. If you’ve been watching the series, we know their history and why they hate each other. But we don’t know Idris’ character at all. We don’t get a good look into why he is the way he is. He’s just made this big decision to be the bad guy because of what exactly. That is not clear at all. So, as to why he hates Shaw, and by association, Hobbs is a little sketchy. And that propels more than half the story

My daughter loved the movie, my son and I think it was okay. I guess with all the action that happens in the Fast and Furious, this movie did not surprise me. Don’t get me wrong at times I was sitting on the edge of my seat. It just didn’t grab me as the other episodes did.

If you’re an avid Fast and Furious fan, you’ll probably love it, maybe. The movie did not wow me. I give Hobbs and Shaw 🤩🤩🤩 and 1/2 stars.

The movie line for the next few months seems promising. So I am back in the movie swing again.

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Peace & Love!



Peace and Love Everyone!

Hope you’ve had a great week.

It took me a while to write this chapter. I had to figure out how far I would take this short story. I believe it will only last for the month of August. I have another story that fits the going back to school theme.

Hope you enjoy the next installment of Moments.

Chapter 3

“Well, looks like everything is in order.”

“Teddy, we’re only halfway through.”

“I trust you, and Dakota here is here to help you work out the kinks. I need to get back to my daughter. So work it out, no matter how long it takes. I know the rates. I expect you two to finish by the end of the week and have something solid for me.”

“But Mr. Jameson, there are a lot of legal issues that have gone unchecked not to mention your books.”

“I know you’ll get your accounting department right on that. Just get me the contract by the end of the week. Then you and Dakota here will work out the rest. I have faith in you both.” With that, Teddy Jameson walked out of the conference room, leaving everyone baffled staring after him.

He’s got to be fuckin’ kidding me. We haven’t even come up with the final plan to get him out of his contract. Lily plopped down in her chair and blew all of the air out of her lungs.

“Don’t look so sad, Lily. We got this.”

Lily didn’t reply. Yeah, right. That leaves me with you every working hour of the day for weeks even after we finished the contract. She looked up to the ceiling. Why are you playing with me? Leaving me no room to avoid him at all. Not even right.

“I need to show myself at the office meeting, and I’ve already missed the first half. You’re welcome to stay here. I need you to go through what the loopholes were for the other firm. We need to make sure we don’t leave room for them to hold on to your uncle’s company in any way. They left a lot of contracts and problems, and we need to hold them accountable.”

“Should I call for lunch?”

“I don’t do lunch at the office anymore if I can help it. Sam, please move my lunchtime at Yamada. Also, update my reservation from one to three.” Lily saw Sam smile, and she winked. “Dakota, I’ll expect you’ll have details for me in the next hour. Sam can get you a drink or smoothie. Whatever you need to get your brain working.”

“Yes, ma’am. You’re such a slave driver.”

Lily didn’t reply. She glances briefly over her shoulder before walking out of the conference room door.

The hours flew by between the conference meeting and lunch. Lily had no intention of going back to the office after lunch. Today was her meditation day, and she didn’t want to work through it as she had been doing lately.

“Lily, it’s three-thirty. You need to get going if you’re going to make it to meditation.”

“Thank you, Sam.”

“I guess I’ll get your address from Sam for dinner.” They had been so busy working. Dakota didn’t want to bring up dinner. Still, he knew she would postpone or try to avoid it for a while since she knew he was in town.

“Sam will give you the address to my favorite restaurant in Little Italy. We can meet there to discuss the last injunction filed.”

She didn’t even mention their date. Dakota knew he would have to earn her forgiveness, but when was he going to get that opportunity if all they did was work? He nodded as he watched her walk away. He wanted to smack her round plump ass.

“She’s not going to make this easy.”

“Sam, I know that.”

“So what are you going to do about it?”

“At this point, I have no idea. I figured she would at least keep our date.”

Sam chuckled. “Oh, did you?” Dakota looked surprised. “You left her without any reassurance that you still loved her. You cut all ties to her without even saying you needed space or it was over. You two had been together for over a year. She felt you were heading to something more permanent and then you just up and left.”

“My uncle needed me.”

“That’s what she thought at first. That’s why she called and answered the few calls you did make. But you stopped calling, texting and video chatting. Then some girl answers your phone. Dude, you didn’t just break her heart you dropped it over a cliff.”


“It figures. Look, she’s in pain. She doesn’t want to work with you. Damn sure not over the next month or so, but she’s stuck. The firm doesn’t want anyone else to work this. Mr. Jameson has been precise. Every time she has to look at you, Lily feels what she thought she got over. So no, if she has to work with you, she’s not going on a dinner date right now. Give her time. Show her you’ve changed.”

“Guess you better give me the address of the restaurant.”

“She lives in Soho. So.”

“She’s close then. I mean, close to the restaurant.”

“Yes, it’s her favorite. She goes every Wednesday.” Sam gave Dakota a restaurant card. “She never does meetings there.”

“That gives me some hope.”

“Yeah, okay. Good luck with that.”

Leaving the center, Lily decided that she would walk. She was glad that she went. She needed that. Whenever she missed her meditation day, she regretted it and was on edge before the end of the week. Now I have to deal with Dakota. It was so hard to focus with him there today. He was close to me on purpose. He rolled his chair close; he sat in front of me on the table as we reviewed the central contracts that his uncle had signed. Did he have to sit right in front of me so that his crotch was the first thing I saw when I looked up? Lily mentally shook herself and pulled the door open.

“Good evening, Señora Stream.”

“Good evening Victor. I’m expecting an associate to dine with me.”

“Yes, I believe he’s at the bar.”

“Thank you.”

“You’re usual table will be ready when you are.”

Lily walked over to the bar and just stood a few inches behind Dakota. He used to be able to feel her presence. Could he still? She was hoping they still had that close connection. It didn’t take more than a few seconds.

“Are you just going to stand there?”

“Just testing.”

“Yes, I can still feel you and the anger that you were trying to rein in when you saw me this morning.” Dakota still hadn’t turned around.

I didn’t want him to feel that. “So why didn’t you say anything?”

“I didn’t know why you were so angry.”

“Let’s get to work. Did you bring the documents?”


“My table is this way.” Lily walked a few feet and stood to the left of her chair, waiting for Dakota to pull it out. On their first date, he just sat down. It wasn’t until he noticed she didn’t sit that he got up and pulled out her chair. She smiled. Glad he remembered.

“You’re just gonna bust my balls for the next month aren’t you?”

Lily look directly into his eyes but said nothing.

“Lily.” He paused when her eyes widened. “Sorry that was a bit loud. Lily, please forgive me. Just let me explain.”

“Dakota, we have work to do. We need to figure out how to solve these before we can finish the contract. We can talk later.”

Lily could see the sadness in his eyes. Was he remorseful? He certainly looks so. Let’s see how much. I can’t just take him back because he says he’s sorry. She sighed before opening the first folder.

“So you know what you want already?”

“My menu here is set. My waiter has been very good at selecting from the menu for me. There are only three or four items on the menu that I eat. So once I make my reservation, it’s pretty set.” Lily had just finished speaking when Matt brought over her appetizer.

“Señor are you ready to order?”

By the time Dakota had ordered Lily had settled her mind into work mode. She would not be distracted by his begging. Unless he begs very well. That’s never been his forte.

The two of them sat side by side and worked straight for several hours. When Lily stretched, Dakota took that as a cue. “Lily, I didn’t mean to hurt you. You have to know that. I loved you. I still love you.”

Lily said nothing. She knew this was coming. She reorganized the folders making sure everything was in its rightful place and placed the papers back into the attache that Dakota brought them in.

“Babe, I’ve missed you so much.” Dakota’s hand moved to her thigh and up her skirt. He paused. When she didn’t stop him, he slid his fingers under her and stroked her clit with his thumb through her silk garment. Her eyes locked with his.

God I’ve missed this man and his touch. Yes, Dakota. She slightly parted her legs before angling her body to him.

“I am sorry, Lily. I had to go, and I couldn’t break up with you. I didn’t want to lose you. I didn’t know how to handle not having you with me. We had such a great sex life. I was ready to wife you before I got the court order.”

“What court order?”

“It was for child support.”

“But I thought you didn’t have any children from your past affairs.”

“So did I. But there it was. I couldn’t tell you unless I knew more. You would have gone with me. So, when my uncle said he needed me to look into some legal matters, I jumped at the chance.”

“We were good for a while. What changed?”

“The mother’s name is Diane, and my daughter’s name is Marisol.”

“So she is your daughter.”

“Yes, I requested a paternity test. I wanted to get to know Marisol. Thought maybe I should seriously give my daughter the chance to grow up with two parents.”

“I see.” Lily had been leaning into Dakota; she slid forward a bit in her chair. Now she pulled back.

“No, you don’t.” When Lily didn’t re-adjust her body, Dakota pulled his hand away from her folds and rested it on her knee. “We went out maybe a few times. But I couldn’t see building a life with her. My heart ached for you. I knew you’d be past pissed at me for leaving you hanging, but. I didn’t know how to make my way back. Then, one night after she got drunk hanging out with her friends, she came to pick up Marisol drunk. I didn’t want her to drive like that, so I said she could sleep in my room with Marisol. I was already on the couch. I thought I had a vivid dream about you,” Dakota’s voice dropped to a whisper, and he moved closer. “About you giving me head. I called your name, held your head to me ’til I came. It wasn’t until after that I realized why it felt different.”

“It was her.”

“It was her, and she was pissed. I felt as though I betrayed you and knew I couldn’t just run back to you.” Dakota watched Lily’s eyes for a moment. “She tried to seduce me several times after that, not to mention she answered my phone and erased your calls. She wouldn’t let me see Marisol. I took her to court for joint custody.”

“Not sure what you want me to say.”

“That you forgive me for not being upfront with you. That we can start over.”

“I can’t start over. I’ve been with you, love you. I know our connection and the feel of you.” Lily got up from the table and grabbed her things. Tears rolled down her cheeks.

“Can I walk you home?”

“I won’t object.” Lily didn’t miss a step. She said her goodbyes as she walked out of the restaurant followed by Dakota.

The two walked for blocks in silence. What the fuck do I do? We talked about what would happen if he slipped and let another woman give him head or fuck him. We talked about his penance. He had paid it without me knowing. I think he did. “Dakota,” she called to him. “How long has it been since you’ve been with anyone?”

“Six months.”

“Wait; what?”

“It all happened before I came back and made love to you. It happened three months after I left the first time.”

“Oh.” He paid without her knowing. He was to be without anyone or her for six months. “Is that why the last time we were intimate, you wore a condom?”

“Yes, I won’t anymore.”

Lily didn’t reply. She walked up to the steps to her apartment building and turned to Dakota.

“Can I have you, Lily?”

“Not tonight.”

“But I’ve done my penance. I’m clean. Lily, I need you.”

“I know, I feel your need. It inflames mine. But not tonight.”

“How long?”

“When the last year of our lives no longer shakes me to my core.”

“Lily.” Dakota walked up to the last two steps, closing the distance between them. He wrapped one arm around her waist and laid his other hand gently against her cheek. Dakota pulled her into him, his lips lightly touching hers. He softly kissed her, pushing his tongue between her lips to deepen the kiss. Pulling her closer so that she could feel his need for her. They pulled away from each other ever so slightly before Dakota embraced her tightly. “I never stopped loving you, Lily.”

He didn’t wait to hear her reply. Dakota let her go and raced down the steps into the Uber that waited for him.

Lily refused to watch Dakota leave, and she didn’t want to call him back. She immediately turned and walked into the vestibule of her building. She was exhausted and wanted nothing more than a warm bath and her bed. Tomorrow is another day, and she would be with him for weeks. She would be able to tell if he was hers again.

Hope you like Chapter 3 of Moments. Let me know what you think. Should Lily make Dakota suffer a little more or put him out of his misery?

Make sure to check back next Sunday for the next Chapter.

Until then…Peace & Love.

Copyright 2019


Countdown to War

Peace and Love Everyone!

I’m counting down to the Bollywood movie War. We have two months and three days left before this epic War begins between Hrithik Roshan and Tiger Shroff.

This week I’m reviewing two of Hrithik Roshan’s movies Kaabil and Jodhaa Akbar. Both movies are on Netflix presently. Although, I’m not sure for how long.

Originally, I was going to do 1 movie at a time but there are other movies I want to talk about coming out so here we go.

First up Kaabil, a love story turned nightmare. Hrithik’s character, Rohan, is blind and is fixed up with a beauty who is also blind. She’s skeptical that he can care for her at first but he wins her over. And don’t you know, haters going to hate. When the couple marry, the local thug and his best friend are jealous. The happy couple isn’t happy for long.

Rohan becomes the avenging angel for his beautiful wife. No one would think a blind man could fight back. Hrithik is believable as Rohan and so are the action scenes.

I give Kaabil 🤩🤩🤩🤩 out of 5 starry eyed emojis.

Jodhaa Akbar is based on the history of Hindustan. Jalaudin Mohammed Akbar (Hrithik) was ruler in the Mughals dynasty. The dream was to unite all of Hindustan (Indai). Akbar was the first Mughal emperor born in Hindustan. He is wedded to a Hindu princess Jodhaa who is played by Aishwarya Rai.

Jodhaa Akbar is a winding and twisting tale of love, honor and betrayal. Hrithik gives a powerful performance as Akbar. The chemistry between him and Aishwarya is kismet. It’s a must see. I give Jodhaa Akbar 🤩🤩🤩🤩 out of 5 starry eye emojis.

So far I’ve reviewed Super 30, Kaabil and Jodhaa Akbar. Let me know what you think of the movies. Do you agree with my review?

Make sure to check back in next week for my review of Mohenjo Daro and Bang Bang.

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Until then, Peace & Love.



Peace and Love Everyone! Hope you’ve had a great week and an even greater weekend.

I’ve been enjoying writing the thoughts of Lily so far. It’s not an easy feat though. I have to make sure that it doesn’t bring you out of the story or create confusion. So far so good. Before I go on any further, here is the next installment of Moments.

Chapter 2

Lily walked briskly into the building glad that the elevator had just opened. Hold it together, hold it to-gether, just make it to the office. As she pressed the twentieth floor and turned around, she saw Dakota walking towards her. He had just made it into the building when the elevator doors closed. She let out a breath. Thank God. There was no way I’m riding the elevator with him. Why was I holding my breath? Damn him. She closed her eyes and imagined herself screaming. Once she was done, she took a deep breath, just in time for the door to open on her floor. Smile and get to your room. She donned her smile and walked into the office with her shoulders back and head straight ahead.

“Good Morning Ms. Stream.”

“Morning,” was all she replied as she walked purposefully towards her corner office.

When she walked by, Sam was at his desk. He had opened his mouth to say good morning when he noticed her eyes. He looked around to make sure no one was watching before he grabbed the box of tissues and followed Lily into her office.

She plopped down at her desk and held her hand out for a tissue. She could feel the hot tears streaming.

“You saw him?”

Did he seriously ask me if I saw him? No way. “Samuel, you knew?”

“Look at your text.” Sam paused and waited for her to do so. After seeing his message being the first, she eyed him suspiciously as she opened the text.

“Why was the warning not in the note?”

“I found out after I sent the note that he was representing Mr. Jameson. He’s his great-nephew.”

Likely story. Lily dropped her head to the desk with a ‘bunk’ and raised her hands above her head. I give up. I can’t fight him off for twelve hours furthermore a week.

“Lily, what’s the matter. I mean, besides the obvious?”

“Who am I spending the next week with working? Who do I have to make sure has a smooth transition from our adversary to us over the next two weeks?”

“Jameson.” Sam paused, and his eyes went wide.

Finally, my brilliant assistant gets it. Almost two weeks with the man I love who doesn’t love me. The stuff dreams are made of. “Oh, Mr. Smarty Assistant is no longer batting three hundred.”

“Lily, I didn’t know.”

Lily looked behind her and under her desk before looking back at Sam.

“Sorry, Ms. Stream, I know I’m to address you professionally until we leave the building.”

Lily nodded before reaching for a tissue.

“You’ll have to pull it together.”

No fucking kidding. Pull it together, when the first discussion we’ve had in six months is how he misses our morning calls. How am I not more of a basket case? “Sam, you don’t understand.”

“Don’t I? Who do you call in the middle of the night when you’re alone? Who has to deal with the pretending to be your significant other when you can’t avoid your family? I understand. And love me or not, I have to be real. You need him. And the way his eyes searched the room and office for any hint of you, means he feels it too. Stop being so stubborn. Let the man apologize, and the two of you move on.”

“You can’t be serious. I’m not going through that again. Dakota has no idea how his leaving made me feel or how he hurt me.”

“Then tell him.”

“As if that’s all, there is to it.”

“Isn’t it?”

Lily didn’t reply for a while. Why should there be any confusion? He went to California after a hot and blissful night together. He barely called. The calls and text got less and less. Then he cheated. What’s there to be confused about.

“Just tell him,” Sam replied. There was silence again. He could see her hashing out her dismay in her head. “Get it together either way. Dakota just stepped out of the elevator.”

Lily dabbed at her eyes and took a deep breath.

“Hi, Sam.”

“Hi. Ms. Stream, I’ll be right outside.”

Lily looked pleadingly at Sam. He mouthed ‘you’ll be fine,’ before walking to his desk.

“Lily, I had no idea that you were hurting.”

“So inappropriate. This is neither the time nor the place for this. And don’t try to use my feelings for you to get over.”

“I know it’s not the place, but I didn’t think you would say yes to dinner. And I wouldn’t use your feelings, that would be absolutely stupid. You’d skewer me just to make a point.”

Lily smiled. “Glad you remembered. I don’t mix business and pleasure. Although, I’ve used my feminine wilds to throw a man off his game.”

Dakota chuckled. “I remember Paul. Poor guy.” They both laughed, and it eased the tension in the room. “So, dinner?”

“This isn’t a public discussion, Dakota.”

“You’d trust me in my suite?”

“I can have something catered tonight.”

“God forbid you cook for me.”

“You haven’t earned nor do you deserve me cooking for you.”

“Good, we’re all here.” Lily looked up to see Mr. Jameson at her door.

“Shall we head to the conference room?” Sam was up from his desk and behind Mr. Jameson right after he greeted them.

“Thank you, Sam. We’ll be right there. See if Mr. Jameson wants anything.”

“You’ve got to stop calling me Mr. Jameson, Teddy please.”

“Okay. Teddy, we’ll be right in.”

Lily and Dakota waited for Teddy to leave the room before he turned to her. “So your home, 7pm.”

Lily didn’t reply but gathered her papers for the meeting while Dakota watched her, perched on the end of her desk. When she looked up, their eyes locked, and she forced herself not to smile. Was she really going down this road? If it didn’t work, she was going to fire Samuel. Well, she actually wouldn’t, but she would speak with him angrily for a week. “I don’t think you deserve the chance.”


I can’t make it that easy on you dear Dakota. “I’ll hear you out. If I don’t like what you say, I’ll throw you out with no dinner.”

“Alright, Cruela wanna be.”

“Be grateful.”

“Oh, I am. Let’s go.”

“You remember where the conference room is. Go on, I’ll be there soon.”
Lily watched him walk away. I love that view. To hold his hot ass in my hands as he has his way with me… Lily smiled. Stop it! She mentally yelled at herself. She’s already gone headfirst down the rabbit hole. Lily sighed again before checking her makeup. She grabbed her papers and walked toward the conference room.

Maybe he can have his way with me and then I put him out without dinner. What a slippery slope that was.

Thank you so much for reading. Hope you’re enjoying Lily’s journey.

Let me know what your thoughts are. Until next Sunday…..

Peace & Love

Copyright 2019


The War Is On

Peace & Love Everyone!

How are you? I am excited about a movie that is coming out October 2, 2019. I know that seems so far away. For me almost too far, but that gives me time to help you catch up.

War is a movie that pits two of Bollywood’s most sexy action and dance stars against each other, Hrithik Roshan and Tiger Shroff. If you read my blogs you’ve read about a few of the movies they starred in. Last Wednesday I did a review of Roshan’s ‘Super 30’. My last movie review for Shroff was Baaghi 2 I believe. Both do amazing stunts and both men not only appreciate the King of Pop but they love and can dance like him.

Well both gentlemen had been whispering about a competition. One vs. the other. If you aren’t familiar ladies let me introduce you…

Tiger on the left, Hrithik on the right

Tiger is new to the scene. His first movie was in 2014. So he’s really been in the Bollywood business less than a decade unless you include the fact that he is the son of Jackie Shroff. Tiger has starred in six movies 2 short videos and a couple of tv episodes.

Hrithik on the other hand has been a part of Bollywood for much longer. I believe his first staring role was Kaho Naa..Pyaar Hai in 2000. Now, that doesn’t include roles that he played that were uncredited. After all Hrithik is the son of Bollywood’s own Rakesh Roshan, former actor, present movie producer several of which are his son’s movies.

I have pretty much seen almost all of the movies that these two men have starred in. So join me over the next three months as I review their movies and get ready for War.

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Until my next Wednesday, where I will review Hrithik’s second to last movie Kaabil.

Peace & Love

Just Me

Peace & Love Everyone!

I hope everyone is well. I’m good. Struggling, but who isn’t. I guess the 1% aren’t. Anyway, just wanted to say hello and let you know what’s going on with me. As you know, if you’ve been reading my posts, I am now a travel agent. I was so excited. It’s a whole new world. I never knew there was so much to travel. It’s an exciting new world of companies and people who only deal with travel. I was looking at cabins today. There are so many and some were so awesome. I also looked at booking a house in Barbados for a client. You so should. Best way to go if you don’t have hotel money. A whole group and get together and rent one.

There are teacher digital planners in my Etsy shop now. Everything is on sale this week for Labor Day. And on September 30, I’ll release 4 new digital planners.

I’m just rambling so I’ll stop here by saying: I’d be honored to plan your getaway.

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Peace and Love

Steps to Goals

Peace & Love Everyone! I want to say, thanks for stopping by. I truly appreciate you taking the time to check out my page.

Today I wanted to talk about planning goals regularly. Some of us plan day to day, week to week or month to month. We all plan differently. I know a lot of people who don’t have a fancy journal or planner. Instead they use to do lists. We’re all different. What’s important is to get it done

I’ve been working out a plan to make me more consistent with planning and achieving my goals. I tend to forget and get lost in one activity to the next. There were more than a few days where I would jump from task to task without finishing more than one. I would be working on a task, remember something else and go to do it. I would jump from task to task not completing all of them and feeling tired by the end of the day, wondering why.

I don’t do that much anymore. I have a series of practices to prevent that. Not that it doesn’t happen at all. I’ve just learned how to focus it. So just a tip, when you find that happening to you, write down the tasks as they come to mind and finish what you are doing. Then you can move to the next task when you’re finished and so on. At the same time you won’t forget what needs to be done because you’ve written it down.

Now that’s not even what I came to talk about. It just came to mind, so I figured I’d include it. Today I wanted to talk about how I use a planning sheet to focus my achievements of goals.

I have several goal sheets in my shop that were created to keep me focused. I hope they will help you. I would create my goal list at the beginning of each year and start trudging towards each goal. But after a short time I would feel like the goal was too large and I would get lost in trying to figure out how to achieve it. My solution is actually 2 sheets, but they’re not always needed. One is the steps sheet and the other a to do list. Let’s talk about the steps sheet in this blog.

After I write my goals for the year I then use a steps sheet. This is to break down each goal. Sometimes you need to see the steps to make you goal clear. I have 2 sets of steps sheets, one is for short goals and the other is for the longer ones. You know, that large goal that has all the little details and actions necessary to complete it.

Let’s say, you want to grow your social media account. (Something I’m still working on) First you need to figure out what needs to be done to achieve the goal. That would translate into the steps. So let’s say we need to post more, and interact with people to build rapport. You can have a sheet for post and write down what post you’d like to do. Maybe research what’s trending. Write it down and check it off as you go. You can use it for any goal. You have to make sure that you break it down into smaller pieces (steps) so as not to overwhelm yourself.

What steps will you take to achieve your goal(s)?

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Until next time. Peace and Love.

Let’s Check In

OMG! It feels like forever since I’ve written here. I don’t even remember my last post.

I hope everyone is doing well or better now.

I couldn’t bring myself to write here when everything hit the fan. Now I’m back.

So, 2020 WTF? What took place in 2020 was unfathomable by this generation I think. And unfortunately, it continues. On this end we’re well. Like many in 2020 we lost close family and friends. We persevered, and here we are.

I must say I won’t be writing here often this year. It takes so much time to write and then edit and edit and edit to get it right so that it make sense to more than just myself. The writing here was my expression of my creativity but in no way perfect. Still, I hope you enjoy the stories here.

I am revamping everything. I attended a zoom conference for writers that has really helped me see what I’m missing in my writing. So back to the drawing board I go. I have two novels in the works. One new and the other a labor of love. That says nothing of my ideas from before. No, you have not read them all. Here was just the beginning of it all. My journey continues.

I hope that you’ve used the time at home to explore your true desires and improve yourself. I am. As long as we live we should grow. It’s hard most of the time with work and children if you have. Not to mention life throws curve balls more often than we would like.

All and all, if you’re still standing, you continue. So do I.

Peace and Love.

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